Love . Trust . Appreciate .

Just now found some pictures which was taken quite sometime ago me, my baby and john were having our dinner at hougang point (or green) we were discussing about the steamboat on 7 Oct 06 and had list out some draft about that event

Tomorrow will be the last day for October 2006 I have make some wish list at the right hand column and i hope to achieve it Though it will takes me a long time to achieve some but still it will reminds me what i want and i will try to achieve it Things i want has to be bought with money and i know i have to save it up for some time working hard for money is really hard last time i used to work and work and the only day im happy is pay day now i work and work, still the happiest day of the month is pay day is it im too weak to defense myself?

Sometimes i wish i was born with a sliverspoon maybe i will live a better life and less burden now i'm not blaming my parents to be in this state cos i know maybe this is what i should have get if i have no financial problem, i think i wont be so stress so often i know everyone is always having their own problems and many might feel that im lucky to have this and sometimes i feel that they are lucky to have that but in the long run, i realised that somehow life is fair god give u this and take away another thing from you it applies to everyone everyone is having this kind of situations not everyone can have what i have even when they are rich they cant have true friends like mine, they cant have my freedom, they cant have gathering like mine where everyone is happy eating and playing no point to envy other people who have all the things you want but they dun have the things you already have i dun have a rich baby but at least i have a baby who loves me very muchthose rich people ar...

Yesterday noon went to lot 1 with pinky, ah yi & ah ger to get mum present and had bought her flower and pinky bought her the 4 leaves hp chain after buying the present and some food, we wait outside the condo to wait for zhenny and fenny to come meet us 1st cos we wanna give mum a surprise after eating, we went for some exercise cos i felt so full and the exercise ground is just beside us i get very lazy to write when there's pictures pardon me for being so lazy

I remember every year i will go cubbbing to celebrate Halloween where many people will dress up in all sorts of weird and scary or rather some funny customes for the party Though halloween falls on 31 Oct but which ever weekend comes before it, clubbing people will celebrate it before hand last 2 years i went to DBL O and saw the scary student and bloody doctor but it wasnt really scary after all the dancing and drinking Halloween has a special way to celebrate and though its about saints or spirits, everyone celebrate it in a happy mood I hope in future, i can hold a party in my house for halloween too.. with the little kids dress up and go sing song at the door steps and having sweets and candies but i know its not very possible in spore where people don't really celebrate from door to door but next time if got children come to my house door sing i will surely give candies to them

today is mum bdae and later we will be going over to celebrate for her pinky and her mum and ah ger will be going over too wah another celebration again this month last 2 weeks is pinky mum bdae and today is mum bdae i hope the camera batt is enough to last thru the wedding dinner haiz everytime batt go off so fast

i have been working there for 2 weeks and now im slowly picking up but somehow things still doesnt seem as simple as it is haiz too much things and though there isnt much politics going around but still gossiping is unavoidable everywhere u go there will be people gossiping lunch time for office people is a gossip time that time i went for lunch at kopi shop with baby and john i hear that ger keep complaining about everything and said so much about the office sometimes i hear until so sian but sometimes its just to pass time and they talk about someone in the office 2 weeks in office seem to pass very fast day by day went thru work morn till evening sleep awhile then wake up and work sometimes i just think that 24hrs a day isnt really enough for me i have so less time at home and less time for friends and family why dun people work 4 days and rest 3 days in a week why must there be 7 days in a week? why cant there be 4 days in a week? work 2 days off 2 days when the world is going to c...

After that incident at Mdm Foo office where they ask me to leave after 2 weeks of work where they find me no experience on accounting, i have been fearing that this company wont do the same like her. This is really bad for me cos the fear in me makes me work slow and cause me to stress where i wanna to do better but there's always a barrier infront of me. I dunno whether its really i dun have the capability to work or my brain has start to slow down. I have been rushing for the work but the people there just keep rushing me and said i work slow.. damn it! i work fast and finish my work and they see me nothing to do then they will say "you got nothing to do already ar?" god damn it! i was trying to familiarise the format of the documents and they see me not busy and push work over to me. When things doesnt get right, they will tell me: "when you free, read thru the documents and see how the format works." NB they are just contradiciting themself how to work well?...

today is really a busy day for me work from morn till off work work until 6pm still dunno is 6pm i think im slow in learning now cos sometimes too tired to concentrate very sleepy, very tired eyes very heavy well the battle is getting start soon

reach home very tired and still drowsy no choice but still have to eat the medicine which make me very drowsy ate the medicine 30mins ago now starting to feel more drowsy got to sleep early tonight mood isnt good now conflicts flying around me haiz

tonight went to lot 1 with june to have dinner at Sakae sushi and until now im still very full we order not much but eat until want to burst liao cos after sushi i still order a strawberry milkshake from mac wah bloody full finish eating and its photo taking sessions while eating, i saw one little boy peeping at us while his parents are queeing he was looking thru the mini hole behind june so cutie cute he told his mum that we are taking his pics and after that he didnt appear anymore

haiz im really tired of getting sceptic nothing good comes out of it everything is so real i dunno which is real or which is unreal sometimes im confused to which to believe people treat me hot and cold i treat others also the same is this so call depression or which ever termology they called? i only sceptic is going to ruin me again i cant control my mind i dunno how long i can hold this i just hope everything gets over soon so that i wont be so painful

john john once said an incident to me and baby moral of the incident are if you didnt invent or create any world record, what good have you good? still like everyone else it means, people with high qualification doesnt mean they are better or they are more talent people went to school to study but all they study are the records of those historical character whom had used maybe 10, 20 years to note down something which they discover or invent we are only studying their records cos they make it easier for us to understand something which most of the other people dun have this is call experience elder people are still more clever and have more knowledge than youngerster they have experience more than us they know more things and they know a shortcut to some matters which we might always use a longer route to achieve something they have made it easier for us to achieve our goal people with high qualifications doesnt mean they are more clever fact are they are more richer than us they are m...

yesterday morning baby after work came back to fetch me to work and before my work we went to downstair for our breakfast yesterday morning had felt itchy on my hands and i thought its some insect bites when i reach office whole i was itchy with my body but i was too busy to gp check until after work when i had more time my body start to itch more after itchy hand scratching my body appear some red swollen patch haiz we thought is rashes but last night when i went to doctor he said is due to food uncompatiable or dirty air i dunno what food is wrong but he see me keep scratching he said an injection will helps of cos i know will help but injection hurts it was very painful though only for awhile the injection works less than 5 mins i dun feel any itch and the red patch start to disappear but doctor said i will knock out in 30mins ya i really knock out in 30mins am too drowsy until now im still feeling very drowsy

actually a year ago is a monday having nothing to do at work and had posted a post about my weekend that was the time baby was sick and really cant go out to play with me so i stayed at home doing house chores

every sunday fenny and nini will come over to have dinner with dad and after dinner they will lie on my bed to rest dirty cat... even they go out whole day and still will lie on my bed they smell of limes & lemons today while watching tv nini fall alseep too boring bah i think after nini wake up its fenny turn to sleep they took turn to sleep cos they said my bed make them faint hahahahhahhahaa nini smell our armpits!!! woohooo it will make u awake!!