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原来，心还会有心痛的感觉。。。 我以为我的心已经麻木了，不会再有什么伤感。为何还要让我走回以前的路。这种路不好走。是否因该停止结束了能？ 人老了，心再也没向以前那么的坚强。越老越脆弱，越难补回。也许不是我一个人有着这样的感觉。世上还有比我跟不开心的人在默个角落伤心流泪。想着把生命结束，忘掉一切。 因为不想下地狱继续痛苦，只好继续在人间痛苦。不是放不下，而是没必要为了谁而死。死不是结束，而是继续痛苦。 想不开，大哭一场，走出去就有路。路是自己选的。。。

人的一生， 不应该只有爱情。 虽然说爱的力量能胜过一切但是，没有爱情的日子还是有很多事等着我们。说是容易，有几个人能做到。 有时两个人在一起，需要很多的体谅和包容。 但是也要看情况。 不是什么都是你对我错。 第一次原谅，是希望他能知道自己错在那里。 第二次原谅， 可能是自己想不开。 第三次原谅， 是已经没什么希望， 没要求， 因为自己选的路要自己承担， 负者。希望便失望不是一朝一夕的事。 这一生，总会走错路。只要自己知道错在那里， 下一步会跟小心。不是什么都有第二次机会，第二次原谅。 是时间能冲淡一切， 还是时间能让心更麻木？ 心痛了，痛久了，心就累了，做什么都是多余的。心如死木。。。

2011 year has been a long year and some of the things are not too smooth. Though not very serious but work is not too good and either at home. Conflicts and misunderstandings arose and me having PMS every month. Not feeling good about everyone and everything but then, still have to endure. Treatment for my sweaty palm isnt working very well. Been going to TMC but due to the cost, i cant go every week. Its too much. Looking back at 2011, i have achieved 2 resolutions. Finally, a year which i have achieve my realistic resolution. ( 2011 resolutions ) Now looking forward, i should have something more than this year. 1. Complete WSH diploma 2. Get a higher and better job position 3. To sponsor a child 4. Lose weight to 55kg - 15kg to go 4 resolutions for 2012 and hope i can achieve it. Wishing all a happy new year and prosper year ahead!

Starting from this week, grant is going to N2 class. Nursery 2. Changed of teacher and class but it is just next door. Familiar teacher around him. The only worry is next year when we moved, he has to change school and start all over again. He is 4 years old next year and also getting rebellious and too independent. Sometimes he is getting on my nerves too much. Making me crazy like mad woman. Im aging too fast everyday..

November is the month of my many family and friends birthday. Mum, Pinky, Xiang Ting, Sintat and many more. For Mum birthday, we went to East Coast park to have picnic but raining seasons and we have a quick picnic and left. But the most interesting part is we ate the cake with our forks. Everyone took their forks and dig the cake to eat. No plate and straight from box. It was durian ice cream cake and super nice.   Grant is growing up and the way he talks is so funny. Makes me angry and then again he knows how to make me laugh.   When I said children cannot talk back and he replied "I never talk back, I talked in front!". Children are so innocent as angels and that's why they are the motivation for us to work more harder for them. When I heard what he said, I wanted to laugh out loud but still have to be serious on this. Sometimes he makes me crazy and sometimes happy to have him around. Children makes our life unpredictable and full of surprises.   Planning for 2...

Christmas is just a month ahead but planning have to be done now. Plans for who to buy present for and what to cook for potluck. And where to held our Christmas dinner. This festival we will always meet up and celebrate with relatives but seldom had celebration with friends. I still will have a gathering with sch friends before Xmas. Christmas is a season full of joy and here wishing everyone a merry Christmas! Can't wait to reach Christmas soon.

From young, we were taught to save electricity as we are not from the rich nor the average class. We were below average and with the pay of our parents to support we 4 siblings, is really a tough task. Those were the times where Singapore is in the transit of developing to a more developed country. During the times where Singapore is transiting, prices went up though and the pay is just enough for we 6. Even though if we have times where we need to borrow money, we children won’t know. Because that will be handle by our parents and even if they tell us, we are too young to understand. That's why we were taught to save electricity and water as much as possible. Not to waste water & electricity and even food. Everything needs money and money was hard to earn. There were no luxury place or food for us and the only luxury food for us was Pizza hut / KFC / Mac. That’s what the new generation are eating almost every day now. The children before the 90’s are more...

Time seems to take its own sweet time for October. Many things happened in October. Be it good or bad, life still goes on. I was invited to 2 weddings at mid month and both wedding are my ex-bfs. What can I say.. My first love whom i had hurt the most and the love who has hurt me most. I am the first to get married and move on to a normal life. Not that life with them are not normal but then, not stable and every week out to clubbing. At least life is more stable and peaceful now. I have another colleague being kicked out from this company and people said he deserve it due to his attitude. Yes his attitude was bad but he could have given a warning but our company culture likes to terminate ppl with immediate effect. And we have to pay the person 3mths salary. That's where our bonus goes to. We have our MD permanently station here in Singapore and he is fully in charge of Spore. But life will be abit more tense in office when he comes. No horseplay, no loud talking, no loud laugh, n...

I started using iPhone last year May and start using iMac this year June and now founder of Apple has passed away yesterday. The person behind all this unique and intelligent gadgets has left us all his precious invention. Though he's gone I hope his spirit of guts, decisive and more stays with us. And this post is blog thru my iPhone.

Had a nice rotting weekend in Bintan villas but time is short. Next rotting time will go for 2 more days. Everything is good. House is big with our own private swimming pool and BBQ pit but we have to bring our own food from spore. Rotting in the house is really shiok. Do nothing, no pressure, no work but rot. Be a potato couch whole day is also no problem. September received 2 red bombs from my exs'. Their wedding dates are together but lucky not on the same day. 14 & 15 oct. Though we are not fated to live together but will be friends till lau Kok Kok. I'm glad they still treat me as friends after I have hurt them so much I still treat them as friends when they have hurt me so much too. As time goes by, growing up makes me realise that in a relationship is not able who have hurt who, who has give in more or less, who has love more or less and most importantly it doesn't matter who is right who is wrong. Life still goes on and eventually one will get used to the hurt w...

Peaceful and quiet days doesn't last long enough for me to enjoy. Last week PIL went overseas for 4days and total peace and quietness in the house. Now I can't wait for our new house to be ready. The speed of building up is fast and is like one level per week. Its is at 8th floor now and by the time it's 16th floor, it's shld be 2 months later. And give them another 6mths it shld be ready and we can move in soon. Woohoo so happy. Hope I can have the peace at my new house. Now the flats is in the progress of building and I already know who is my neighbors in my blk and as well as other blk around me. The power of FB and network is really no words say. My future neighbor has added me as a friend in FB and everyone is so excited about our new house. Though it's small and expensive but it's our home.

I understand how Sleepy felt when he is working.

Its good to hear good comments from someone about yourself. I was surprise that my MD was complimenting me to my colleagues in Norway as I seldom talk much to our MD when he is in Singapore. My colleagues told me: So happy to know my boss is happy with my work and I'm glad I am not invisible at workplace. 

Almost half a month of September and now then I'm blogging about August. Other than busy at work, I'm busy with my Sims 2 and creating families from the first generation. It's the third generation now and 2nd generation have 3 kids and all gers. In real life I can't afford to live in big house with a big swimming pool and all the luxuries I have in the Sims. Life in Sims needs to work also and go to school. With the Sims in my computer I don't need to watch movies and no time to do my assignment too. I hope life at work gets better. Putting 99% of my focus for the 8hrs is really tedious and losing my energy fast. Still need to "serve" those ah nehs really make me lose interest in work. Things are getting better with AB cos at least he do the things himself. NT is still a bastard. He is a shameless ah neh who works with his mouth only. But soon, I hope he will be out of here. Cos working with mouth won't last long.

Eversince I installed win 7 in my iMac, I have been playing The Sims 2 and doing the house layout same as my future house in Punggol. Same layout but the size much bigger than the reality. Been playing sims for years and everytime when I play until a certain stage I will stop playing cos it's all in a cycle. Before installing win 7, I have nothing to do in my mac cos I can't watch movies and drama online and can only do my assignment. Now I have no time to do my assignment. I have to stop playing sims for a awhile now but I just started last Friday.

This module we learn Risk Management and wanna share some interesting to you all. During a fire drill, a safety officer want to demonstrate the use if fire extinguisher and therefore he wanted to create a small fire in the metal container. Of course to light up a fire you need oil. So he use petrol. The one which used for cars. The moment he throw the light down into the container, the fire flash back to him and to his back. Petrol is the faster oil to light up cos it can create vapor with fire easily. To use oil during a drill, use diesel. It's not easy to light up and takes some time to fully light up.

Seriously when we are 3.5yrs old, we have little words knowledge not to say grammar or .... See I dunno even know what the terms are. When grant say he wants to sit motorbike, I say will fall down and he say "I won't fall down". He knows what is "won't", "can't". Sometimes I'm just surprise at his speed of learning. Ever since he starts to talk, he learn things fast. Now teacher say he very good at talking back. But teacher still likes him.

I first start blogging on August 25, 2004 in blogger and im still blogging now.  Its been 7 years and still i am complaining in blog. Everything that im happy or sad, angry or love... anything that is happening to me every now and then. Time past. Leaving those memories which i have kept in blog. To remind me how i have grown and experience all the parts and parcels of life. Different phrase of life faces different situation and only that can make me grow and handles things more effectively and efficient. Be it personal or work, learning can never stop. All i can do is to move on and plan for next phrase, next chapter. Good or bad, depends on how i plan. http://dalinger.blogspot.com/2004/08/yeah-1st-postin.html

Total YTD (Year to date) of post is only 45. What am I doing? I have been blogging from 2005 and every year is just decreasing. Every year i have been getting busy at work and not like when i first start blogging where i can blog everyday and complain about everything. Now even when I want to complain on blog, I have no time to write one. Tired from working and looking Grant and now studying. Im busy but at least Im happy and feel fullfil about my life. Making myself busy with all the things prepare for future. Now at least i got my MIL to look after Grant and i can go study as much as possible for my career. When we have our own house, I will need someone else to look after him if im still studying. Planning for future in process...

I LOVE SINGAPORE!!!

How can i forget about the summary of the month. I have missed out July. July is another busy month and my Director has been coming to Singapore to discuss the new project and making me super busy and tired. I cant remember anything special about July. Oh ya... we went Redang for 4days 3nights and i had diving everyday with wee. We dont need to take turns to dive cos xiao yi help us to look after him cos she cant go down water as her mense has come. Unfortunately for her but we are lucky. If not wee and i taking turns to dive and not able to dive together. I have brought my colleagues to the island too and they love the place alot too. Its relaxing for them but maybe a little boring for them. For the month of July, im really blank mind of what has happen. Remembering only how busy i am. I hope things gets better and I hope the guy beside me can stop irritating me and stop treating me like his secretary. NT!!  I dont like being racist but after i joined this comp...

I am studying safety now and i come across this quote which is quite meaningful "Our workers going home safely after work does not happen by accident" To be able to go back safely, one has to be careful in workplace. Regardless of where your workplace is and the nature of your job, you have to be careful in what you do. Do only when there is no risk involve. If there's risk involve, eliminate the risk by not doing this way. Try another method to get things done. People think that hazards only happens in construction site, factory, ship yard... we do get occupational hazards in office too. By working infront of the computer whole day, you will get Ergonomic hazards. Example: You might get Musculoskeletal disorders (MSD) from poor typing/sitting posture and poor air con ventilation cause allergies and many more. I hope everyone can work safely at work and do not think that small matters of safety issue is nothing. A small fire can be out of hand too and cause more...

20th July 2011. Finally 2 years in OSM but still have not achieve becoming an auditor. I still need more experience and more exposure to be one. I have changed departure for almost 1.5yrs and handle new 2 projects this year which makes me super busy and tired. I am like struggling with my time in office and it's hard to concentrate on one cos I have to split my time into many parts to handle so many things. Somemore with my sweaty palm and leg is making it worse for me to work well. I need to find a doc soon to cure my hands and legs. 2 years has gone and I hope to achieve more in the coming years. Though my next job might not be the same industry but I still want to do safety job related. Making sure everyone is safe at work.

Just come back from diving yesterday and suffer from block ear cos the water go in and I can't blow out to equalize during diving. I partially deaf from my right ear and my left ear is block abit too. Doc gave me ear drop which can make the water come out in few days time but my ear is in pain on and off now. Hope the sea water doesn't cause any infection.

Tonight is my first lesson for my course; workplace safety. It's an interesting course and I'm going for the foundation now. Though not much related to my current job but for knowledge it helps alot in my work. I might change to another company some day. first night of lesson makes me want to make everyone workplace more Safe than ever. Especially in construction site where accident always happen and without safety personnel to guide along people will get themselves killed eventually. The course I'm taking is related to a law in Singapore which will be implementing in September. And all workplace is to abide that law no matter where. So long you are working, you have to abide. I hope I can get more pay next yr with my this tiny insignificant cert. There is no exam or test for this cert but with the assessment, I can do well and get high marks for next level.

We have lots of fun in June during the time in France. More fun in Zhenny house where we are too relax and all day eating and slacking. Until we are all fat and I almost couldn't wear my clothes to work. France is a beautiful country with all the historical structure, sculpture, scenery and especially the paintings in The Louvre. The ancient people are really good at painting and they can paint as though it being photograph but even camera can't capture the emotion in their eyes. We walked 2km everyday for sightseeing and shopping. It's really a wonderful experience and it might be our only chance to go in such a big group and might not have a chance for everyone to go together again. I will miss the days we had. Rushing for trains, prada drop at the square while running to train station in the heavy rain. Plucking cherries and having meeting with Zhenny and Fenny secretly. Its really amazing how we have went to Europe with all those experience and memories. Walking in...

I have myself a iMac today. Abit of regret getting this iMac. Totally lost control and have to start learning this super advance technology. Really hate myself for getting this iMac and somemore it cost alot more than my Prada bag

Dont ask me what we have done on which day what we have seen cos all i know is i saw many beautiful buildings, church, scenery... Though its abit rushing for us to travel from place to place and together with kids is really not an easy task. Having to look after them and also the luaggage is really tiring and exhausted by the end of each day. But we are fortunately to have our leader, JB, to bring us around and show us so many places in just 8 days. Thats amazing for us and him and of cos Zhenny. To plan all the trips and expenses. Here it is.. Vience, the City of Romamce.. few pics

This is it. Tonight is the night where we (7adults an 2 children) will be traveling together to somewhere we have never give much thoughts to that place or destination cos it's going to cost us s bomb just to travel there let alone shopping. But WE ARE GOING TONIGHT!!! To Zhenny house!!! France and travel around Milan, Vience, Paris, London for 2 weeks which is quite rush for us but I hope we will have a great time there. This might be once in our lifetime to travel together in such a big group to Europe. More coincidence my colleague, SY, will be going to London with his friend and hope we can meet up too but then it all depends on fate. We'll see. We have a full luggage of clothes just for me, wee & grant and it's going to overflow and burst. Some clothes are for Zhenny and hope she can wear so that I don't need to bring back. Bye Singapore!!!

May is the month for my 2 good friends; Lovely June & Tortoise lim. Though we did not celebrate together but that doesn't mean we are not good friends. It's all in the heart. May is a fulfilling month for me. Busy though but happy. Work wise, everything is going well and more busy than ever with more responsibilities and things to learn and handle. I have also enroll in the workplace safety course at BCA, every Tue & Thur for 5 months. It's not by company and I have paid myself. It's not much related to my work but somehow it will be useful in whichever company I go in Singapore. New regulations from MOM, that all workplace in Singapore are to comply the rules. Future is bright but blur and nevertheless I will work even hard for money and my career.

This morn I went to the doctor because I was woken by my headache. Before I slept, I was having this headache after my hair cut in Jurong. This headache is all because of waiting for a cab under the tree at 115pm. I waited the cab for 45mins before I get one to go for my hair cut. I really hate this kind of headaches. Woke me up and not once but don’t know how many times. I was so tired and everytime the pain woke me up, I went back to sleep again. I hope I don’t get this kind of headache again. Also my right ear was like swollen inside and the doctor checked but found nothing. He said I shouldn’t clean my ears inside at all. It will automatic clear it off when the new ear wax grow by itself. Don’t need to use cotton bud too as it will push all the dirt inside. Just leave it naturally. That means we only need to clean the outside one and leave the inside one alone.

To sponsor a child is something which I have wanted to do long long time ago. But that time, i was earning peanuts and to feed myself is a problem let alone to sponsor a child. Now i have a son and with the little increment in pay, i can afford to sponsor a child now. Its not a promise i made nor a resolution i made over the past years. Its just something that i feel i should do and i can do to help the needy children. Singapore is not a place where children have no roof over their head and compare with the kids in third world country, our help are much more appreciate by them. With each month not more than 50 bucks, i can sponsor a child that cover them a whole month neccessity. Providing them education and clothes really makes me feel good to be able to help them. I dont need to be rich to help a child. Less a pair of shoes or new clothes each month and let them fulfil their dreams. Isnt that great? Sponsor a child and let them be someone useful to the society too.

This evening, I went to the Punggol CC Toastmaster Club which my colleagues, ML, is a member of this club. I might have heard this club before but never really dig much info about the club. ML has introduced us this club long ago and this club is to help people to build up their confidence for public speech or even to communicate with anyone. This is really great. Totally learn alot of new things in English. They focus more on language, English. Their English is so power that makes me wanna learn more. With a lawyer to be in that group, the standard of the club is not that bad as that lawyer to be is only 22 years old and 1 of the governor (the guy who supervise the club) is barely 20 and his English has a higher standard than the english teacher in school. Today is really an eye opener for me. Toastmaster - http://www.toastmaster.org/

OMG!!! I have actually forget to blog the summary of the month. What the hell am I busy with lately? Of cos is work work work and watching drama at night. Im still not done with CSI and now im in the last season of the show. Season 9. Finally! While watching CSI, i am also watching Vampires Diaries though its once a week thing. After CSI, i hope to rest for awhile before going to another nice show. Nothing happen much in April but i have decided to go for a short course in June or July. Its Workplace Safety and Health course and i hope this course is helping me to climb higher. Higher in post and higher in pay. Not that im greedy for high post but im looking at carrer satisfaction and of cos high pay. I want more money to pay more things. For my new hse, new baby, new car, grant new sch and alot more. April pass by very fast becos i am so busy. Work load is getting more and more busy but im more happy. Better than nothing to do in the office. I really cannot have nothing to do...

Last weekend was Good Friday and I brought Grant to my colleague's house in Malacca with 2 other colleagues. They stay at the hotel and I was alone with Grant so we stay at her house in the village. Its not like those wooden village house. Its made of concrete and just like ah yi house in Muar. Morn air is fresh and nice which brought back the memories of childhood where we were still in LCK. Though it was like 2 decades ago but still I can remember some moments there. I would still prefer the kampong life than in HDB even though it might be more dirtier and more insects than in HDB but there are something which cant be replace than in HDB. I don't know what is it but I know life in kampong is much better. The weather in Malacca was really very very hot. From the time I step out, I keep sweating and till mid noon I am so sour like the lemon and it was like filled with lemon juice on the whole body. Without the tall building like in Spore to block the sun, everyone was sweat...

I always feel so stress when I am under several bosses. Especially when things go haywire. 1 boss say this, another say that. Who should I listen to? Of course is listen to the bigger boss. I really don’t like to work under so many people and that’s why I choose to work as secretary in the first place and having to serve just 1 or 2 people. But now, even under 2 bosses I still get being sandwich in between. This is really very irritating. I really have to leave soon. That why, Aries always go up to the highest peak to eat the greener grass.

Another SL whom is much more different from the previous SL i mention. Same, ger and this ger was happily enjoing her pregency with her new baby of 6 weeks. Unfortunately, last week, she had a miscarriage due to no heart beat in baby. The baby is too weak to survive. I was so sad when she sms me. She has been trying to have one for a long time and finally god send them 1 but again took the baby. But i always believe that if the baby is yours, he/she will come back for you. I hope she can get healthy again for the next baby.

The ger who replace my secretary post. Last week, I had a new task and my manager was asking SL to help me in some certificates issue. Before this, i have told my manager that she is very busy and have no time to help me with the certs and he said, she got no choice. After that, i didnt bother to tell him the 2nd time and until the training starts which the email stated that SL and me has to go. After the email, SL and the purchasing guys there gave me attitude as though I was bullying her and asking her to do the things. Damn annoyed at them and nothing i said will do any good. Therefore, i dont bother to explain much. SL is rather good at complaining and i guess people who speaks cantonese are always good at quarreling. After this incident, i know SL is not a ger who i can talk my mind with.

MARCH is the month of happiness because its not only my birthday, I have Grant, Chelsie, Zhenny and my father together with me in March. We are the Marchie babies. I am happy to have my friends celebrating with me even though there’s only 6 person. They are the only 6 friends I have and I love them. Before going into my first year of 30, it wasn’t that good. Just because 30 is a number where most of the gers are afraid of and this makes them more old than ever. Starting to step into mid-life and instead of looking forward, many people are looking backward which they wish they can turn back the clock. But I am just glad that I can still live until 30 and being healthy is a blessing for me and families. Things that I have missed out over the 30 years, I will try to achieve it and go for it. All the adventures and exciting plan for future. March past by so fast and we have 2 more months to ZHENNY HOUSE!!! Woohooo We went to pray our ancestor and grandparents, grand aunty & unc...

I'm happy to have my family and friends and colleagues to celebrate my birthday. Though it aint a great celebration but it's nice to have all the close one with you. 30th actually isn't that scary and I should be glad that I'm still alive at 30. Not everyone can live till 30. I should do more things which I have missed out in my last 30years. Time to plan for more exciting and interesting activities. - Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Had my first and self own baking cup cakes last night with the magical help of my new bought mixer. I think I will be baking more in future but I need someone to help me wash those equipment. It's so oily and creamy. These are the cupcakes without the cream and later I will be putting the cream before bringing to the school. - Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

First time baking cakes and not all my myself. I have great help from Wee sister maid, Amy. Without the magic mixer, we have to whisk ourselves and until our hands are going to break. But first time wasn’t that bad and the only thing that doesn’t fit the expectation is the cream on top of the cupcakes which is too sweet. Maybe we didn’t whisk until creamy and was still very watery cos we have been whisking for 10mins and still no change. I got to buy a mixer soon cos grant will be celebrating his birthday this coming Friday and I have to make many cup cakes for his class. Just for his class with the infants have 18 person. For the whole school, I got to buy the 2kg cake cos there will 80 person in the school. I really wonder how 80 person can squeeze inside the centre. I hope the 2kg cake will be enough for all and the goodies bag I can only pack 20 for his class and the infants.

Today is International Woman’s day and I was being reminded by one of the master onboard who wished me happy and health by email. That’s so nice of him to remember me on this day and that means I still being popular among the master despite that I keep sending them emails to do this and that. Anyway, wishing all my sisters and girlfriends a Happy Woman day.

February seems to pass by so fast. Is it because it only have 28 days or it has been a busy month for me. This is the month of love and we celebrate our love on 14 & 15 Feb in Batam and Kbox. With the new experience in Batam, that might be our first and last time to there. But I will still want to go 1 more place in Batam. The shopping centre at the terminal. We shouldn’t have travel to another shopping by cab where we can just cross a bridge to the shopping centre. Got to take another day off to explore. Fenny is going for her honeymoon to Europe and we (me, ah wee, grant, mum & xiao yi) are going to be the light bulbs including Zhenny, Chelsie & JB. Wow so many lights that sure to brighten up their honeymoon. We have booked our air tickets and Zhenny is planning our itinerary for the trip and we will be landing in Zurich and from there to Zhenny house. Places we will be going are; Italy, Milan, Paris, London. Some more places which I’m not sure yet but this trip will ...

Ne used to be my colleague 1 month ago. Now he's gone and i still get phone call from him. Keep asking me to send his old email to him and it's against my principle to do this cos this is a betrayal to company. Though it's just an email but still it's company property. I really don't like this kind of favor from others. Asking to do stoop low as him. Is this my retribution for being nice to him when he's around and now people just take things for grant. This is ridiculous!!! - Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Salad addict: 1. Baby butterhead 2. Mixed salad vege 3. Carrot 4. Japanese cucumber 5. Baby tomato 6. Olives Salad addict sauce 1. 2 small onion 2. 3 tablespoon olive oil 3. 1 tablespoon black vinegar (French type not the shark fin type) 4. Pepper & salt (pinch) 5. 3 tablespoon apple cider Mixed the sauce and down to the salad. - Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Today celebrating V day in Batam and also our first there. Went to Nagoya Hill shopping centre and really not what I had mind. Can say it is worse than JB. Almost all the shop us selling branded stuff and it's all imitation. Rather save the Money to buy in Milan. But it's a good experience abs would never bring grant go over. ******************** On 15 feb, we went kbox. Suppose to have klunch but the we are late and instead we took valentine package. Free 2 cocktails and brownies. But we still have to order lunch from the japanese restaurant beside kbox. Surprisingly after renovation, they have a smoking room just like any other ktv room except it's all glass and strictly for smoking. It's nice.

First summary of the month. As the title says it all. Summary of January 2011 Lets say about work first. Many incidents happened and after 6 months of unhappy face with the new manager, he is finally out. Terminate by company with immediate effect and no notice. Well 1 left doesn’t mean a good one will come. I can only hope this new manager is not as bad as the previous one. Still I prefer my first manager whom treat me well and at least he respect me and doesn’t treat me as his secretary. 2nd incident at work. My colleague, Ne, who sits beside me had left too. Terminate by company too. Though we are all too shocked to handle his leaving but still we have to accept that he’s gone. My department is all ah neh now. 2 ah nehs and 1 more coming. Me being the only girl and they will treat me like the admin in the department. I gonna make something out of my career this year. Just when I have the peace in the house for the last 2 months, school reopen and again, the house is crowded ...

I didn’t mention that my fat-ass-lazy manager is finally out of this company. Just 1 day before our company D&D and he is being terminate with immediate effect. Didn’t even get to attend the dinner and let alone the bonus. Well at least he got sack few days before the bonus and unlike Capt Ne where he got sack 1 day before our bonus is out. That day Capt Ne was drunk during the D&D and after that, he called his wife to pick him up at the Botanic Garden where our dinner was held. While waiting for his wife and being drunk, his whole bag was stolen and all his personal things was gone. It’s bad enough when his bag was stolen and now terminated. For the manager, I don’t feel sorry for him being terminate by the company cos he really had no contribution to the company. It’s bad when you ask people to do your things and the worse is he still can watch movie in the office. When I go in his room, he will try to close down the application and take out his ear phone. Thinking that...

Yesterday, everyone was so happy because we have received our annually-happy-letter from HR. Each of us received 1 month performance bonus and also increment. I also get 1 month bonus and 5% increment. Though its not much but I hope I can slowly climb up cos I really don’t want to be the only girl in this bloody department. I’m an QA executive but they treat me as Admin executive. Being the only girl in the department doesn’t mean everything can be push to me. Sending out email can easily be send by themselves. Why the hell they have to ask me to do. Printing out is easy and why ask me. Keeping silence doesn’t mean I accept, just that no point being a bitch in the office. Treating me as their secretary and someday when its time to leave, I will throw back to them. Now it’s time to source for another career path. Though my experience in this department is not enough but I can still climb to another channel and get what I want to do. I hope I can be an auditor and for start, I hope to ...

Update: Eventually we didnt bring grant go anywhere cos we didnt go overseas. But we went Sentosa to celebrate and having at the Luge. Went to Universal Studio but didnt went in because we didnt want to play the theme games and even going in needs to pay $66 for entrance which includes the games. Well so we just stay outside and didnt really get to see much from outside. ************************* 15 January 2011 is our 4th marriage anniversary and we have not yet found a place to go though we both have take leave. Plan to go Batam and ask wee mother to look after but she has went to Hainan today. If really no choice, we will bring baby go Batam with us.

Never had this kind of fear in working life. Ever. First time I felt that I can't do without a job. Not because of the people but because of the pay. If ever i get sack with immediate effect, I don't know if the next company will accept the reason I leave the company. My colleague, Ne. was being sacked today with immediate effect. Reason not related to work. Cause of leaving related company D&D where he got drunk and make a scene. That makes my big boss here feeling disgrace in front of the headquarter. I fear of being out of job because I have to start all over again and now I haven get enough experience which makes me hang in the air. Working in fear is terrible. Don’t know when will be my turn.

Early morn waking up for work and my lazy bug has defeated me. Though it has been here quite a long tine but I didn't invite it in until last Wed. I invite him in with a motive cos I want to make an appointment with the ultrasound dept in polyclinic and before I can have an appointment, I need to see a doctor in polyclinic first. Seeing doctor in polyclinic is sometimes a suffering for those who are already sick and have to wait for almost 1hr or 2 before you can see the doctor. I'm lucky to have mediguard in company that we can go private clinic which is faster and can go back rest early. I request for a female doctor and of cos it's related to female problem. The main reason for ultrasound scan is becos I have not done any after giving birth and it's time for a check-up. The alarm in my abdominal reminds me to check cos it has been hurting me for so many months. I feel bloated, lower abdominal pain, backache… everything is a sign of aging. Aching all over. When ...

Today I was trying to back my another laptop and it was my first time. I feel so stupid and angry that all my things in the external hard disk were erased. Work wise is not important cos I got a backup on my laptop but all my personal things and photos were deleted and nothing can be retrieved. Strangely I don't feel that angry like I used to be if things turn out to be like today. I just feel disappointed in myself being so comfort in my hard disk. I never learn my lesson from last year when my hard disk gets "Trojan" and too complacent that nothing will happen again. No back up done and now I have to search what I can. Most of the photos can get from FB but I have stop uploading photos since last year. This time really damn it! After the stupid incident, the old uncle sitting beside me still ask me to do something that I really hate. Which is also against my principle even though I have not many. I really should go improve my career level and move to a more systematic c...

This is the year of Rabbit which is not very good for Rooster for those supersitious people. I might not be very supersitious but sometimes, you just have to believe in these kind of elements and belief. Although Rabbit hops into 2011 on 3rd of February, but i am getting bad luck from December 2010. Before launching into 2011, bad things happen. 1st, I got fever together with Grant for the whole week and it was like hell when I still have to go thru audit with my fever. After fever I get ring worm, which the 1st doctor said. Because, the 2nd time i went back to the clinic, another doctor said its not ring worm and probable some skin allergy. 3rd time i went to chinese doctor and he said its my blood impurified. Which doctor should I listen to?? Now i am applying the cream from the 2nd doctor and took some medicine and at least its better now and alot better than the cream i bought at watson. 3rd, my manager is still here and I thought he will be replace soon but not so soon. He...