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Before Xmas is coming, I received a big and stubborn gift from nature which I got it during the trip in Kukup. This gift is call "Ring worm". And until now I haven been able to give away. Making me itch on my neck and hands. This is a real troublesome skin condition and I sick of applying cream every morn and night. I can't tied my hair up when I'm outside cos everybody will see the "worms" behind my neck. And I need to detox until the worms go away. This is terrible. All becos I didn't bath after I return from the mangrove. [Posted with iBlogger from my iPhone]

Well, looking back at my 2010 resolutions , I have achieved almost all except the house at Teck whye. I have achieved: 1. A better career with increment 2. Clear the credit cards 3. Sell away our WISH car 4. Get a new HDB house (coming soon in 2013) This is my first time where my resolutions are achieved. Maybe sometimes people should be more realistic in their resolutions and 2011, I shall be realistic too. hmmm lets see. Resolutions for 2011 1. Become an Internal Office Auditor 2. Go for some short courses to improve myself 3. Have a saving of 10K (I hope so) Well 3 little resolutions for 2011. Welcoming 2011 with warm hugs!!!

Tomorrow is the last day of 2010. What can I say. This is the year where I have the most achievement in my career. A many step up from Secretary to Executive with the opportunity given by my GM. Yes of cos I am grateful to the HR manager who has allow me to work in this office and though she wasnt a very popular manager among the gers. But still we have to 饮水思源。 Hope I get it right. This new position has given me many things to learn and though I am very busy than the previous position, but the achievement is great. At least I feel more useful and most importantly is the pay. Doesnt matter what position title I have, so long the money is good. I dont know if I ever get any increment next year but if there's no improvement in my pay, once experience gotten, I can forgo the company. Not because of money, but if there's no increment means there's nothing more for me to do and everyday will be routine. Nothing to learn anymore and I really dont like to work under my curre...

Sometimes people said its fated to meet each other and I really hope I'm not fated to endure all the anger in my work. Knowing my colleagues is fated Sitting beside them is fated Helping them to do work is not fated, unless they are my manager but manager don't sit beside me Rejecting to help them is a choice Choice leads to either trouble or good will Working with some attitude colleagues is such a chore Worse than handling a baby Some people expect us to spoon feed them and sit there waiting Some people only work with the mouth and lazy to move that fat ass Some people push all the work to others while they can have more time to rest (rest? they don't move around and wtf they rest!) Some day, I will get a better job with better colleagues and better pay.

I have a bachelor friend. Someone who is good-looking, not yet 35, have a good career, good connection with the upper society, good public relation but is still SINGLE. So, what's the problem of him being a single and not even attached. Someone who is too picky, doesn't settle down for less quality, always wants the best, etc... Is it good to always search someone who is the best instead of the 2nd best? What's so good being the best in everybody eyes, where in the heart he/she is the worst. I used to search for the best man but then again, i realise, it's not the problem within the best man I wanted, the problem actually lies with me. Each relationships make people grown up, building up self defense, how to love, realise that true love doesn't really exist in this world anymore. Lies and tears makes me more emotionless, stone-hearted, cynical about the true love within man. Nothing is true about fantasy love and that's why its call fantasy. Dream is o...

Statistic of facebook users show that more than half the world population have an account with facebook. I have just accept a request from my 2nd uncle and it feels good that I am connected with my relatives somehow.

As I am slowing down my pace in work now, I have more time to blog. Eversince I returned from Arendal, I hardly had any time for myself. Working my head thru the work and forgetting the way of socialising with people. It's time that I stop working so hard and time to catch up with family, friends and colleagues.

I'm back to online tv again. Been watching this US drama "Sex and the city" in iphone and now online streaming. This is a very popular show which actually is a real life story of a columnist living in New York. Having sex is just like a meal. It's not the sex I am watching but the kind of life before married makes me miss my golden days. Though i dont have that kind of sex like them but i miss the times with my friends. The days where everyday is just to have fun and no worries, no commitments, no stress. The single ladies were afraid of getting married and kids is a big problem. They think they cannot handle the kids and prefer to remain single. Have I married too early? But there should be no regret in marriage. Since i have married young means i can have my time when my kid grows up. If not i will still be looking after them when i am 50. Where the hell can i get the strength to look after them. No pain No gain. Though i forgo my freedom now but in the future...

No, I do not swing.  But I am surprising shock that one of my friend do. Am I in the out-dated or are they too open to getting swing? Do I not belong to this era anymore? Ok, first, 'Swing" doesnt mean playground swing. It means changing partner. 2 couples, having sex with each other partner. In a room and there you see me having sex with your partner and I see you having sex with my partner. This, I know exist in this world even before I was born. Just that I never know it could happen to my friend. Or is he just making fun of me? I ask myself, can I accept this kind of "Swing"? See your hubby making out with another ger who have a good figure and looking at your hubby seeing you making out with another guy. This is ridiculous and terrible. Calling it "Swing" because if both are having sex together with another person, it doesnt count as having an affair? Maybe people just want something fresh and new to replace the boredom in relationship?

There's so many things that I want rather I need. Guess this apply to many people. Things that I want: 1. A branded wallet which can last me for years 2. A watch which can not only bring me the time but also style 3. A computer which is only for my own use where I can work and play at home 4. A magic wardrobe and shoe rack which is never out of fashion 5. A cheap part time maid for day time only where she can go back to the agent in the evening. That doesn't happen in Spore. Things that I need: 1. I need to get socialise again. Forget my workload and enjoy the talk cock session 2. A good massage 3. A time out for everything 4. Alone trip to somewhere new - i need to explore the world on my own 5. Time for myself

1st time I am worry about my country politics and economy. Eversince Mrs Lee passed away, everyone is afraid that our old Mr Lee will collapse. If he collapse, will our country collapse too? He is the most important person in Singapore and its like we are growing with him since young. He has help us to fight for independence and making most of us to have a better living with his foresights and though there are hard times along the way but compare to 20yrs back, the kids now are living in a better condition and having better education. Everyone is getting a job unless the lazy one who prefer to slack in this society. Even the handicap are getting a job for themselves which make them feel more useful and not thinking that they are useless though they are handicap. Most people take things for granted and would prefer to live in their comfort zone and when government implement some new systems which had make them move out of their comfort zone and all they know is to complain instead of se...

Marriage on the rocks! Why do people say on the rocks instead of on the stone? Because stone is too small for marriage to tumble down and rocks make the marriage to fall hard? But i prefer Whisky on the rocks and Baileys on the rocks rather than marriage on the rocks.

Today, i can strongly feel my heart pain and sharp pain. I wonder am I getting heart disease and if 1 day should i collapse or even worse getting a stroke, please fulfil my wish as below: 1. I need someone to take good care of Grant. Someone who is as strict as my mother. I don't really trust in love education even though it takes times to see the result. I still prefer kids to be handle in cane but talking is also important for them to understand why they are cane. 2. If i die, please dont let Grant be bullied by others at home. I know he has suffer enough in school and i hope when he goes home, he can spend a nice good time at home rather than getting bullied. Sisters, you know what i mean. Guess this is the only thing in my mind which i cant rest in peace if i die now. My dear family and friends, please take care good of yourself and don't cry for me cos finally i can rest early.

While typing Chinese merry xmas, i keep thinking of happy birthday!! Before Christmas come, we have 2 public holiday. Deepavali and Hari raya haji. Another day to go bring grant out. Also before Christmas coming, have to save up some money for Christmas presents but this year, i am not going to present to all the gers in the office. The ger are increasing and this month i have give many 10bucks for their birthday gift. Though its like what Veon said, "Investment", but this month had spend too much and getting sick lately had cost me some money to see doctor. Haiz.. is the weather making sick or am I too stress lately? Been having "nightmare" about reports reports reports. Though no one is pushing me for of these but i know someday, we will need it. Its better to prepare now than last minute but i have no idea why my health is not good. Could it be the cigarettes from the air con? Everyday breathing 2nd hand smoke. I really have to move out from there before i die fr...

很久没用华语来发表了。 写那么两句就要一分钟。 是我老了吗还是我把华语还给了老师？ 看来还是用英文写吧。 Suddenly feel so tired after writting some chinese words. to be continue...

While waiting for bus in front of the office building, someone, walked towards the rubbish bin and search for something of use to him. He doesn't looks old but looks dirty, dark, restless but not desperate. He takes his own time and even find an apple soft toy. He lights up a cigarette that is burned half way. Why someone who is not handicap is giving up his life? Just becos he had dealt with something drastic that changed his mind and life? OR is he slacking his life away till end of this life? I really cannot sympathy these kind of people who waste their life thinking that they are pathetic and hope everyone sympathy them. Why can't they stand up and go for the better way rather than living like a zombie. Maybe I have not gone through their route and can never understand why they reacted this way. [Posted with iBlogger from my iPhone]

Today is the day for my result for the exam which i took on Wednesday and I am so happy with my result. I have passed!!!! with a score of 83/100 but i know i can do better than 83 cos this is a open book exam. All the answer is inside and i should have get 100 but i still do wrong. But I'm happy that i can pass and finally i get the cert for the course. I will be an Internal Auditor soon, I hope.

1st time to Discovery center 1st time to experience watching movie in theatre 1st time watch movie until sleep 1st time to see real fighting plane and helicopter [Posted with iBlogger from my iPhone]

This is simply infuriating. I am only assisting them to clear the previous colleague documents and they want me to do all. I really cannot stand lazy people. Especially lazy boss. Bimbo is for ger. But this time, the boss is fat and only know how to talk. He thinks he still in his previous company. Shaking his leg till his tummy expecting people to do everything for him. Even scanning and copying also need to ask people. No wonder he is so FAT!

Lately I got so many things to blog but due to my laziness, nothing has been done. Busy at work and with 2 newbies whom always trying to show off their opinions and trying to implement new methods. This is hard for me to adjust. They don't know the procedure and always trying to challenge me with their so called modifications to the office. Trying to impress the boss??????? They will get tired soon. [Posted with iBlogger from my iPhone]

This morn is the 2nd time that Grant say he wants to go toilet poo poo. When he drink finish his milk he said he wants to go "da bian". Now he can go toilet pee & poo. This will save alot of diapers and money. [Posted with iBlogger from my iPhone]

Finally a long long time of potty train, Grant can go toilet and pee instead of peeing his underwear. Now he even can go toilet shit and must always with our help cos the he only want to sit the adult toilet bowl. I'm glad finally he can pee on his own now. That's just the start of potty train. Along the way, he still have to learn to wake up and pee and using outside toilet. That's alot more to do.

Singapore is turning 45th on 09th August 2010

Every time when i work OT, i will see someone in wheelchair. If i work until 630pm, i will see the old man near my workplace and whenever i see him crossing the traffic lights, i will push him to another traffic light cos he is using manual wheelchair which he has to use his hands and push. The 1st time i saw him is when i was waiting for bus below the office building. I was in dilemma when i saw him coming. I keep thinking should i push him anot . Will people laugh at me when i help him? But i know i will regret if i don't help him and thus i hack care what others might say. I forgo my bus to the mrt station and push him to another traffic light. Another guy, which i thought was a girl initially , will always be seen in Hougang mrt bus stop. I can only see him if i work until 8pm and by the time i went back, the crowd is not that much and its easier for him to go up the bus too. 1st time i saw him i was surprising and felt pity for him. He looks young and cute and white. Loo...

Now my old manager had left and when the new one takes over, I am busy again. But this time, I am more confident in doing my work cos i know i can do it well and within the timeline. Unlike when i start in March, everything is in a mess and i have to work OT almost everyday. Now though i am busy but at least i know i am better than them. The so-called manager knows nothing about what he's doing. That doesnt bother me cos so long my job is done. He will leave me alone. Another problem arise when he take over is whenever he give work to Capt Ne, i get lots of crap thing from Capt Ne. Asking me to help him even though im busier than him. Now at least, i get a week of peace until he returns from Jakarta office. And then again, there goes his story telling.

I'm on my way back from work. I really need a break from Grant. Everyday is giving me attitude and now changing pampers he also don't want. I have to force him and early morning spoilt my whole day. With all the crying and hassle to ask him wear pamper and short. Tired of all the things. He is now big enough to think that he is growing big now. Can do whatever he wants. I want to break away from him for few days so that he will miss me and hope he listen more to me.

I really hate potty train Grant. Everytime I tell him urine must go toilet bowl and he also reply "shh shh must go toilet bowl". And everytime he will urine before going to toilet. Making all his underwear and shorts wet. Now he is laying on the mattress on the floor cos I tell him if he don't want to wear pamper he must go down sleep. He really go down and sleep just becos he wants to wear underwear. He don't want to wear pamper but it is so dangerous to sleep without it. Potty train is a big headache for me.

Just returned from Redang and had bought these 2 perfumes. My 1st perfume from DFS and i super love the smell of powdery Rose. Before departing from Spore airport, I bought the VS perfume at $85.00. I can hardly find outside any oridinary store. Even in shopping centre like Metro is not available. I have been looking for this perfume from Norway & France and these 2 places doesnt carry any US products. Maybe there have their own products and hence they dont allow other countries products. Coming back and 1st thing is to visit the DFS again. For perfume. This time i ask the sale girl to help me look around for powdery smell and before approaching the girl, i had tried this Bvlgari perfume but then when i look at the price, its abit ex and i went to look for others. In the end, we still go back to this Bvlgari. I love this smell. But i should have bought the small one instead of the big one. Small one cost $117 Big one cost $178 and big one are difficult to carry around. Victoria...

Today is the last day in Redang and tomorrow is back to reality. Back to work and my new manager has arrived today. When I go back, I will have to face my new manager. I'm afraid of change of new boss cos I can't adjust to new people especially someone I had to report to. Have to work according to their style and some more it's another ah neh again. I'm not being racist here but my company is getting more and more ah neh. They are in power and other races and getting lesser. Guess it's happening alot in this line.

Tomorrow is the day to bitch. BEACH. Hope the weather there is good and I can straight away learn my advance diving. Diving diving diving!!!!

It has been months since pinky & I went out and today she was around my workplace so after work we went to Kovan for a short catch up session. Coffee, shopping awhile, window shopping really feel good. I should have come out more often rather going home after work.

2nd trip this year out of singapore. Finally!!! I need a break and holiday and smoke. After returning from training, i hardly got time for myself. Busy working from time to time and after work busy with Grant. Though im busy but i felt more happy. Everyday is a busy day for me even on weekend. Taking care of Grant is enough to make me tired. Bringing him out is wanting my half life. The usual place i bring him to is Tech Whye. Thats where he can play whole day and only stops when he sleeps. Other than sleeping, he will be moving here and there. No stopping. This trip to redang i hope he will not get sick after returning. Im so sick of him getting sick. I have to take leave and take care of him. He has just recover from the HFMD and had been staying at home for 2 weeks before he can go back childcare. I had took so many days just to take care of him. I hope everything goes well.

I cant find the skin for my blog. Nothing is suitable for me. Not my stlye, not my taste, not my standard. Why is it so hard to find a good blog skin?

I really have no liking for world cup and in fact I hate to watch soccer. I also don't like people to shout "GOAL" so loud. It's my problem and that's why I try to stay clear of this world cup.

After this lesson, i will not Jailbreak my hp anymore. I cannot stand my gadgets being technical spoilt and when there's nothing i can do to save it, i will feel so pek chek and angry. I hate IT things and connecting here and there, configuring everywhere. It makes my blood boil when I'm an IT idiot.

I'm going to eat my lovely crunchie which is in the fridge for a long time. At this hour, it's very sinful and infront of the computer, it's more worse cos all the fats will go to my waist. Siting down and watching movie after this. But whatever. I can't resist the temptation of chocolate.

1st is Ah Tai from Technical department who has left last year Christmas and along gone with Yeo mei mei from Crewing department who has left for good also. 3rd is my best Indian friend in this company, Govin from Technical department. 4 th is Mustafa from my current department, Marine/ QA . 5 th is Toh from Crewing department. 6 th is Sweet cons from Admin. 7 th is my current manager, Capt. Khan. Who's next? Getting low morale and am trying not to get affect by the leaving. Doing my job and waiting for pay every month is what i can do now. I am definitely off the politics in anywhere.

Now I'm in sengkang lrt and it took me awhile to see what's going on on the map. There's west & east. 2 different routes and it's abit confusing for me. [Posted with iBlogger from my iPhone]

The purpose of getting me into this department to organise our company manuals for the ships and everything related to this department. Sometimes i don't understand why people are afraid of doing more to make things better. He said by sending this email, i am opening a can of fire. Does he mean "A can of fire" = "A load shit of work to be done?" I am not prejudice about anyone or even him but the way he is showing his attitude towards working is not making me to respect him or even to agree with him. Sometimes i find it hard to work with someone who don't share a common goal and if they have a different ways of working, i will leave this co soon or later.

Now with my new iPhone, i can blog anytime anywhere. Even while taking MRT or bus, i can blog anything. Friends, hurry and get 1 too :) We can have lots of function and free sms.

After reading some of my older post, i realise that i was not that emotional anymore. Not much thing to think over and letting life goes day by day. Maybe I'm more busy now and have lesser time to think so many. Everyday is just work and baby. Busy working in office and busy looking after Grant after work. Though I'm busy but i don't find it tiring. I cant stop for a day. Even when off day, i have to go out and do something. Be it back to Teck Whye or to Guilin, i will not stay at home and look after Grant cos when he stays at home, i have a harder time to look after him. I need more energy and strength. Now weekend is only to Teck Whye or Guilin. Nothing much to do unless plans to outing. Lately weather not that good. Either too hot & humid or rainy days. Its hard to get good weather during weekend. I hope to bring him go Zoo soon. I know he wants to see the animals.

Recently, i realise that my longest friendship friend isnt the one i used to know. Maybe i should have realise this earlier but on the account that she is my friend, i had endure all her unreasonable request and giving in to her temper and attitude. 16 years of friendship, to be destroy by attitude and manner? Now, i really have no such patient to continue with this kind of attitude and manners. Friends come easily but to maintain friendship, it takes time. Friendship takes years to build up and a sentence to destroy all. Should i continue my friendship with her or should i just forget this friend?

27 mins to 7pm and the sun is still shining bright. It's hot and my hands are sweating like hell. Tonight is going to be a humid night wheras last night was raining so heavily. But raining heavily doesn't makes the night more cooling. It was not cold at all and my room is humid as usual. [Posted with iBlogger from my iPhone]

Been spending too much last weekend. Time to be thrifty and stop spending on unnecessary things. Last sat, i had spent almost $450 in 1 afternoon. 1st guilt - Spend $190 on clothes Suppose to be $150 but the stupid sales girl keep pressing me to buy another piece to make it $200 to become member. I had a hard time to say NO to her and she keep pressing me and not giving me a chance to pay. Real fed up with the ger. Hard core sales makes me annoyed towards them. 2nd guilt - Spend $242 on dental I was thinking of not spending again after the clothes incident but when i went for cleaning my teeth, the doctor recommend me to put braces and i was thinking about this for quite some time. So when he ask me if im interested and i need not give an answer to him immediately and before making any decision we have to take the mould of my teeth. Never did i had the intention of asking how much the mould cost and when i going to pay, the nurse told me its $242. Damn it! Really had gone up to a pira...

Everyone is rushing to work and all they know is squeeze and cramp together if possible. I used to be on time for work but now I try to reach as early as possible. I can take my own sweet time and when I reach office, I have my own time to do what I want and even facebook-ing. I used to like taking bus but now, bus always make late. Late for fetching baby, late for work. When bus comes late, the whole bus is filled with people until the front door is unable to open for new passenger. That's the reason why I want my new house to locate near MRT. I don't want to waste time waiting for bus and late for anything becos of the bus.

I think its time for me to pick up another book to read. After my last book "Five people you meet in heaven" i hardly got time to read a new story book. Some more with iPhone now, reading is even more difficult. Workload is getting more and though this will pass soon but work is never ending. After this project, another thing pops up. This is what makes my work challenging. I do love my work. Keeps me busy and not too much time to slack even though i would like to. I prefer to work quietly instead of people keep telling what to do. This new job gives me more space to do what i can do accordingly to my own way. Though rules have to follow but when one think out of the box, work still can be interesting. Most importantly is of cos my colleagues. They are like my 2nd family cos i see them more than my own family and this appeal to most of the office staff. 9hrs in office + 2hrs transport from home to work & work to home reach home less than 5hrs and have to sleep This asian ...

During the training in Norway, my tooth has been giving me problem cos it's been 3yrs since I vist my dentist and everytime I come back he will scold me. Say why so long then come back. Just now, he has took out my wisdom tooth and though it's less than 25mins, I felt I was inside for a long time. I really hate to have any injection on any part of me. The wisdom tooth he took out is rotten and that's why it was hurting me so much. I'm glad I came today but this tooth cos me 360. That goes my money.

Totally no mood to work today. I am so tired & sleepy now. Last night before grant sleep, he had great fall. A big bump on his forehead causing him not to sleep well. He keep waking up n last night when wee wake up at 3 am and watch tv, grant jus sit behind him watching tv without making noise and thus wee did not know how long he has been watching behind him. This morn he can't wake up cos he slept again 620am and I have to wake him up at 730am. He is so tired. Me too.

Finally she has ended her suffering last sun with her last breadth. Before she went, she had a good clean up and feeling fresh for the after life. She was waiting for someone and when this uncle came, shortly she is gone. Though everyone is sad but at least she is not suffering anymore. I really hate to see her suffer before leaving. It just made me feel so bad. I was wishing that she can go early so that she don't suffer this much. Now she's gone, I hope she find peace in another side.

I'm glad i am being promote again and most importantly, my pay has increase. Though not as what i expect but still its alot as a new commer. I joined less than a year and getting pay raise for 3rd or 4th time. I should be happy and not expecting to raise so fast cos i am still learning. There's alot to learn in this department and everyday is learning new things. Everyday is so busy and nothing ends. Finish 1 project and another come. Now i am working over time more than ever. I used to think why people always work overtime. Are they really so busy or are they slow at work which they cant complete anything during the 8 hours working. Now i know. And i am experiencing the work load others have cos i got more responsibilities and work.

"She" refering to hubby ah ma. She is 80+, i pressume. Since the last diagnose of having 4th stage of cancer, she is in a coma for 5days and its not really seem like coma. Its like sleeping and now she can hardly breathe. She is suffering and everytime i look at her i cant look too long cos i will burst out my tears and i cant stop when i start. Just now there were so many people at ah ma house and i have been swollowing all my tears cos i scare to let them see i cry. Im not very close to the relative but im closer to ah ma cos everytime i will talk to her and she will repeat what she say. Even when she repeat many times, i still listen cos i know she doesnt mean to repeat. Just that she doesnt know what illness she had. Now, she is waiting for her time but in pain. Maybe she dont feel the pain but when we see her suffer like this we felt more pain than her. Though we are prepared that she will leave us anytime but still no one can keep the tears. I just hope she dont suffer ...

My mense finally came after being late for 3 weeks. 1st time that my mense had late for so long. It shows that im getting too stress at work and indeed during the missing period time, i was stress due to working and having deadline. Now i feel so much better and having mense has never been great like this time.

After then Europe trip, i was pratically busy working everyday until today that i finally can rest abit without much overtime. I am too stress that my mense had late for a week and this is making me so irritating. Without mense means bloated tummy, mood swing and everything just come. Even the small little matter can become big. I hope my mense can come soon. if not, get ready for 2nd one. I DONT WANT!!!!!!

Finally my Europe trip for the past 2 months are over. 53days in Norway & 7 days in France. We all woke up at around 330am to prepare and we have to go out at 430am. Thanks to the Lente family for seeing me off and Thanks to JB for waking up so early to send me and having to work the whole day still. Back to Singapore and face reality. Back to routinue life and of cos back to my 2 babies. Long journey back to Singapore. 2 hours from Geneva to Copenhagen 6 hours transit in Copenhagen 11 hours from Copenhagen to Bangkok 2 hours transit in Bangkok 2 hours from Bangkok to Singapore total: 23 hours A day to reach Singapore. What a tired journey. I have enough of long flight.

The day before leaving for Singapore. Went last minute shopping for all the souvenirs and chocolates. Busy day and before starting all the shopping, meet JB near his office for lunch in the park. Picnic. Fried rice by zhenny. Delicious but then, my face becomes black after the sun tan. After lunch, we walked a very very very long way to the shopping mall. A long way by the lake. OMG it took us almost an hour to reach the mall and this is really a good exercise instead of taking the short cut; by bus. Its nice to walk along the lake and people are laying on the grass for some sunlight. Geneva city is just like ordinary city. Full of people, cars and buildings. Some of the buildings are so old and dirty and no re-painting done. And the floor are dirty too. Litters around. Still Singapore is the cleanest. Last night in zhenny house. We celebrate our 3 gers birthday together with 1 black forest cake. All the aries gers. Happy birthday to zhenny & chelsie and me too :)

Today JB took 1 day off and we went around the lake of Swiss & France. 1st thing in the morning, we had our breakfast and prepare some sandwich for our lunch before invading to the castle. Wonderful lunch. Sandwich with hard boil egg. Sprinkle some salt on the egg and it taste so nice. Next time i will prepare this for picnic too. After the small picnic, we proceed to the castle and this walk takes us about 3hours. This is not a very big castle and we take our sweet time to indulge ourself to experience what the ancient royalty had lived. Their house, home, lifestyle, daily equipment, design and everything. Even the toilet bowl. But theirs is more convenient as they need no flush cos their poo poo is straight to the lake. Its interesting to explore the castle which i have always wanted but this type of castle isnt that magnificient and not what i expected. So big fish but small prawns is also fine. By the time we finished, its amost 5pm. We went to zhenny ex school and to Evian. E...

Tuesday: We went to the town for awhile and even went to the pet shop plus botanical shop. So many plants and decorations and even scents. I bought 1 vanilla scents to put in the office and its smells nice. Not very strong and the smell is on and off. We went back for lunch and zhenny cooked ba gu teh and steam egg. So nice. After 2 months of non-chinese food, this is really great. Home cooked meal. We went for a walk in the evening and its not a park but a small woods. With lots of tall tress and dry leaves. Horses can be seen and their poo poo too. Big poos and so disgusting. When people walk their dog, they have to clean up the dog poos but the horse poo they dont need to clean up. It was a nice walk in the woods and its very relaxing. Wish something like this can be found in singapore but then i dont think we have the land for this. People only think of making money by building more condos.

Monday. I cant remember what we have done.

Everywhere is almost the same in Europe. Sunday is the off day for everyone and most of the shop is not open unless for the cafe and resturant. But somewhere near zhenny house, there's this supermarket which is open on Sunday morning. We went there to shop the day before for the whole week food and dinner we had cheese fondue (maybe) with champagne. But i really dont like wine & champagne. I prefer Coke. The cheese dinner was very nice and we ate until so full. Its so delicious. But before the dinner, we went to the park for a walk. Its called an old town cos the buildings are really old and its some kind of preserve building from last time. Lots of farmers house and small door house. I wonder why the french are so small in size in the ancient times and now the french are so tall and big build. After walking the whole noon, we went for the Crepe. I ordered Crepe Nutella and they ordered a bottle of apple cider. Like apple with vinegar. Nice Crepe. Not Crap.

2 hours flight from Kristiansand to Copenhagen 2 hours transit in Copenhagen 2 hours flight from Copenhagen to Geneva Finally I reach Geneva and my dearest sister came to fetch me with her family. JB & Chelsie. Before reaching Geneva, just before the plane touch down, i told myself to control my tears in the plane. Not going to let the passenger see me crying. Waiting anxiously for my luggage. Looking around for them and see no sight of them. Walking out to the gate and there they are. Family of Lente waiting for me. Finally my tears drop down uncontrollably. Months of tears stored up just for this day? I felt so good and great to see them again. Especially after months and months of separation. Nothing can explain the happiness i had when i met my family in a foreign country. Its really great. 1st stop we went is the chinese restuarant in Geneva. The resturant they always go. Its nice and crowded with people. We spent the whole evening in zhenny house and dinner is the forever del...

Today is my last day in Arendal, Norway. It is also Grant birthday and I have missed his 2nd birthday. Wee has celebrated his bdae in his school with all his friends and teachers. I am missing him so much this morning while looking thru the photos. His looks has changed alot and he is taller now than last 2 months. I hope he still remember me when i return. But next week, I will webcam with him with zhenny & chelsie. Last day in the office, I am happy. But I'm sad to leave the gers. This might be our last chance to see each other and we hope to see again in Manila or Singapore. When we have the chance to go over each country and visit each other. 45mins more to off work and we are having a farewell party tonight for me and the gers are not going to sleep just to company me thru the night. I will be leaving at 345am as my bus is 4am and they wanted to wait till I leave. We'll see tonight. Hardet Bra Arendal, Norway!

My last week in Arendal, Norway. I have finished my last Monday, Tuesday and today, Wednesday, is going to end in another 9.3hrs. I have spent more than a month in Norway and I have survive the winter here. The weather is getting better now and its super sunny and bright outside. It's making me to leave reluctantly. The time i spent with the gers in Doll House and everything and everywhere makes me miss them more. They have took good care of me and I will never forget them. 3 more days to spend time with them and after this week, we might not have chance to see each other again. Maybe I dont have chance to come back to Norway again and this might be my last winter in Arendal. I wont miss the snow but i will miss the time I spent here. So relaxing and peaceful. Pity that I dont have a chance to be here during summer when its more happening and more activity. I will miss the mountain, the white scenery, the place i've been to and the friends and colleague in Arendal. I'm grat...

1st experience of cross country ski is really fun. But my body is aching now and i had a bad fall before i start skiing. I sat on the sledge and wanted to slide down and ended up with a bump on my butt. Think its blue black now. Its so pain. Skiing is fun and to go down the slope is so exciting. When i fall down, i try again and until i can ski to the end. Falling makes me learn and we were all talking about "RELEASE THE FEAR". We fall because we have fear. Afraid of falling and indeed we all fall. This is a good experience. I love skiing. After skiing, we went to Rubi house for dinner and we had a game on Wii. Its was great and i hope i can have one when i go back spore. Its a good exercise and there's so many games. A great way to exercise and having fun. I wanted to do so many things when i return. I wanted to get a braces. I wanted to get Wii. I wanted to cook grill chicken for wee. I wanted to bring to the beach and play. I wanted to bake cookies for everyone. I want...

Its my last weekend here and tomorrow we are going to shop at another town in a bigger mall and with burger king. But i miss KFC. There's only McDonald and no fried chicken. Europe eats healthy food only? I dont think so. They have a strong taste and likes to eat salty and heavy favour food. My hair is falling and i dont feel so well here. When i want something plain and soup, there's none. 1 more week till i leave for zhenny house. I'm so excited but 1st i'm excited about the skiing on this sunday. Not going for the downhill but just cross country. Flat roads and hopefully with tracks. My mentor lend me hers and thanks to her that i dont need to share but maybe one of the room mate will share with me. We are gonna fall down many times and hope to have some video taken. It will be funny and interesting and of cos cold. Even with the sunny sun. Last 2 days were very sunny with big bright hot sun and still, its too cold to just wear jacket outside. Winter coat is still a ...

Been stressing myself since last 2 weeks. Need to rush alot of work and i want it to be nicely done before i leave here. I have no idea what will become of me when i return to singapore. More stress than ever with new manager and no colleagues in my department. I will be the only one who will be doing this systems and any problem i will have to contact the manager in Norway. Suddenly the future becomes so scary. Thinking of it makes me so pek chek. Working with him and the guy who will be sitting beside me is annoying me too. I wonder whats my life will be when i return. ******************************************************* Today is a bad day. Nothing happen but my mood swing is getting worse. Mense delay, PMS creating emotional wreck inside me. Making me tired and getting my irritated by small little matters. I hate this! Why do woman suffer from PMS?

Woohoo.. this weekend we are going for SKI! We are going to try the cross country instead of the downhill BUT, provided i can lend a skiing shoe. I have no idea who to borrow from. This weekend is my last weekend in Norway and next week I will go to zhenny place for a week. Hopefully no more extend for me. I'm so tired staying here. Finally today we are having a big sunny sun and the snow is starting to melt but its still very cold. Around 0 or 1 degree only. At least no snowing now.

Last day of Feb 2010. I'm still in Arendal. I'm gonna extend for another week and thats it. I cant stay here any longer. Im'm so phobia of the snow now. Everyday walking in the snow to work and walking back with the snow and wind. I'm getting so tired. Today is sunday and everyone is staying at home becos all the shop is closed and no other place to go. Its another boring day.

Busy rushing work. Left 2 weeks to fininsh my work. Time seems to be insufficient for me. I am chasing the time in Norway.

Finally i'm checking out the hotel tomorrow morn. Moving to doll house with the philippine gers. Packing my things and i regret bringing so many sweater which isnt much use to me. My luggage is too full and i hope my friend whom i met in Norway is coming before i leave. Had asked him to help me bring a hand luggage to me so that i can put more things inside. Staying alone in hotel is not that bad. I prefer the quietness here. Concentrate on my work in hotel and doing things i like. Having free breakfast every morning and not cooking myself. Its just 2 weeks with the gers and i hope i can leave ASAP. Going back to Spore and hug Grant. I so miss him and my big baby.

It started snowing heavy today, AGAIN! I'm so sick and tired of snowing. Eversince I came, everyday is below 0 degree C. This whole week will be snowing thru out till Fri. Its really a torture to walk to office in the morn and coming back. Walking in the heavy snow and windy weather is sickening but then, i will cherish the snow here. Cos i think this will be my last trip to a snowing country. I just cant stand the coldness. Too cold outside and too hot inside. No natural way to cool down or keep warm. But Im lucky to have my boss drive me to work in the morn. Only when they are here in Arendal to work. Most of the time they are flying and Im glad they are here most of the time when Im here. By the time i move out, they will start flying again. I have been rushing my work this week and i hope to finish before i leave. I will be leaving on 06 Mar to Zhenny house and return to Spore on 12 Mar. 1 day to reach spore. Its going to be a long long journey. This trip here makes me slim dow...

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

Memories of the past keep flashing back. The wonderful time where i am so carefree. Work, play, clubbing, chatting, travelling, relaxing and having so much fun and emtional pharse of my life. I wasnt that emotional now and i dunno if this is making more emotionless which subsquently make me numb about every emotion i should have. Simple and boring life makes me dull and restless. Routine life makes me uninteresting. Thinking back to the time where i have my freedom and no worries. Having fun with all my friends and i really miss them. The buddy whom i used to have, is not there for me anymore. I really miss my friends... Being lonely here makes me uneasy. This is not the lonely life i wanted. This place makes me low morale, makes me want to cry but i cant cry. Its just so sickening to be stuck here. 3 more weeks to endure. I know i can make it. I have survive here for a month and i have to endure.

Been having dinner with my boss for the past few days and today he has went off. Just had Subway sandwich and finally a burger. But i still wanted to eat fried things and nothing here suits my appetite. I miss the fries. Tomorrow i will go to mac and eat french fries. I miss everyone.

No blogging for 4 days. Yes, lack of determination and nothing interesting thing is happening. Everyday is the same except yesterday. Yesterday was Sat and was planning to go Denmark but there is no midnight ferry in the winter season and we have nowhere to go. I went to the "Doll house" where the Philippine gers are staying and i cooked lunch for them. Not very good but at least they like it. Their taste alot salty and the chicken stock i bought here is also very salty too. Its in powder form and i had put too much and in the end i have to pour away some soup. I fried chicken nuggets too and its really been a very long time since i had fried food. People here like to eat healthy. Hotdogs are not fried but steam or boil. Bread is everyday, every where. Salad are available at lunch time in office. People here eat alot, drink alot but things are too salty and strong favour. I dont think they eat really healthy. They dont have plain food like porridge or congee. Wonder what they...

Nothing much today. No mood to blog today.

This morn, I was actually walking in the snow to walk. Its very very cold and its been snowing since last night. The river has frozen in a night and the ferry is not on the way to work early this morn. Now the ferry is still de-frozing the river and its hard. Its a torture for me to walk in the morn to work. I feel terrible. My face is getting worse. By the time i reach office, my skin becomes too dry and around my nose, the skin is tearing off by bit. Not alot but its not good. By the time we off work, the snow is even heavier. We have to walk very fast to come back. Im so sick of walking in the snow. Its really sucks.

Finally its Febuary. 3 more weeks to finish the job here. Received a very annoying email from one of the technical manager in spore. He is coming to this town with our big boss and will be staying for 2 nights. He said he want to stay in the same hotel with me so that he can have somebody to talk to. Bloody hell. He is the 2-headed snake and a dirty one too. Everyone hate him cos he think he is the king and gets what he wants. I feel so bother by his visiting. Stupid idiot!

Today i tried shovelling the snow and its really tough. Its -8 today and its snowing very heavy. I went to the Philippine gers house for lunch and to repay them, i help them clear the snow and the garbage. My hands and legs become freezing less than 5mins and with the wind, its too too cold to stay outdoor. But then, i enjoy it though not alot. At least i have tried shovelling the snow :)

Arendal shopping area has been cover finished by me and the philippine gers and we are going to Kristiansand where there's alot of shopping and more sales. Its the big sales season in January and everywhere is having sales up to 70%. These gers are really shopaholic and they know just to get cheap stuff and its fun to be with them. But then, not when im really tired. They can shop whole day and i need a rest. Especially in this super cold weather. This is the temperature in the bus when we go to Kristiansand. It's really really cold and we cant stay in the outdoor for long. Shopping in the winter is not very fun and i get headache going in to the hot and coming out to the cold. It's really a torture. some photos in Kristiansand. More photos at http://www.facebook.com/#/album.php?aid=180080&id=735669504&ref=mf

Friday was a very very relax day. Time pass very fast especially on Friday when im busy. Its good that im busy. Today tea-break, we have waffles instead of cakes. Wow it taste really good. Made by the pantry aunty and taste more delicious with the strawberry jam. i must eat more waffles before i go back.

This morn, while i was bathing and washing my hair, i took the hair conditioner and wash my face when im still in a sleepy mode. That really woke me up instantly. Stupid me washing my face with hair conditioner. These 2 are my mentor here in Arendal and today we are having seminar in the hotel Im staying and when i reach office, less than 15mins, im walking back to this hotel. Lucky me that i didnt walk to hotel today. I had a free ride from my director cos he is staying at the same hotel as me and we had breakfast before going to office. Anyway, my mentor, Thor & Marit, are from the QA department and the only 2 in QA. They are friendly and helpful, in some way. Marit is good at her work and she had lots of format which is really useful in our work. Well, i have "took" some formula back to spore office.

Wednesday! 2 more days to weekend where i can sleep longer. Everyday is just not enough sleep for me. Sleep at 9pm and wake up at 630am but im still tired. Maybe its the cold weather that makes me tired. Wanna hibernate like the bear. Sleep thru the winter. Finally today there's SUN and not gloomy day. Today is warm and still cold with the wind. Here's the view from my office.

Today i start doing some real work. Im happy and getting more familar with the system. But it's still a long way to go.

Another day @ work today. Monday blue is not occuring in here. It's just another ordinary day and everything went well. More thing are learn today and at least im progessing today. Today lunch we have Cold Shrimps Everyday breakfast & lunch is so routine. It's bread, ham, white cheese, brown cheese, mayonise, biscuits, tuna, and other sandwich ingredients. But no matter what, when lunch time comes, anything is good especially when you are hungry. I like the biscuits with cheese and butter. I will take more photos this week but with my "little" bag, it's a burden to carry this laptop to and fro everyday and with the weight of the camera, it's hard. But i will try. Just now i had maggie mee with hotdog for dinner and it's great. Far alot better than bread and butter and western food. Hotel food is good and fast but way too much for me. It's a big portion and i can hardly finish it unless im very very hungry. The food here is very oily & salty....

Sunday in Arendal is really lifeless and boring. Every shopping mall and shop is closed except restuarant and cafe. I try walking down the street to the chinese restuarant, Ting Hai, and i was lucky that the boss and his wife were there. The boss is from Singapore or Malaysia and he has live in Arendal for more than 30 years. He said he took over this restuarant from his friend but he seems not happy with it. There is a story behind it but i didnt probe him on this. If he wants to say, someday he will. I will be going to the chinese restuarant maybe on weekends cos i am so tired after work. And the cold weather is making me so annoyed. My skin is getting so dry but when i apply the face cream, my face becomes red. I have no idea is my skin sensitive to the cream or is it healing my skin from the dryness. 1st time i experience dry skin. My face becomes so tight and dry. When i smile, i can feel the skin is pulling tight. Damn sian. Anyway, last night i went to the Crew Dept colleague ho...

Today is Saturaday and its 938am. Shopping mall has just open and more shop will open at 10am. Suppose to meet the Philippine gals from other department whom are here for training too. They have been here for 2 weeks and i tried calling them just now but no ans. Guess i have to go out alone today and its bloody cold now. Even in the room, my hands and feet are getting cold. I got another 8hrs to shop cos they close at 6pm today. And weekdays, they close at 8pm. But well, i dont really like to go out in the cold and snowy city. Better to stay in the room and get my head into my work. LOL. Thats gonna happen after i have done my shopping later. I still need to buy boots, sneaker and some clothes. My clothes are limited. I HATE WINTER!

Friday at work is so relax. Everyone seems to be so "free" and chating away. Life in Norway really makes me fat and easily hungry (maybe its winter that's why im getting hungry easily). Friday menu Breakfast @ 7am Lunch @ 1130am Teabreak @ 2pm (chocolate cakes) But i didnt eat the cakes cos im still so full at 2pm after the lunch. Everyone seems not to be anxious about their work. Its like they can just do it tomorrow and tomorrow. Everyone comes in early or late and some leave early but never late. Maybe that's their culture that they are enjoying life while working. Unlike singapore where most people have to work overtime and some even stay in the office until their boss leave. Well just to show face to their boss that they are working hard. Its almost everywhere in singapore where lots of people stay overtime just to show how good and hardworking they are but when things happen, they are like SHIT! Pushing everything to others and trying to stay clear of everything...

Another day pass and life is at least getting better here and im starting to feel boring. Everyday wake up at 6am and prepare to go down for breakfast. After breakfast back to the room to SHIT before going to office. Its only a 10mins walk to office and its a nice exercise. Today, i didnt get to learn many things but im getting familiar with the work i should do. Tomorrow is Friday and weekend is coming soon but i have nowhere to go. Maybe i should check around and take the ferry to another town but its too cold to stay outdoor. Haiz.. where can i go?

Today is the 1st day i start my training. Everything is fine except the bloody weather. Its been snowing from morning till now 7pm (singapore time 2am). Heavy snow and windy weather is driving me crazy. Last night my director called me to ask me go down for breakfast as he was staying in this hotel too but then he went back to Sweden this noon. He had missed me for dinner yesterday when the reception ger had gave him the wrong room no. So after breakfast, he told me that he was actually staying just opposite my room. We went to office in his car and its just a 5mins drive from the hotel which means i have to walk around 8mins from hotel to office tomorrow morning. Snowy weather is really troublesome. He has to sweep off the snow flake from his car before driving off if not he cannot see the road. Today learning was ok and its totally new to me. New department new things to learn. Nice people in the office and they are all surprise to see young people for training. I guess. Most of them...

After a long long journey (24hrs) i finally reach Arendal. I should have checked with air serve for direct flight from Singapore - Copenhagen -Kristiansand instead i took the stupid timing which my manager has suggested. Singapore - Bangkok - Copenhagen - Kristiansand With every 2hrs of transit and with my stupid heavy laptop, this journey to here is not fun at all. Worse still is i have to take 11hrs flight from Bangkok to Copenhagen and i can only sleep in the plane. As im at the window seat, i can hardly go out unless the couple outside is going out too. This is a disater and though its good experience for my next trip (which i hope not), i have learned what to bring and how to bring the nesscessary items onboard. This trip, i plan to get 2 luaggage but when i want to check in my luaggage, the weight is over 20kg which i have to pay a fine of 1.8k if i dont repack. In the end, i have left out alot of food and cant bring over to zhenny. But anyway, i hope this 1 month i can learn as ...

Yeah another 24hrs i will board the plane to Norway, Kristiansand. It's gonna be a long long flight for me and i have to do many transit. As i'm travelling with Thai Airway, i have to take flight to Bangkok and then to Copenhagen then to Kristiansand. But I'm still 2 hours away from Arendal which i have to take a bus from Kristiansand airport to Arendal which is a small town near the port. I hope everything goes well without much obstructs or anything which will make me miss my flight or whatsoever. By the time i reach Arendal is 19 Jan 1030am which is Singapore time 530pm. And, haizz i don't know. Very mix feeling now. Wish to finish the training ASAP and come back. But then i scare i have too much freedom this coming month and i will miss my freedom when i come back. Free from getting angry with Grant and free from all the hassle to bring him go out. Ya i know I'm bad to think that it's a hassle to bring him go out but then today, he really make me super angry...

People often said "when opportunity came knocking, never push it away because you don't know when it will be back". Once in a lifetime chance for me to learn more things to help my career to another level. Why should i not accept it. There's every reason for me to accept and no reason why i shouldn't. Though I'm leaving Grant behind for a month but with this month, i can bring him years of comfort. I'm glad I'm staying in Hougang . because i don't want to stay at home and i force myself to work everyday. Not many sick leave unless I'm really very sick and would rather stay in office than here. This is very abnormal because who will be more happy at work than home? Only me. ***************************************** I'm living for training in another week and this Chinese New Year, i wont be able to make it home to celebrate with everyone but I will go to France and celebrate with zhenny . Going to enjoy the steamboat, cheese fondue and I hop...

Finally we are stepping into year 2010. As year 2009 was rather a difficult year for me and i hope this year, everything will goes smooth. Not many resolution for this year. 1st - Plan to get my own house 2nd - As my career are moving up, i hope to get some increment to clear the monthly bills and expenses that are getting more and more. Though work will be more busy than ever but i know the result will pay off. Reap what you sow. Only by giving the best shot, the result will be satisfying. Many things i wanted to do but with limited money, i can only do it slow. Most importantly for this year is to sell off teck whye house soon. With every monthly loan of $1620, fenny is going down soon plus her school fees, i know she is not having much money to spend. I hope things will get better after i come back from Norway. 3rd - clear the credit cards debt (though its not going to work this year but then this is the last chance im giving hope) Okay, here wishing everyone a happy new year and ma...