"She" refering to hubby ah ma. She is 80+, i pressume.
Since the last diagnose of having 4th stage of cancer, she is in a coma for 5days and its not really seem like coma. Its like sleeping and now she can hardly breathe. She is suffering and everytime i look at her i cant look too long cos i will burst out my tears and i cant stop when i start.
Just now there were so many people at ah ma house and i have been swollowing all my tears cos i scare to let them see i cry. Im not very close to the relative but im closer to ah ma cos everytime i will talk to her and she will repeat what she say.
Even when she repeat many times, i still listen cos i know she doesnt mean to repeat. Just that she doesnt know what illness she had.
Now, she is waiting for her time but in pain. Maybe she dont feel the pain but when we see her suffer like this we felt more pain than her. Though we are prepared that she will leave us anytime but still no one can keep the tears.
I just hope she dont suffer so much now and have peace after life.
Since the last diagnose of having 4th stage of cancer, she is in a coma for 5days and its not really seem like coma. Its like sleeping and now she can hardly breathe. She is suffering and everytime i look at her i cant look too long cos i will burst out my tears and i cant stop when i start.
Just now there were so many people at ah ma house and i have been swollowing all my tears cos i scare to let them see i cry. Im not very close to the relative but im closer to ah ma cos everytime i will talk to her and she will repeat what she say.
Even when she repeat many times, i still listen cos i know she doesnt mean to repeat. Just that she doesnt know what illness she had.
Now, she is waiting for her time but in pain. Maybe she dont feel the pain but when we see her suffer like this we felt more pain than her. Though we are prepared that she will leave us anytime but still no one can keep the tears.
I just hope she dont suffer so much now and have peace after life.
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