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5 years

As time goes by, i'm scare

scare of time
scare of environment
scare of society
scare of humans
scare of everything

mayb im too boring at home and thinking that im just wasting time at home

watching every seconds passing thru but nothing achieve
i felt so wasted for a day to pass just like that

haiz i really dunno what i wanna do

sometimes things just do go my way when i have decided

mayb i have missed the opportunity to get what i shld get and now still lingering in the air wondering what had happen all these years

looking back 5 years

i have achieved nothing big but at least i have learned how to live my life

not that im indecisive in making decision
jus that i need someone to support what i have decided and i need someone to have the same thinking so that we can go down the road in hand

many people think that im too "green vege" in handling things but problem is
i dun want to think so much and burn my cells over stupid things

i jus wan a relax life and happy with the people around me

5 years ago
i can say im more to innocent and im too simple

5 years later
i still choose to live my simple life
but i aint an innocent ger anymore

i see thru life
i see thru people around me
i see thru myself
i see thru most of the things

but still sometimes i choose not to see
closing my eyes makes me feel ease
closing my eyes makes me feel secure

i never think of choosing to make my life to a luxury situation
instead i choose love over bread
cos without love i can never eat my bread in peace

all these 5 years i have been choosing the same thing in each relations

from my 1st to now, baby

i have learned that
time change people
environment change people
people change people

in this everchanging society
im so sick of people changing
i hate changes
but still i hate routine

i might have change into a more cold-blooded heartless and less emotions ger
becos of so many things happened and so many things changed

i have lost faith in love, trust and most of all
MAN

but now i hope i can use another 5 years to gain back what i have lost for the past 5 years

Comments

Low Confidence Gal said…
dun worry le...all thing will be fine ok..
Wednesday, September 13, 2006 12:21:00 AM
慧灵 said…
thanks... dun worry i will be fine.. and soon i will have money to go out with u gers
Thursday, September 14, 2006 11:59:00 AM
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