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Suddenly i felt all is too sudden for me... i dun really like it fast and this time its really too fast for me.. i still cant accept the fact that im in a relations again when the break up happens 1 mth ago..
im really scare of steppin into another unknow relations... the impact of the hurt and pain i had seem like yesterdae.. i keep askin myself..

"do i really have to step in again? will i be hurt again?"

y must i always be so rush in relations?? aint im afraid of being hurt again?

Life jus got to make choices.. sometimes i might not make the right choice but since its my choice then i jus have to accept the route i got to take... sometimes i wish i can jus stop at a junction where i can dun move cos if i dun move then i wont have to make any choices..

Im really scare of droppin to the ground real hard.. though i know it wont be as hard as last time.. still the chances of droppin is there.. i know nothin can be predicted.. nothin is absolute.. all i need is time.. (i hope u can understand)

Do i really have to choose to be a cold blooded ger in order not to get hurt? being immune from all the feelings? actually i really dunno wat i wan.. haizz.. all i wan is sleep.. i hope to sleep forever.. always in my dreamland with all the flowers, trees and animals.. havin a carefree life in my dream..

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