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Paranoid is getting into me again for no reason or something in my sixth sense has been triggering me to being paranoid i hate being paranoid cos it spoilt my everything.. it makes me tired and feeling very lethargic about everything... nothing good ever come out of it.. i hate my sixth sense too.. making me feeling suspicious of everything and everyone.. cant ever seem to break free from all this stupid senses which i have..

omg i love the life of living free.. free from stress of work.. no trouble of waking up late even if u wake up at 1pm... doesnt matter too.. no one to scold u for being late or not reporting to work.. these 2 weeks have been such a great time for me.. but its not enough.. not enough for me to sleep until wat time i like.. its too short for anyone rite?? next week gonna start work le.. dunno y suddenly feel so sian abt going there.. arghhhhh i haven enjoy the sun cos these few days keep raining.. finally today the weather looks so sunny and time to hang out my bed sheet.. and hope it dun rain today.. but i see the sky is becoming darker.. haiz next tue i will be sloggin my life early in the morn and I HAVE TO WAKE UP EARLIER THAN BAO BEI!!! wake up at bloody hell 7am.. gonna be a panda again... *sob sob but heng ar... hahahahahhhaa its a 5 days work so sat can sleep until song.. woohooo...

alright continued from the last post of xmas party when all the things are done at chen hse... where my clothes and bag are soak at his hse.. haiz.. dunno can wash off the stupid red stain anyway xmas party at hor fun wasnt very fun as last year and its kind of boring to me.. hmm mayb its not organise by me bah hahahahhahaa next year i shall organise myself... and a very fun and exciting xmas party.. woohoo but this year i got a special guest... and its Jayson... yeah.. he seldom came for the gathering but this year he had came twice.. and another person is kian keong.. he oso very seldom come and he live at the same block with Jayson.. its so much coincidence in this world.. they live at the same block and kian keong sis is sheng da classmate.. woohoo damn too coincidence.. its a small small world... that nite everyone was super high... high only and not drunk like last year.. so many ppl and only finish a bottle of Gordon Bleu, Chivas and volka.. haiz.. damn too lousy liao.. and calv...

You're blue - the most soothing shade of the spectrum. The color of a clear summer sky or a deep, reflective ocean, blue has traditionally symbolized trust, solitude, and loyalty. Most likely a thoughtful person who values spending some time on your own, you'd rather connect deeply with a few people than have a bunch of slight acquaintances. Luckily, making close friends isn't that hard, since people are naturally attracted to you - they're soothed by your calming presence. Cool and collected, you rarely overreact. Instead, you think things through before coming to a decision. That level - headed, thoughtful approach to life is patently blue - and patently you!

last nite was a potluck xmas party at hor fun hse and hmm i wasnt in the mood cos when i reach there something stupid happen to me which make me lose the fun whole nite damn it!! when i reach, i went to the toilet and inside there's no hook for my bag and only place i could put is the toilet paper dispenser and thats i put on top so while im half way done.. my stupid bag drop and it drop wasnt any big deal but not when there's a bottle of red wine inside and damn it... it broke and yesh my clothes and jacket which is white color was all stained with the red wine.. then i run back to chen hse and ask him to soak the clothes for me.. and my whole bag was spoilt and ruined with the red wine smell which i dun like cos i dun drink wine.. super sian and super low morale.. haven start my party and things happen like tat all my things inside the bag was ruined!!!!!!!! AND MY PRECIOUS HP TOO... sob sob when the bag drop the 1st thing i took out is the hp and last nite i couldnt open it ...

im so happy.. xmas is coming and tml going for AES party at hor fun hse with those drinkers Its a potluck party and bring our own food and alcohol over and having fun whole nite.. till wee hrs hahahahhahaa every year AES party is so much fun and so much laughter being heard.. this year i didnt organise but still there are parties going on during the weekend.. think xmas party is the only day where AES frds gather and having like last time... its really been a year where i saw some of them.. though i did had a gather few mths ago but not all went cos due to work and studies.. but xmas party is one party where they never miss so excited abt tml nite and having all my good frds around.. woohooo i love xmas party.. yeah yeah

im bored at home but im feeling so relax still im here looking at my pc whole day as though im in the office

yesterdae went to Bishan Junction 8 to shop and have lunch at Ding Tai Feng and suppose to meet wee wee but he wasnt free and busy with his housework.. hmm food was fresh and nice but something missing... no fried dim sum.. sian.. all steam dim sum and no fried things for me.. overall the food was juicy cos inside the dim sum still got the juice to keep it watery.. thats very unique from others.. and chicken soup is all chicken inside with no herbs but only ginger and oinons.. very cooling and nice nice thats the true taste of chicken soup.. woohoo after eating walk walk around junction 8... BB & I were trying to find the ciggies box for wee wee cos his old one has spolit and he wanted something like a box.. couldnt find something similar and keep walking around.. finally saw it at MUEE.. wohooo so happy cos it was so hard to find.. bought a blue color for him.. yeah alright that is his Bird day Cum Xmas gift which had been delaying for so long anyway when we walk into Best Denki...

yeah my last post in the office today is my last day here and woohoo im super free next week yeah yeah.. time to relax and play hahahahhaa been here for 2 years and hmm miss the freedom here and my own station other than that... nothing to miss liao hahahahahhaahahahhaa im feeling happy today... im feeling sunshine.. im feeling sunny.. im feeling.. hahahahahhaa jus wanna laugh out loud... woohoo i love my life.. i love my dog.. i love my family.. i love my frds.. i love everyone and most of all is of cos my BB la... hahahaha

last nite went to Lot 1 Kbox with bb & his butt its been a long time since we 3 went to kbox.. about 2 mths and erm bz outing too hahahaa anyway last nite was full of craziness & laughter & other than the sound of music... me & ah wee was shouting inside the box.. hahahaa.. singing at high pitch and shouting out with all we can sing until 1245am and by the time i sleep its almost 2am.. omg feeling damn sleepy this morn and dun feel like waking up for work.. until now im still feeling sleepy.. bb is more worse than me.. he more sleepy than me hahahhaa we look so stone in the morn.. feeling like zombie.. omg today have to go home sleep early

after work went to Punggol for dinner with BB & ah wee and after dinner, went to Mount Faber for a drink Choose Mount Faber is becos ah wee is going to work at 10pm and its near his workplace.. reach there and wanted to sit the sofa seat but all occupied.. sian.. next time must go early to "chop" the seat.. hahahahhaha.. so sit somehwere near the peak where the entire view of sentosa and harbour front is viewable.. they have renovated and its more colorful now.. brighter and more lights.. well mayb its xmas thats why they got the deco soon after we settle our butt on the chair, start to look thru the menu and search for drinks.. hmm dunno want to drink wat cos too many to choose.. ah wee drink Kopi, BB drink gunneiss (dunno how to spell) and me drink shirley temple.. no alcohol ok.. cos Mr Lim is there and no alcohol allow hahahahaha sit for 1hr+ and ah wee got to leave for work... leaving me & bb drinking there.. so walk around the shop there and saw the cable car.....

OMG I have 3 xmas party to attend this year on the 23rd, a alcohol party with my AES frds at ah chen hse.. this party is such a lousy one.. 1st time ever attend this kind of party.. its call potluck party... everyone bring their own food and own alcohol.. i mean how am i going to prepared what i wan to eat?? i prefer to eat food with several choices and if i were to bring food over, i will surely go hawker centre da bao to the party.. more convenient and easy.. woohoo okok i shall buy from hawker centre 2nd party which is on 24th Dec - xmas eve... dinner at da jie hse.. she's going to prepared a feast for us and mayb i will go up help her prepared.. finally the one which everyone will be present is on the 25th Dec.. yeah mum hse BBQ woohoo hahahahhaa... kitty & june will be going too and i have ask everyone to prepare a gift for gift exchange.. yeah min amt is 15 bucks.. woohoo i love gift exchange.. but i really dun like cheap stuff.. haiz sometimes no choice lei.. other cousi...

woohoo my last day will be on the 17 Dec 2005 Sat... which is this coming Sat and omg im so happy i can rest.. its been a long time since i have rested.. next week i can finally wake up late.. slack at home.. do all the hsework for the CNY.. cook for BB after his work.. omg i can do so many things.. most important i can go out play hahahahahahaaha who wanna book me?? only available till ??? not sure yet hahahhaha anyway gonna enjoy myself while i can.. woohoo.. i love holidays..

scan some of the pics only cos too much to scan le these pics from pinky bro where he took with his cam and developed the pics for us very blur scanned but no choice.. all sisters.. big and small mum & pinky mei mei.. ah ger arghhh wow.. lovely dovey hahahahaa wonder why my face got so many pimples?? fenny & hong liang taken without me cos im helping out pinky with erm dunno wat

Pinky wedding had past almost 2 mths and till now then i get the pics from her anyway here are the pics and more are coming up me & pinky me, pinky, fenny & pinky frd.. ermm shld be Li Hui bah all the sisters in her room before the anderson come new commer are er jie on the left and da jie on the right before going back to anderson hse, we went to lower pierce reservoir to take pics.. that day was very hot and we are bz helping pinky to pull the dress.. making us sweat and stink like pig sisters pics trying to stop anderson from taking away pinky hahahhaa this pics looks so funny see the way he was? is he drunk? shld be bah.. bao bei wanted to make him bottoms up the red wine but his frd James (beside anderson) stopped him from drinking.. look at pinky.. she's so poor thing standing there and cant do anything to help him now uncle step 1 leg in to make him more drunk hahahahaa and stupid Hong liang still eating while they are drinking finally.. the last pics.. this pics was...

I hate being lied by people and sometimes (only sometimes) i hate to lie to others i felt uneasy to say a lie.. especially those lies which i dun have intention to lie and no intention to hide any dark secrets.. sometimes friends asked me to say "WHITE LIES" to protect their own good comfort other people which they think it will not do any harm to them but the truth is hurt wasnt done directly.. it will be done indirectly as the time goes by.. someday truth will be out and by the time when truth is out, person being lied to will be more hurt mayb the truth might never reveal and mayb the secrets will go together with u into the coffin.. well, into the coffin is better than being reveal cos sometimes a lie leads to millions of lies and lies have to continue for a long long time if u dun wan to be caught lying.. sometimes im scare of people who keep saying lies and i know someday they will lie to me too.. i hate people who lie to me.. u may say u didnt lie and the truth is u j...

last nite went to farmart to eat with mum they all and after dinner went to IMM Giant to buy food but alas.. i wanna buy the pig liver but i bought the kidney... haiz reach home then realised that i have bought the wrong one im so angry at myself cos this is the 2nd time i buy the kidney when i wanted the liver.. omg the both jus look the same and i seldom go market so when i saw the chunk of meat there and i always thought that is the liver kidney was so smelly when i open up.. yucks! another thing i bought wrongly is my facial wash.. suppose to buy facial wash but i bought facial cleasing.. arghh i still have a whole bottle at home and now i bought in another one.. gosh.. it was the 2nd f**king time that i bought the wrong things again.. found myself so stupid & careless and didnt check properly before buying.. i really hate myself when i make this stupid mistake again and again..

A ger and a boy had broke up due to some reasons and misunderstandings 9 months later, they meet up for drinking session with some other friends in a pub out of a sudden, the boy said "i ask you something and you must ans me frankly" ger ans "OK" boy asked "have you done it with K?" the ger was shocked to hear this question from the boy ger paused for awhile and ask "why? why u suddenly ask me this question?" boy immediately know the answer and both was quiet for awhile boy asked: "before or after we break" ger paused and ans: "after" boy murmured to himself "i thought you wouldnt do this to me" quietness once again came into them even though the pub was blasting with people singing but all they could hear was nothing but confused mind ger said: "it wasnt what i wan. I was dead drunk that time" boy preserve silence and none of them look at each other right at the eyes ger was very upset by the questions and...

reading from my past entries make me realise alot of things 1st is my english.. i know my english aint that good and sometimes its lousy to the extend of not being able to let anyone understand what im trying to express sometimes i blog when im tired and sleepy, sometimes i blog when i got the mood, sometimes i blog when im emotional and sometimes the feelings and thoughts jus come visit me suddenly reading the past... reminds me of those things which i haven done or achieved.. but most importantly i could understand wat im going thru for this whole year.. how my feelings towards each and everything.. though sometimes i didnt blog it out on certain things due to uncertain reasons like: sleepy, moody, tired.. but things did happen and i jus dun wan to mention it.. its best to forget.. 1st thing which i haven done is to plant flowers on my grandma tomb.. yeah bao bei and i said wanna plant sunflower or carnations.. im still thinking which flowers doesnt need much care.. any suggestions...

What is your 2006 resolutions? Have you think abt it? before i think abt my 2006 resolutions, i have to go thru my 2005 resolutions 1st in 2005 i have only achieved 1 goal which is my car license.. but it had been delayed from Jan to Nov.. wonder why i took so long to complete? cos im lazy to go down BBDC to book and lazy to look for instructor and due to some emotional pharse which caused me to stop learning too anyway im glad i have passed and get my car license but there are still other goals which i cant get it done.. other goals include: 1 A new career in hotel line (not being lazy to find but sometimes hotel industry does need relations to get in if not experience... i had none and thats why im still here) 2 Take up Marketing course (ohh well.. i haven pass my current course yet! and there's no chance for me to study it now! mayb couple of years bah) 3 Earn many many money (isnt that is in everyone resolutions?? but how much does one consider it to be many many? but at least ...

If you're not married yet, share this with a friend. If you are married, share it with your spouse or other married couples and reflect on it. An African proverb states, "Before you get married, keep both eyes open, and after you marry, close one eye." Before you get involved and make a commitment to someone, don't let lust, desperation, immaturity, ignorance, pressure from others or a low self-esteem, make you blind to warning signs. Keep your eyes open, and don't fool yourself that you can change someone or that what you see as faults aren't really important. Once you decide to commit to someone, over time his or her flaws, vulnerabilities, pet peeves, and differences will become more obvious. If you love your mate and want the relationship to grow and evolve, you've got to learn to close one eye and not let every little thing bother you. (but that doesnt mean u can go out and fool around and asking your mate to keep one eye close while u are enjoying ur...

sat nite had dinner gombak coffee shop for JB, whom is nini bf and he's going back to france tonight.. so had a great dinner with those black pepper crab, steam fish, fried prawn with mango sauce.. yummy yummy.. deer meat, bbq chicken.. omg thats our fav.. super nice and tasty well still got veges and yam.. hmm cant think still got wat le.. anyway nini.. we had ate ur share for u hahahahaa... dun envy us ok.. ohh no not we is JB had eaten for u.. dun be too sad and dun miss us too much.. we shall meet up again soon.. very soon.. dun worry.. 6 mths pass easily in jus half a blink.. yeah but hmm dunno i can anot cos im changing job and new job might not have the leave and time for me to take.. anyway i will try to go ok.. trying to save up money now to go there eat the food JB gonna prepare and places which u 2 are going to take us to.. yeah yeah.. im so excited anyway nini this post is for u.. and ya congrats on ur event.. muacks muacks.. here are the pics taken last nite and its fo...

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that day went over to pinky hse to take the perfume & wine when she came back from Bangkok and somemore its her & andersone 1001 days.. ya and she ask us to give him a surprise hahahaa i felt so stupid cos its so last min and venue is at her hse where her mum, uncle & ah ger are anyway when they arrived all the lights were off and when anderson came in.. surpriseeeee.. lights were on and the board which pinky made with the lightings were on too.. anyway anderson dun really know what was going on that time so chit chat over there and eat some thai food.. yummy yummmy.. alright me took some pics of ah ger here is it.. ermm my BB yeah ah ger & me.. its too blur cos she keep moving around and i cant capture her at least this looks better.. she always like to make funny face infront of the camera.. she aint shy when the camera is infront of her and instead she will pose for me to take hahahaha guess wat she's trying to tell u?? its her winnie the pooh la.. hahahhha she w...

yeah.. 2 more weeks for me to stay in the office didnt know that actually i have been handling so many things until the handover.. gosh.. so many things to do and somemore have to rush for xmas.. sending brochure, leaflet, emails... etc though got a temp staff to help.. mayb taking over my things.. but he keep complaining about this and that.. give him things to do then he complain.. nothing to do oso complain sian.. damn him i dun really like this guy.. why.. cos he's too friendly and too much things to complain.. over reactive, sensitive and talk too much and the worse thing i hate is too close to me.. i hate man to stand so close to me cos i dunno him well and i felt very disgust by him.. cant he stand away 1 m from me? 1 m aint too far for talking purpose rite.. there are so many things abt this guy he only came a week and there's so much things i dun like.. we have barely know each other for a week and he asked me to lend him 30 bucks.. gosh.. im not close to u and u as a ...

browse thru the net and searching for 7 deadly sins im not suddenly interested in this topics cos i have been thinking of whats the deadly sins and now i know and its really deadly... one leads to another sin.. there's never ending sins if one is to continue following information are taken from Wikipedia and i only listed out the 7 deadly sins cos u dun need me to write out everything bah.. go read urself ok 1st sin ~ Lust (fornication) - unlawful sexual desire, desiring sex with a person who is not married to 2nd sin ~ Gluttony - wasting food, thru overindulgence in food, drink or intoxicants, misplaced desire for food for its sensuality or withholding food from the needy 3rd sin ~ Greed - desire to possess more than one has need or use for 4th sin ~ Sloth - laziness, idleness and wastefulness of time allotted 5th sin ~ Wrath (anger, hate) - inappropriate feelings of hatred, revenge or denial, as well as punitive desires outside of justice 6th sin ~ Envy (jealousy) - resen...

went thru SassyJan blog and saw something which make me curious about myself.. yeah i wanna know whats my deadly sins are and result are: You scored as Pride . Pride 81% Gluttony 63% Sloth 50% Greed 31% Lust 25% Wrath 13% Envy 6% Seven deadly sins created with QuizFarm.com alright my deadly sin are my pride and thats very true cos i really have high pride and ego but depends on what situation.. not always im so high pride ok.. depends on my mood.. 2nd sin is glutton.. hahaha thats very true oso cos if im not glutton then i wont have stupid tummy now.. all my itchy mouth fault.. 3rd is sloth.. sloth means laziness.. hmm yup abit lazy and dunno y im so lazy sometimes.. but im more to sloppy than lazy.. weak emotionally and jus wanna relax and lie on bed dreaming 4th is greed.. hmm greed? i dun think im greed.. ermm only greed in food hahahhaa but not in money and thats not a good point cos that means i dun have the drive to strive for money and take my jobs too easy.. well thats bad for...

to 2006 woohoo new year is coming soon and in a mth time... but im expecting xmas and the gift exchange session hahahahaa i love xmas.. yeah yeah... joyous day and everyone is happy.. even if aint celebrating, one will still feel happy and open ur hands to welcome 2006 thinking of my 2006 resolutions.. hmm still career is in the 1st place.. my career sucks in 2005.. damn it.. i had waste 1 year and learn nothing much.. im so lost in career.. anyway im tired to think of wat my career will be in 2006 but this year i had finally pass my TP and got my license.. my 2005 resolution include my tp but suppose to be on Jan and now i had delayed till Nov.. but still im happy to achieve it cos at least i have fufill 1 thing yeah its a begining for me.. to achieve something when u put in ur effort is the fruit of the hard work.. for the tp i had practise for a long time.. once a week and everytime 40 bucks for 1.5hrs nia.. gosh thats around 160 bucks per mth.. but now i can save up the money wooho...

I dunno wat im thinking all these while al i wanted was to get away.. away from something which i dunno and dun even know if it exist really felt very sick & tired now.. tired of everything that happen to me.. sick of anyone who is in my way to make me pek chek im jus being spoilt by bao bei cos he would let me vent my anger / pek chekness on him and i would easily pek chek abt anything well he really dote on me and always give in to me but also keep making me angry cos he always disturb me to make me pek chek he purposely make me pek chek and sometimes i wonder if i have a pretty pek chek face which he like and thats y he keep making me pek chek bengz!! ya ya anyway thanks BB for everything u gave me and that include ur love, care & concern, listening ears, punchbag body, venting anger spot (ur butt ~ not ah wee ok is ur real bouncy buttock hahahaaa), ur laughter (though i laugh more than u but its nice to see u laugh cos u are so funny) and .... so many things to list out.. d...

yeah tml is siao ah wee bird day but no plans yet he's working till 1030pm today and after he work go find him and celebrate with him didnt buy any present for him but jus a small bdae card and mayb a cake for him later happy bdae 2pit wee

woohooo... changed blog skin again see the old see until super sian and wan something fresh to keep me writting been looking for this layout for 3 days though this layout is simple but im jus lazy to learn myself i would rather spend my time looking thru those blog skin and slowly find but these skin aint to my expectation.. i need more space and something neat.. mayb in future i will do my own blog skin... yeah

last sun june, ah wee, bao bei & me had a discovery outing to Farmart it was our 1st time there and ever since its opened.. i haven been to there though its so near me.. i did went there before but at the car park only.. it was so fun inside.. there had the pond to fish the prawns.. so many types of ponds and even for children.. there are many animals.. domestic animals and animals which nowadays kids seldom will see i miss the days when im living in the kampong.. hmm well not actually kampong cos kampong is less developed.. more like village hahahaha... or is it the same?? anyway.. im so happy to see the goat there cos i seldom see goat with such a long horn (is it call horns) and so curl.. its an old goat and this goat seem hungry for food cos when i feed some vege to him.. he greedily eat in a hurry.. as though they are some goats fighting for it isnt the horns looks fabulous?? i was surprise to see their shit was so many and so small hahahaha.. those tiny little droppings on th...