Shouldn't I be happy today when I received a letter from company? Letter stating that I have a 5% increment and 1 month performance bonus. Well I should have but then its all expected. I expect to have more increment but then I think I'm worth only 5% in their eyes. Why should I work so hard every day at work and making me and my family tired and getting this little bonus from company. Is what I'm doing at work not worth the price I should have? I guess its time to eat some snake at work rather than putting 100% concentration on work. Its really not worth the time and strength.
Last year I used to be happy to get increment and bonus but this year, totally no mood for CNY. Just now I went to temple to thanks the god for the past year blessing and when the aunty talk in hokkien, I couldn't understand must what she said. When she knew I couldn't understand hokkien, she talked in Mandarain and when I heard she ask for blessing for husband and wife, my tears just dropped. I must have scared her cos she was chanting half way and stop and ask me what happened.
She say don't worry, everything will be good. Though its just some comforting words but at least I feel better. Before I went in, the uncle said I will give birth to another child next year. Don't know should I be happy or be confuse. When time comes, hope everything will work it out.
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