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Grant is teething now and at night he reject the yao lan so much the moment i put him in, he keep crying and toss upside down making me so pek chek and tired carry him until he very sleepy then can put him in day time there is no proble sleeping but at night is really fussy his teeth is growing too fast and 1/3 of the teeth can be seen now tml im going to buy the teething medicine for him

Finally i found what i've been missing since sec sch eversince sec 1, i will go back home after sch to watch this series at 3pm and its like a routine to me thats why im always at home during sec 1 & 2 guai guai at home watch tv i miss this show so much found some episode at youtube enjoy the show

Last night dont know what happen and when i was cooking maggie mee and wanted to bring out to the table and then suddenly the bowl slant 1 side and scalded my left hand then being gan cheong scalded my right hand damn it super duper hot and my hand gone red this incident make me think of zhenny being scalded when she was small i dont know is im dreaming or is it real i saw mum carried her and put her in the water cos both her leg are scalded i dont know what happen but after that i saw red bubbles on her leg felt so scary this images are always on my mind and i dont know if its for real lucky that her leg has no scar or anything but then whole night my hand was hurting and very pain i wonder how a child can endure the pain

I really hate politics matter and all those news about "shooting darts" here and there makes me sick cant understand why so many people are "concerned" about politics and haizz... better keep my mouth shut in case i being "stab" into politics without any warning

working part time but then the pay is not as good as full time thinking of being a post woman cycling on the bicycle and sending letter to blocks this way i can get rid of my fats fast its only a temp job for me cos i know i have to get an office job in the end thinking of how to grow money but with no capital now thinking of setting up business but with capital thinking of getting a proper job and settle down and getting stable income to support grant haiz so many things to think whereas nothing can be done now thats why i can only think!

Grant is growing 2 little teeths in his lower jaw and he is bitting things more than before lately at night he didnt sleep well which means me either waking up at night when he keep making sound so tired lately last night before he sleep, use the lavender oil to help him wipe his body and at least it helps to make him sleep more and well he is growing teeth too fast last 2 weeks i see nothing much but this week i can see at least half cm and 1 little dot of teeth coming out he is learning to crawl very fast too this morning as usual, when he make sound and i carry him to sleep beside me and somehow i sleep again and by the time i woke up, he has crawl to the bed end and wanted to take the tv control on the table and instead it fall on the floor thats when i woke up to find him missing lucky the table is there to save him cos my bed is too high for him to crawl (somemore he dunno how to go down) thats really scary cant imagine what happen if he fall from the bed we have to adjust chelsi...

First we to thanks Chang-er for this festival so that we can enjoy the delicious mooncake story about chang-er is all time tales and we are all familiar with it "Story begin with Chang-er and Hou yi ... " when i was young, we always celebrate this day with candles, lantern (burning of lantern) and playing in the playground lighting all the candles around the playground and burning all the candles into wax once a year that's where we have the permission to play with fire candles paper lantern is our all time favourite cos after playing, we can burn it hahahaha

Somethings are hard to decide though nothing is perfect and nothing can be done to please both side so, decision have to be made to work for money OR to give grant more time to learn Work for money is a must in life for everyone now grant is only 6 months and my financial is getting real bad with no income and the only breadwinner is getting more tough monthly expenses is rising and same amount of income remains how?? if i go work, grant have to stay in childcare for 9, 10 hours yes work for money but then less time for baby infant care cost 800bucks a month excluding all the milk and diaper earn income just to cover this?? might as well stay at home and wait till he knows how to walk that will be easier and easy for me too but then, im going crazy at home feeling more depress and yesterday went to guilin for lunch and fen was there she keep asking me when to send ah den to spca and wee has decide to let den run on his own just like doggy rather than giving to spca and put to sleep the...

Today is grant 6th month and during his 5th month, he has learn to crawl though not really steady crawl but he can reach his destination very fast he is still using his body as a step to crawl and dont know how to use his hand to move he is learning too fast im getting so tired the more he learn the more im tired have to look after him more and need more energy eversince he came, i have no good rest at night lately is getting worse and i have no idea why he is waking up at night dont know is waking up or jus making sound feeding him at 2am and 6am is really tiring last month he can sleep all the way from 10pm to 6am but now, waking up every few hours maybe his gum is making feel irriating he has grown 1 little teeth and its coming out too fast last week i saw its only a little bit of white teeth in the gum and today i see is a big piece coming out real fast time flies and now he is 6th month my figure is coming back though not very fast needs to firm those loose skin on my tummy yucks!...

Suddenly i realise that i should have cherish baby wee more than ever i know its a torture for him to have tolerate my temper me being easily pek chek and sometimes talk too loud to him and show him temper sometimes when im really so tired he still do things that make me angry especially when im sleepy and tired hope still i must appreciate that i have him with me

Jordan has arrived on 01/09/2008 weighing 2.5kg and 47cm Pinky went for ceasaran in the morning as this is her 3rd time ceasaran, so Jordan has to come out on his 37weeks thats why he is so light and small but cute when i saw how small he is i dont have the courage to carry him seem so fragile and small now grant is so big and meat meat carrying jordan makes me nervous but then, when grant jus arrive i also carry him and aint nervous at all its just human nature

Grant is coming to 6th month and during his 5th month, he learns alot of things but then getting more naughty making my blood boils everyday i used to like changing diapers for him but now, i wish baby dun need to change diaper change a diaper makes me sweat and angry lay him flat and he keep tossing over and over again and again he jus wan to lay on his stomach makes me so pek chek me have no idea how to handle this situation give him toys works only for awhile less than 15 secs, he's back to devil its bad for me to beat his backside last night when i changed his diaper i was really angry and beat his backside abit hard he did stop, but for 3 secs and tossing back again damn! after awhile i saw red marks on his backside and i know i have beat him too hard heart pain for awhile but still angry wanna give up and cry haiz i wonder how long he is going to be like this im having phobia change diaper now

My body is getting more and more tired lack of exercise and housework makes me fat and lazy i used to do housework at teck whye with the 2 dogs, they keep me busy with their urine and shit now though im having a more comfortable life but i know i cant stay in comfort zone for long i need to break out from here its too early for me to be in comfort zone i have to work for money to buy many many things for grant and wee i really have to work for money when i get a job i have to take my job seriously but then, everytime its not me who aint serious but its im too fast for the slow pace job getting work done too fast and having too much free time but now, if i get a job, i can use my free time to play facebook hahhahahha

Doggy has been missing for months and all these while i miss him so much thinking of every morning he will sleep outside my room waiting for me to wake up while i go toilet he will lay on the floor to sun tan while waiting for me though he keep barking at neighbours whenever they pass by but i know we are safe i always shout at him to keep quiet and eversince he's gone, its really quiet not used to without him barking i dreamt of him when he went missing that week dreamt of him as a human chatting with me he seem happy and we are chatting like friend now i really miss him so much all these years i have been taking care of him and i know his health is detoriating he's old but he still can run with ah den as companion, he's very happy and easily jealous too when we touch ah den they used to play with each other everyday and running around in the house playing with the rug and ball on the floor having dinner together and sometimes quarreling over small snacks those are the tim...

Widia has a bf now and its 5 mths really happy to hear that she is attached now and i hope she can have happiness always