jus returned from hospital and wasnt feeling good after each visit
yesterday i saw him drop a tear and i jus thought that he is tired or mayb he yawn then got tears
but i was wrong
he is sad and not happy and thats why he cried
each time after we went home, he will be very sad and cried alone and even hit his hands cos his left side couldnt move alot
he seem to be angry at himself for gettin into this mess
he cried becos he scare he cant get well and becos my 2nd uncle didnt go and visit him
not didnt go.. but only once and didnt come again
god damn him.. i dunno why he didnt come and visit ah gong and i was very angry when i heard that their family didnt go visit him but still got time to go see fireworks
once suddenly all bad things come at the same time
once again i have to worry so many things
once again im going insane soon
i have withhold my tears in hospital and try very hard not to cry when i see ah gong
but i dunno how long i can tahan all these tears
the tears seem to be heavier as day goes by
haiz i dunno how to console ah gong cos my hokkien is super lousy and i have to think many times b4 i speak out
then pinky now going to give birth and cannot anyhow go out and she cant visit ah gong too
at least she can speak better than me
somemore ah gong always dun tell us what happen and everytime we ask him he will say fine
i really hope he can get well soon and get up and walk like last time
cos this time i dun really feel good
last 2 time i didnt think much and this time, mayb i have grown up and know what is going on around me
cannot dun think so much and i cant forever live in my own world
its time to give some concern to the people around me
yesterday i saw him drop a tear and i jus thought that he is tired or mayb he yawn then got tears
but i was wrong
he is sad and not happy and thats why he cried
each time after we went home, he will be very sad and cried alone and even hit his hands cos his left side couldnt move alot
he seem to be angry at himself for gettin into this mess
he cried becos he scare he cant get well and becos my 2nd uncle didnt go and visit him
not didnt go.. but only once and didnt come again
god damn him.. i dunno why he didnt come and visit ah gong and i was very angry when i heard that their family didnt go visit him but still got time to go see fireworks
once suddenly all bad things come at the same time
once again i have to worry so many things
once again im going insane soon
i have withhold my tears in hospital and try very hard not to cry when i see ah gong
but i dunno how long i can tahan all these tears
the tears seem to be heavier as day goes by
haiz i dunno how to console ah gong cos my hokkien is super lousy and i have to think many times b4 i speak out
then pinky now going to give birth and cannot anyhow go out and she cant visit ah gong too
at least she can speak better than me
somemore ah gong always dun tell us what happen and everytime we ask him he will say fine
i really hope he can get well soon and get up and walk like last time
cos this time i dun really feel good
last 2 time i didnt think much and this time, mayb i have grown up and know what is going on around me
cannot dun think so much and i cant forever live in my own world
its time to give some concern to the people around me
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