House or Home

Suddenly i realised that i dun have a home

all i have is a place to stay which call "house"

jus an empty house with no warmth

everything change when i move out when im 16

my life changed

people around me changed

i changed

they changed

everything is so much complicated than last time

i miss the times when we sister went down to play and always come reach home at 7pm to have dinner and watch tv

those were the days where happy times flies

never a day we find it boring

everyday trying to find something interesting things to do and run around and mix with others kids

even when there's nothing much to do we would find it exciting too

cos playing is all we want

so much things to play

now we have all grown up and everyone is busy with their own things and since we have all lived apart, there's not much time to be together like last time

but the bond is still there

jus that im alone at home and no one to make me happy and talk to me when im down

this house feel so cold

this house feel so empty

i dun have a happy family like others

all i have is a pile of shit of responsibilities with me

if i have long throw this responsibilities away i wont be having all this stress

now its too late to throw everything down

so what if i had enough of all this rubbish

i cant jus leave like that

i have no heart to throw jus like that

sometimes i wish that the problem could jus vanish away

and everyone can be happy

for now

im jus living in my zombie world