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Had a look at my previous blog and realised that so many things had happen in jus 8 months

started my 1st post on 25th Aug 2004 and ended on 30th March 2005

8 months of post are all about me & sheng da problems

many times i'm jus waiting for him at home and im like those mistress where the man can come only when he's free

the only things i can do is wait

wait for him to come look for me

wait for him to call me

wait for him to care me

wait for him think of me

wait for him to miss

everytime everything i jus have to wait

waiting has become a routine in my life

waiting has train my patience towards him

waiting has become a torture for me too

i am a impatient ger and the most i hate is to wait

waiting makes me crazy

waiting makes me boring

waiting makes me angry

waiting makes me lose my sense

most of the time i only get to see once a week and that once is only 2hours

2 hours a week to get to see him

is this call together or jus friend friend only

not that he's busy working or busy at army

but he's tired to meet me

i know he's tired after driving in camp and tired after whole day in army

all this i can understand

but i dun think he did ever try to understand how i felt at home waiting for him and the feeling of waiting and waiting has become a disappointment for me when i cant get to see him

high hopes become high disappointment

but that time i'm really grateful that i still have my 3 good friends

June, Kitty & Tortoise

these 3 friends are there for me when im down

they always meet me for dinner after work and we always meet up twice or once a week without fail

they know that im a ger who have a bf who are always busy to company me and therefore they are always there for me whenever they can

Thanks alot my good friend

Comments

sassyjan said…
oh boy.. i just saw this... *hugz*
i noe how u feel.. i've been in a 'relationship' that i'm very uncertain of too... after seeing each other for over a year, we've transcended to meeting as little as once a month or so.

waiting has became so painful that i've many times just wanted to piick myself up and move on. but being the 小女人 that i am, i've convinced myself to silently wait for that day that my wait would finally reap a return, and we'll be together 'happily ever after'.

to him, career and his diving passion is first place. 'Give me a year.. maybe more...' is all he would say. and so i wait...

waiting makes me cry...
Sunday, June 11, 2006 6:02:00 PM
慧灵 said…
thats the past and no point thinking so much abt it

now im happy and i dun wait anymore

waiting makes me crazy and i really hate to wait

u might have the vision of getting ur happiness in the end when u have finally wait for him but for me

i have not much patience for this kind of guys who only say and no action taken to show that he love me

anyone can say anythin but asking them to get it done is like asking them to die

now i have place low hopes on promises so that i wont have much disappointment

hope u can find ur right guy asap

dun be afraid to get into another relations cos the more u scare, the more u felt lonely
Monday, June 12, 2006 12:22:00 PM
sassyjan said…
i guess it's that 'warpped security' feeling which makes me hold on. dun wan to get out into the open again. the pain of leaving a relationship is so scary. :((
Monday, June 12, 2006 1:58:00 PM
慧灵 said…
hmm dun get so negative towards relationship

things will get better when time goes by
Monday, June 12, 2006 5:50:00 PM
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