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Is your life changed due to someone or some circumstances?

Have you ever changed someone life drastically?

I was day-dreaming one day and I suddenly think of Pillow

I was thinking of what he was saying after we have break off

He said " what i've become now is all becos of you!"

he become very shagged, very bad-tempered, more depress than ever, seem like alot of things to say but he know somethings are not meant to be said with his position

That time I was thinking

ME?? ARE YOU SURE I CAN CHANGE YOUR LIFE TO SUCH A DEPRESSED SITUATION??

I was being rebellious when Im with him cos I cant understand why can he be so emotional towards me and towards himself

i cant understand him when he keep thinking that I have been hurting him when I said i wanna a break off

ok mayb i have really hurted him when i wanna break off

but the problem is me being too self-centered and he being too dependent on me

i do not disagree to "report" to him when there's a need but even when i went out pinky he will keep callin me and asking me where am i and what time going home

well its really irritating to keep receiving such calls and havin to report every now and then

i really cant understand all these though I know its wrong to be so irresponsible to jus ditch someone who really care and love me

till now i still cant understand why he is being so hard on himself and being so negative

isnt keeping positive a good way to live? why must he downgrade himself to all these troubles?

why must he always let me worry abt him? Is it a way for me to get back to him?

well i know very well we cant be like last time even when we recuperate

its really impossible to have no memories of all the things i've done and words i said to hurt him

after 3 years, he still hate me for leaving him

after 3 years, he is still the depress one

after 3 years, he still blame me for hurting him

after 3 years, i have finally persuade myself that leaving him isnt my fault at all and i dun need to give him an answer to his hurted

after 3 years, i have realised that i shld not accept any relationship in such a fast pace

after 3 years, i really finally know that once a relation has start, its never a easy task to end!

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