March 2020, when Covid19 is at the peak, Singapore is getting ready to start stay at home work and education. Thats when the children are kept at home for 2 whole months. Other than online class, they have nothing to do but electronic entertainment.
When the day goes by, increasing of online game hours and to make it worse, playing killing games makes one mind confuse and all his emotional inner problem all come out. He starts to isolate himself, angry with everyone, not eating and drinking well.
When school starts in June, he told his friend he wanted to run away from home. He told his friend he will kill them and jump off the building. Teachers were worried and call us in to talk about him.
We send him to IMH A&E and he stayed for 1 night observation. That's when he saw the other girl cut her wrist and from there, he start to use small scissors to make scratch marks on his wrist. I blame myself to send him there instead of going to private psychologist.
*As of 7 Nov 2020, weeks after PSLE, Grant is getting better but still going through rebellious stage. Not so drastic but small things like talking back and playing online game with friends and trying to learn how to scold.
After the incident, I realised I'm at fault too for putting my anger with Wei on him cos grant is always so close with wei and I'm jealous of that. All these years I'm the one to look after him and bring him out whenever I can but in the end he choose wei.
I overlooked my tone of voice when talking to grant and this year with the circuit breaker, things get worse. I didnt understand the agony of being at home for 2 months while I can go work during circuit breaker. I should be more understanding towards the kids feeling instead of mine.
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