Love . Trust . Appreciate .

My babies are growing up fast..grant is getting taller than me with the teenage stage in transition, there are times when I questions myself am I a bad mother? Why does he hates me? What have I done wrong? Why are you treating me this way?  I know its part of this puberty and having to balance the hormones and minds are what most of the adults are coping. What's more a teenager. I just want him to be safe and sound and healthy.  Grace is going into primary 2 next year and so far she is still taking it well. I hope she met good teacher all the way and study hard. 

Happy birthday Hippo 🥰 all I wish for you is to be healthy and happy. 

Finally 6 years of primary school ended yesterday. Its been tough on Grant as he does not enjoy the school life during the last 2 years. Overwhelming with the studies and this year becoming worse due to 2 months circuit breaker.  All I wish for him is to stay healthy and safe. Physically and mentally healthy.  He is transitioning into his teenage life and I know it will be hard for him. Having to deal with the stress at school and with the divorce of me and wei, I hope he pass through this patch. I love my babies 💗 

21 Oct 2020 The once in a blue moon meet up. Classmate from 1999 and been in contact til now. Wow didnt realised its been 21 years.  I always cherish my friends but as now I'm staying at Punggol which is 30mins drive to the west side, we can't meet up so often and also due to each of our busy life with work and family. Its rare of us to meet up and there's so many things to talk about. Though we seldom chat much in the group too, when we met we can talk about almost anything.  Now as we become older, we are fine with no talking while eating too. Not so talkative like last time with all the trash talk or lame story. But we still enjoy each other companion. Telling jokes and sad stuff about our lifes. That what friends are for. 

Year 2020 is a bad year for everyone. With natural disaster and Covid19 still going on, people are suffering. March 2020, when Covid19 is at the peak, Singapore is getting ready to start stay at home work and education.  Thats when the children are kept at home for 2 whole months. Other than online class, they have nothing to do but electronic entertainment.  When the day goes by, increasing of online game hours and to make it worse, playing killing games makes one mind confuse and all his emotional inner problem all come out. He starts to isolate himself, angry with everyone, not eating and drinking well.  When school starts in June, he told his friend he wanted to run away from home. He told his friend he will kill them and jump off the building. Teachers were worried and call us in to talk about him. We send him to IMH A&E and he stayed for 1 night observation. That's when he saw the other girl cut her wrist and from there, he start to use small scissor...

7 Nov 2020, 9am. Ah boy solemnisation and we viewed it online thru zoom. Its an emotional sharing as I miss er gu whom is ah boy mum. Its been 7 years since er gu has passed on. I wasn't able to go her funeral as I was in confinement for grace birth.  Before she passed on, every year we go her house she was always so happy to see us. Buying us food and giving us pocket money. I miss her alot.  I know she will be very happy in heaven when she saw ab boy happily married. As a mother, all I wish is for my kids to be happy and safe and I understand how unbearable to let go when its time to go.  Wishing ah boy have a blessed marriage and overcome all the obstacles that is to come in marriage. xoxo Ling