Love . Trust . Appreciate .

I have breastfed Grace for 11 months and that's a record for me. Last time Grant only breastfed for 6 months but he is also getting stronger now except for sensitive nose. I hope Grace can be strong in her infant centre cos she start going to the centre when she is 2 months old. Poor girl. Cant enjoy much at home with me.

Sometimes, not sometimes, is all the time, music plays a very important part on my mood. Song which can affect my mood while listening reminds me of the things I have done when I heard the song.   Song I heard during my secondary school times, dating times, first love, ex’s bf memories, girls time, beach time, travelling time, party time and until now I still have song which makes me think of the present. Music can be a therapy or wake up memories to me. Sometimes I heard song that I and wee sing last time and think of the time when we first met during the 1 st year. Those were the days when we are happy. The first half year was wonderful. We both like to travel and play and love freedom. When we have our kids, things start to change. We felt tied and everything just comes. Something is binding us tightly which makes us hard to breathe. No money to go travel and everything is about money. Kids, house, daily meal. I cant get confirm on my job as I was pregnant with...

From last year October, my love ones has passed away one by one.  First its er gu who has passed during my confinement and I was not able to attend the wake and see her last time. She had cancer and had many treatment over the years but this time, the chemo is really killing her. She has become really thin and last year I didn’t visit her too.  This year March, ah gong passed away due to lung infection and we are not able to see him last time before he leave. He has passed away on my birthday when I wanted to visit him on the day but in the morning received a message from mum and he is gone. Eversince I gave birth, I have not visit him in the home and really feel guilty about it. Many times wanted to go visit him but none was successful. Today JB mum passed away. She has been suffering for months and this really ends her suffering. Hope she find peace afterlife. Though we only met for few times but I still will feel sad about her leaving. The times we had in her ...

I have been into korean drama since i was pregnant with grace. Not that insanely following the latest show and i only watch those which are finished screening becos i dont want to wait. Watch as and when i like without waiting. From the korean show i have get to know some pretty and handsome artist. Dont care whether they had surgery anot. Here are a few that i like: Lee Min Ho Jun Ji-hyun Kim Soo-hyun Yoo Ah-in Shin Se-kyung Lee Yeon-hee Korea is now famous for their plastic surgery and some of the artist looks quite alike.

All along i have like this celebrity Hillary Duff. Didnt know her name until yesterday when i saw a post regarding "10 celebs that landed on Amanda Bynes ugly list" . How is she ugly? I dont understand what is Amanda Bynes ugly standard. Hillary Duff has a long list of profile and now is an entrepreneur and still doing filming.  Wiki her and you can see what she has done over the years and she is only 27 years old and a mother now. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hilary_Duff She's pretty, talented, have good opportunities. Not many woman can have this kind of achievements.

算命，算命。 到底要怎么算？ 据说 ，命是 先天的， 运是 后天的。 命不能改，可是运可以变。 做多好事，说好话。

After so long, things start to settle down. Routine work and time for me and Grace. Every morning bring her to school and go work is a very tiring process. I have to carry her in a carrier and take bus to her school though its 4 bus stop away but with all the big bags for me and her is a hassle. After 6mths of breastfeeding i can stop bringing the pump to work and bringing her to school will be load easy. Though i hope i can breastfeed as long as i can but the amount of workload in office is getting more. My milk supply is getting lesser. She is in her 4th mths and coming to 5th mths in 2 weeks. I have to endure all the tiredness from waking up every morning at 5am and pumping milk in the middle of night. no straight sleep at night and everyday at work is a torture. PUmping out milk is like having a war. After the war, whole body aches and tired. Other than that, im hungry and thirsty too. Its a cycle every 4hrs. Endure for the sake of healthy grace.