She don't have a happy family like I have and her jealousy and imbalance has made her doing things to make me lose my temper making me looks like the angry wife over here where i will throw my temper on my husband so that he can get comfort from her. I'm not interested in fighting with her and all i want is a simple life.
Simple life doesn't mean boring life. If she wants some exciting life from our life, she is making a big mistake. It means she is such a failure in her life.
July was not worst month of the year but many things happened.
1st it was my face which has become suddenly allergy to unknown and though its recovering but its still not the face condition i wanted. I wanted those translucent like egg shell with no blemish or anything. But guess i have to wait till my face recover.
2nd it was my Mense. Missed for 15 days and during which i had 4 pregnancy test done and show negative. When mense missed and not getting pregnant, it means something more serious. Unknown illness which might be the worst case; Cancer. I hope nothing serious with my ovaries or womb. And i have to cut smoking for the sake of my face. Maybe I'm allergy to cigarettes and that's good. i can save money too.
3rd my "Teacher" from Norway came and giving me & RT a 2 weeks training and had extend to 3 weeks due to unfinished work that need to be done. Maybe I'm stress about her coming here and having to take care of her while she is here.
4th is about my job title. I was a QA Executive but now I'm a QA/HSE Coordinator which I'm having the same title as RT where she has just pass her probation. We are having the same title as my teacher and though i feel a little unfair and having to be demoted to be same as RT, but so long my salary stays the same, i have no problem with the title. Still money is the most important. Job is just a job even though i would like it very much as my career but then this kind of management isn't going to be the one i would like to stay long. I don't feel safe and always having the thoughts that they might ask me leave just because they don't like me. I have a good manager but if management wants me to go, my manager has no power to make me stay. He isn't the first manager that has no power.
5th is we have sold our car. Wee is downgrading his status as crane operator and getting light duty from doctor, therefore he has no more incentive and allowance on top of his basic pay. Without extra income, our car has become more burden for us. We are so used to having car around and without it, he cant send me to work and fetch me from work. I am not able to use it during weekend where i can bring Grant to anywhere we want. We have to take bus and MRT which it is sometimes difficult for me to bring Grant along as he is always moving up and down in public transport.
I hope August can be a better month.
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