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I really feel like giving up my studies and work for money. I have a good husband who can earn money and at the same time spending money like water. I wonder how long i can endure all these. Fortune teller told me not to quarrel about money but i really hate to have all these worries every month. Months after months, hoping he can learn how to manage his financial but then it's still the same. That's why everyone wants to marry a rich guy. What a wise choice.

Today is a busy day for everyone especially baby wee. Last night he work from 11pm till this morning 730am and came to rest awhile only and have to send his parents to Johor. After he come back, we are going to fetch zhenny and aunty nancy to ah yi house for her house warming. Then in the evening, he has to go airport fetch JB to ah yi house and it's a coincidence that we are celebrating house warming and his coming back. For now, I'm going to bath and prepare to go out once baby wee come home.

Last night watch Marley and I and cried until my eyes swollen like ping pong ball. I miss doggy even more after this show. The time where we have spend together and before Grant came, I still care about him and hug him but eversince I'm pregnant, my mood swing came and due to tiredness, I hardly had time to care him. When Ah den came, he become so jealous and it's like no one care about him. But I still love him even though Ah den came. I have been with Doggy for 5 years and last year, he went missing or maybe being carried away by the neighbours. I can't go ask him back because I dont have the energy and patient to take care of him. I really felt that I've mis-treat him. He used to sleep in my room and on my bed corner where he curls up and sleep. Sometimes I forgot to let him out of my room and when I came home, he has pee on my bed making more even more angry. Tired from work and coming home to change bedsheet. That's annoying but now, he's gone. Hope he has ...

I am msn-ing to my cousin, Zi Kai, who is only pri 3 and he used to be a very naughty boy where he talks rude and shout at us. We used to dislike him because he is really no manners and our family cant stand naughty children. Maybe thats why our children are naughty too. Now they have all grown up and the eldest sister, Xiang Ying, who has just went to US for further studies and she is only 16 years old. They are lucky and fortunate to have the good God-Parents whom take care of them since young. Providing everything they need and even school fees included. How I wish to have someone sponsor me for studies when I was young. Concentrating all on studies and not having to give up where financial is a problem. And now, I would not have to study O level at this age though age is not a problem in studying. Just now i ask him where is his another sister, Xiang Ting. She has went out to play basketball and haven went home. It's going to 9pm and she's still outside. During my time, at ...

Yesterday went in JB and everything was fine. Did not meet anyone i don't like nor hate. Went into Jusco to shop but then everything is expensive than Singapore. Wanted to buy clothes but the style is just not right. When style suits, price doesn't. What a chore to shop for clothes in JB. Anyway after shopping, we went to have dinner at a seafood restaurant which is quite far from the city and about 30mins drive from Jusco, we arrived at the kelong restaurant. We have around 4 cars going together and total 11 person and 2 babies. Wasnt really full and food wasnt that good either. But then, its just a dinner. I didnt seem to have done anything in JB and I felt so tired going for just 5hours. Shopping eating passed so fast and its like a waste of time that i didnt bought anything. Next time I should have go KL to shop but it's a long and tiring journey to go over shopping and somemore the style isnt like Singapore. I still prefer Cottonon. Cheap and nice.

Just now i read the i weekly astrology and its so damn true The book said Monday I'll will have mood swing and something will make me more upset and its true when i return back i am angry when i saw the boy. Not saying that seeing him makes me angry but he keep doing things that makes me angry. I was so pek chek yesterday and didn't went for the class but lucky i didn't go because was cancelled. 2 nd point of the book indicates that Wednesday I'll meet someone i don't like and tomorrow is not a good day for me. Sian ! I'm going to JB tomorrow and I'll meet someone i don't like. Who's the one?? Tomorrow i shall see! Hopefully this point is not accurate because i don't want to get angry with anymore. Another point said is the Rooster forecast: Will spend alot of money that I think it's worth the price but there's villain speaking sarcastic about the thing i bought. Damn good! Another point to spoilt my day of shopping. Well this point...

All these year, I'm feeling guilty towards pillow because i felt that I've let him down not because i dump him but because i left him when he need me the most. After the last meet up, he seems to hate me more than ever just because he want me to trust him that there's nothing between him and fanny. But i know very clear that he had slept with her and that doesn't matter to me anymore because i just hope he can find someone to take care of him while he is sick. Maybe he still hate me for leaving him and every time he saw me he don't want to smile at me though we've not meet for years. As long he's still in Singapore and doing fine, I'm glad. All i wish for him is good health and happiness.

Yeah finally i can post thru my mobile now though its alot slower than my super pc but when one is lazy to even log on to pc wi-fi is alot easier i can even lay down to blog now thanks to my new mobile phone - LG Renoir

Dont forget I'm a mother too now Now I know that the post of "Mother" isnt a good job but then it's the most achieving thing that I've ever done knowing that how terrible mum has been for the past 20yrs to brought us up with the limited financial and things she has to go thru we are at least more fortunate than her times and now only 1 child makes us crazy... imagine she has to take care 4 of us we are really fortunate to have da fei yi to tale care of us when mum is working so she's like a mother to us too and we have to respect her just like mum now it's my turn to "suffer" for another 20yrs or more

I seem to have mental block when i logged into blogger i wanted to post something but then i cant remember what i wanted am i getting old enough to forget what i actually wanted to post or am i just getting lazy to think what i should have remembered

Cant find what i wanted for the blog skin all the skins looks dull or childish nothing suits my style why is it so hard to get something i like??