Love . Trust . Appreciate .

I miss looking out of the window enjoying the scenery though nothing is interesting looking at clouds and sometimes even raining days this window has gone thru thick and thin with me for a long time a window to calming

I'm always dreaming, day or night but i have a dream to fullfill and that is to be a wedding planner though its a tedious job with lots of coordination, but the satisfactory is high seeing couple happily married and celebrate with their family & friends its a happy occassion and everyone is happy for them i be the wedding planner and pinky open a bridal salon and zhenny be the host and fenny be the sales hahahaa thats just a dream i hope to study the event management next year and i can go into events job soon

We went for sheng da bbq on sun and to be honest, i didnt eat much except the bee hoon and curry the bbq food was delay due to the wet charcoal cos it rained that noon by the time i left, i was still hungry but not very cos i was more tired than hungry taking care of grant alone makes me tired but lucky got june to be around and carry him for me im happy to see all my old friends there and its like back to last time where we used to hang around together

Woohoo for the past whole week, i was home along again no one at home and i can have a quiet week at home with grant and wee but then, they will be back this thur or sat doesnt matter if in-laws come back but i really cant stand the boy cos its holiday now and he will everyday make noise at home wish he can go back to sch soon

Last night read about new of Baby P who is a baby in UK and a saddist has abuse him to death Baby P was just a 17mth old baby and he has suffer since he was 2mths he did not have a peaceful life till the day he died this saddist mother bf, beat and punch the baby almost everyday and his face is full of bruise i cant understand why his mother is also cold blooded to see his son suffer in silence and she also join in the fun to abuse Baby P being abuse is already a sad thing just before he died, his spinal was being broken by the mother bf and he left him to cry for hrs in his cot scattered with blood he must have really suffer alot how a baby going to endure all the pain and with his ribcage broken now he has finally rest and end all this suffering i hope he will have a better life if there's recarnation

For more than a year, i have not wear my mini skirt i like to wear jeans but due to my figure now i can only wear shorts with flarr shirt to wear a jeans with shirt is very ugly for gers thats why i dun wear jeans with t-shirt i prefer to wear with spagatti strap but my tummy doesnt allow recently i sign up Amore fitness with pinky and we always go dancing i will go more often to lose all my fats DANCE DANCE DANCE DANCE AWAY ALL MY FATS!!

about my resume i felt so guility i shouldnt have cheated on my resume i know im wrong i know im a bad liar haiz.............

9 Nov, we have booked a place at Teck whye Blk 9 to set up our business where they organise a flea market on a Sunday morn early morning i went to fetch pinky from serangoon to teck whye and to make things more inconvenient, it rained i was bringing grant along cos morning no one to take care of him and pinky brings jowell cos he woke up the earliest having to bring the clothes to the place and with baby along, it really isnt that easy, somemore with no shelter from carpark to the block but luckily, ah yi is at home and she helps me to look after grant and jowell too while we were setting up, we smell a very smelly smell and we thought why the rubbish chute is so smelly our space is at the corner whereas the rubbish chute is at the middle i was so tired and sleepy having to wake up early and with grant waking me up at night, i was terribly tired the moment i reach, i wanted to leave so much dirty place with the smelly smell really makes me sick so business starts people w...

Last 2 weeks, i brought grant to er jie girls guide campfire at camp christine at lim chu kang and its the 1st time i went for campfire i rem that i dont have campfire during my sch times cos im from military band and all we have is overnight in school with not much activities except at night where we have to share our feelings and i always have nothing to say cos im not so emotional i can only rem, they cried while sharing i dont understand why they cried cos i dont even rem what they said all i know is my sec sch life wasted till my last year in sch where i meet new classmate and friends thats the only year i enjoy

Finally! After struggling for 7 months, im down with cough and body ache months of sleep deprivation makes me sick and tired just after that campfire from er jie sch, the next day im coughing and almost lost my voice now my voice is so husky and rough alot of phlegm now and at night is getting worse keep coughing and i cant sleep well i wonder how long i have to suffer this cough i dont dare to take cough medicine cos it will makes me sleepy and i wont be able to hear grant if he wakes up at night so now the only way is for me to cut down my diet on coke and heaty food i cant drink coke now and its a torture for me whole bottle of coke in the fridge i think by the time i recover, i will have to buy another bottle

Dont know what to say im just so tired

Sometimes i feel that im better off to be a single mother most of the time im alone with grant and im taking care of him alone wee is always working and sleeping i know he is tired after work and the time he spend with grant and me so much lesser after deducting his sleeping time maybe thats what working life is most of the marriage life fails because couple dont understand each other situation and didnt communication well someone ought to speak out rather than waiting for each other to say before time makes this marriage fails Maybe i have phobia in marriage and didnt really plan well we should have our own house before having a baby not say living with in law is bad but everyone has different habits years accumulate of bad & good habits are hard to accept by others sometimes i find it hard to live with wee cos of his habits too different background and brought up really needs to give and take i hope this part of my life can passby asap