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Finally after so many years, i decided to go on diet cos im getting fatter these 2 years i wan my figure back i wan to go back 5 years ago i wan to have a weight of 50kg i wan to have a waist of 27cm I WANT TO SLIM DOWN IN 2 MONTHS TIME!!! ~ i hope i can make it ~ so today make a salad dinner plus the afternoon porridge this china cabbage isnt very good eat when its raw.. so i boil it and still doesnt taste very nice total i got 5 kinds of veges China cabbage, Potatoe, Tomatoe, Carrot & Celery i added some italian sauce and vinegar to make it more tasty but when i wanted to dip some vinegar, didnt notice the hole is big and a big spoonful come out, making my salad "abit" sour lucky i like to eat vinegar, if not have to wash the salad and it will become no taste i dunno if its healthy to eat this way but im sure no fats intake today... erm maybe abit bah cos i eat a small piece of the "lu rou" which i cooked for wee they all today i mark the day of the slimming d...

Yesterday noon while editing some photos and saw the clouds very nice and looks like marshmallow from my window, the view is so small cos my window is damn bloody small i hate small window looks like im in jail looking out of the window for freedom though the clouds is not as beautiful as Redang, but still i like clouds porky pig has come back and has da bao his lunch from downstair he wans me to take his flowers cos it has bloom again and new bud are growing too

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While reading thru Travis blog, he was saying about starting a family and all the pros and cons ahead Giving birth to kids are much easier than to keep them alive 生 你 十 个 月， 养 你 几 十 年 how long are the parents going to work for the money? Parents start working from 21 years old and work till the retirement age of 55 and thats 34 years of working how much money are they going to "invest" into their kids? maybe not 1 kid but 2 or 3 kids in the family OMG thats a huge amount to be earn for this family with the current Spore economics well someone ppl might said that no matter how difficult the life is, time will pass soon and when kids grow up, parents can relax abit (abit only) nowadays in this society, kids dun really give money to their parents when they have start earning money and all their money all gone to their entertainment anyway, thoughts of having kids still need a long financial planning

Last night went to IMM to stock up the house essentials but when i reach there its 10pm and they close at 11pm somemore baby will only reach there at 1115pm so we both walk inside Giant and went to find pillow cos he working at the butcher department and they off at 11pm before strolling inside Giant, we bought some light snacks and eat cos she haven had her dinner after all the eating and shopping, we waited at the taxi stand for baby to come and while waiting, i took some photos of june cos eversince IMM change the front image, haven had any chance to take photos ~ ghost!!! ~ hahahaha no la... cos after walking out of IMM the camera still abit cold and therefore there are some evaporation in it when baby reached, we went to opp Hong Kah CC to eat the indian rojak and some dim sum

Before leaving for redang, i was clearing my tables and saw my duck & pig sitting on the chair looking so boring so i let them play abit before i leave these 2 duck & pig has been with me for many years and finally they have a chance to woohoo

What a short trip i have during these 5 days the time seem to "FLY" pass so quickly like a shooting star anyway today not going to write about this redang trip as im still editing those photos and while im editing, i seem to be floating on my chair im still in the sea with the waves swaying me here and there making me "abit" giddy therefore await my photos to be post up soon and most important wait for my juicy story about this trip hahhahhaahhaha

Finally its time to leave for Redang i seem to have wait for this day a long time and now the countdown ends its been a year since i went to redang with a big group of friends and i hope this time we have lots of fun in the sea planning some activities but its seems like the more time i went, the less things i wanna do jus wan to relax and doing nothing and i know its really selfish of me to have this thoughts dun worry, i will try my very best to let all of them to have more fun

These few days doggy has difficulties in breathing and i dunno whats happening to him he seem to have asthma but its not its like something chock inside his throat and i dunno what to do but this happen only once awhile in a day i fear for his death but maybe death is a release for him i will miss him if he leave me

This word "Betrayed" was asked by my cousin she is studying in sec sch and 1st time she know what is the meaning of betrayed she has a good ger friend and this ger would everytime say bad things about another ger and now she start to bad mouth my cousin and now everyone shun away from her therefore during recess time, no one wants to go with her its really very ke lian not to have any friends to go recess with i remember that one day during my "N" level, my good friends serene, widia & lay peng has start to leave me alone and dun really feel like talking to me though they never say but i can feel it when we go for recess they like never talk to me and im very sensitive to this cos its my 6th sense i was so sad and keep thinking that they dun wan me as a friend anymore and cried during recess time till now, i still dunno wats the reason that they have drift away from me i think the reason is that they thought after i have a bf and i have changed they felt that i ...

Had jus MSN with a long time friend, Ah foong and we have chatted alot about the past but most important thing we have chatted is my 2nd boy-friend, Pillow I got a shocking news from him and he told me that he might have cancer that time pillow dun allow him to tell me and till now, 5 years later, he told me this maybe pillow doesnt want anyone to know about his condition and due to the expensive medicine in spore, he didnt went for any check up cos that time we have no money i wasnt very happy when i heard this cos i felt that he can be more happier last time and the way he changed is becos he knew he has cancer and thats why he has keep me so tight i felt that he has become very possessive towards me and the thought of running away came to me that time i was only 21 and how far can i think? i only know whats infront of me and dunno whats behind them i felt that i must have hurted him very much last time but it has all past nothing to regret and maybe treat him better only pray for hi...

Last month went to baby wai po house at AMK and had also went to his friend house outside cos when we reached there, his friend is bathing and we have waited a long time and decided to return to wai po house cos its jus upstair anyway this is the view from his friend house outside the house, discover a very big pot of plants i dunno what name is this plant but find it very interesting cos i hardly see anyone house have this pot of water plant as its not very good to have a big pot of water outside cos the environment people will come and summon you if they found any mosquitoes inside but this is a very nice pot and i like the color combination

Today is baby off day and we accompany his mum to buy a washing machine but 1st we went to see what brand we want and what is the model no. after searching for what we want, we went to This shop sell cheaper than other places (for electrical appliances only) they even have a service to help you move those bulky appliances like washing machine, fridge, TV baby have been buying things from her for the past 10 years and this show that this shop does really has a good bargain if you need any electrical appliances, try them! after buying, we send baby mum home and went to visit zhenny & my mum when we reach there, chelsie is still sleeping and everytime i went, she is always sleeping suppose to play mahjong but short of 1 "leg" cos june has to go religious class as its chu yi so after visiting, went home to watch vcd and sleep cos baby only slept for 2hrs

This song is in Cantonese and therefore the way it is sang is very different You can listen to the song on the right hand column provided by Imeem

Just now zhenny & fenny came back for dinner and chelsie keep crying we dunno what she wants and maybe its really too hot for her no matter how we held her, she can only sleep awhile and wake up crying understanding baby is really hard dunno what she really wants and see her keep crying makes me gan cheong too cos she cried until very ke lian but hope zhenny can moved back here cos dad can see chelsie everyday and he feel happy too

Today having a mini buffet for Chelsie as her celebration of full month is on the 20th and thats next friday when i go overseas at night we decided to held it earlier as old rules stated that celebration cannot be belated but can be in advance we order a vegetarian buffet for our relatives as most of them are vegetarian and we order from Yuan Xin their food not bad and quite tasty this buffet only invites my dad relatives as mum side will be held when JB come back the uncles & aunties are so happy when they see chelsie so cute and beautiful gave her ang bao & dad gave her a gold braclet everyone wants to hug her but she keep sleeping and maybe its too hot for her and she keep crying too zhenny said she has a sickness called "dunno wat" everyday in a certain time, she would cry for no reason and thats like a routine for her but there's no cure for this sickness and all we need is patience for her if not she keep crying and no one cares her anyway Chelsie, hope yo...

Though today is Friday the 13th, but still i wanna go out cos nothing supersitious about this day baby after work went to fetch ah ger from sch and as pinky is at home, we went up to visit her cos her oven plug has break down and might get electric shock so baby went to buy 2 fuse and changed but nothing wrong with the fuse and everything is working fine so laze around and pinky ordered KFC for our dinner cos ah yi is not coming back as she has company dinner so play around with ah ger & jovin jovin has grown so big size and he can sit on his own now thats really goood seeing baby grown up so fast which means we are getting older too ah ger with the handmade ice-cream ah sing bought her this when he got his 1st pay this is the ice-cream this is ah ger wallet full of coins baby & jovin see how tired baby is cos he work morn and have to get up at 530am

This incident happened the day before Usually i will feed the dog at around 6+ and i will mix the rice with their biscuit for their dinner as usual, they both are waiting and while waiting, suddenly the 2 of them fight and gave me a fright i was so angry and beat them for fighting beat until my finger almost blue & black usually i would not beat but they have fight at a wrong time and they have a taste of the pain for fighting

Almost everyone said Friday the 13th is an unlucky day with all the bad things happen to you and causing many troubles but even if this day haven come, all the bad things had already happened to me i only believe that, if things are going to happen, nothing can stop it coming even if someone can predict something gonna happen, but still something will happen life is always unpredictable and thats what it makes the world so challenging anyway wish all of u barred from all the bad lucks and may you all have a smooth day ahead

Today went to visit zhenny & chelsie in the noon and chelsie was sleeping soundly when we reached soon after she woke up, mum bath for her and she keep crying until everything is finished she is very scare of bathing and cry until so ke lian so after dressing her up, its feeding time and she really stop crying before we leave, it was raining very heavy and we proceed to hougang reached hougang and wasnt that heavy rain but feeling very sleepy starting to get headache but still bearable suppose to meet xiao liang but he said he will come hougang and find us he came to find us but my headache is getting worse and cant go la kopi with him this is Dexter, baby nephew

Last night while fetching baby from work, June & me listened to Yes 933 Mary session on the way Mary said “人 的 一 生， 如 分 两 段， 那 第 一 段 是 勇 敢 的 去， 第 二 段 是 不 后 悔 。” (this isnt said by Mary) 人 往 往 会 活 在 记 忆 中， 因 为 人 会 后 悔 为 何 当 初 没 勇 气 去 做 自 己 想 要 做 的 事 Of cos saying is easier than making things happen in most cases everyone would want to do something which they always wanted but due to some circumstances, they have no other choice but to fulfil their responsibilities People have so many wishes and dreams, but which one are their realistic and achievable dreams? Do they really want to pursue their dreams?

Dinner time went to Bt Timah Market with June and ate the Hokkien Mee at sheng da dad stall sheng da was there serving and we also order others like "Wu Xiang" & satay which we all haven eat for a long time last time we used to eat every now and then with our friends but as time goes, everyone seem to be more busier than before time is really a killer in friendship anyway, the hokkien mee was cooked by a new cook and it was very delicious which wasnt that salty and taste better than ever sheng da stall is at Bukit Timah Market #02-201 (facing the main road) dinner was nice and after eating i was damn sleepy and getting tired i still have to go fetch baby at 1030 thats why we leave the market at 10am is still early wanted to go home rest and come out but rest awhile then come out liao so might as well stay out

Just finish watching this show 六 楼 后 座 - 6th floor rear flat Story about 6 youngster living together and doing things they like and enjoying life when they are young this movie make me realised that youth is not to be wasted and doing something while we are young some people work hard for money while they are young and neglect their love one and had missed out so much fun life is about enjoying work hard for the sake of fun moments in life work hard for money and play even harder when there's a chance sometimes people dun realised that they have missed out something in their life and only when things happened then they wake up to find that they have regret what is gone forever everyone will go thru a phase of happy and daring period do what they want to do and no regrets together with no consequences I, do have a time like them too and i know, its over now those period were human golden time in life, they can do what they wantregardless of right or wrong so long one is happy, anyth...

Evil words pierce thru my ears Ears lead the words to my brain Brain transmit words to my mind Minds command tears to flow Tears begin to flow like waterfall A never ending waterfall

I felt that every year something big will happen to me that change my life i really hate changes and i really hate myself everyday i have been trying to escape reality but somehow nothing seems to work i had enough of all the rubbish and from now on I WILL NOT STEP INTO YOUR LINE AND PLEASE DO NOT STEP INTO MY LINE TOO since that's what u wanted then fine! i will give u what u want dont blame me for anything thats going to happen in future MY ONLY WISH IS THAT I CAN DIE NOW IF POSSIBLE LET ME VANISH FROM THIS WORLD FOREVER I DO NOT WISH TO REBORN I HATE BEING ALIVE

Sometimes people say "better to believe than to take the chance" I truly understand what the fortune teller told me 2 years ago but now its too late and i have messed up everything though things can be amended but its hard why do i always so rebellious and take things for granted? or do i have to listen to those teller regards my life?

I'll remember what you have asked me to remember "REMEMBER HOW YOU HAVE ASKED ME TODAY!"

This morn went to pray with dad, fen & baby at LCK cemetry and the 1st stop we went is to pray dad grandparents who is my great grandparents they have moved to the "Condo" at LCK and its more easier to locate them 2nd stop we moved to my ah peh 1st wife tombstone and its nearby the "condo" my ah peh 1st wife died in her early 20s and people said she is a beautiful lady when we wanted to keep the offerings, we ask for permission to keep and its always negative cos we haven prayed my ah ma & ah gong we should pray our elders before praying junior so we moved to ah gong tombstone before going to ah ma the old tombstone has been so crowded and i have to step on the tombstone to move on i keep saying sorry cos its not good to step on other people tombstone but i got no choice after praying ah gong & ah ma, we wanted to pray to my 2nd uncle whom had died early too and when we reach his tomb, the rain started it rained very heavy and everyone was wet from head ...

After Qing Ming, we went up to ah gong house for awhile and decide where to go after lunch after all the waiting, discussion, chatting, gossiping and finally we have reach a decision we decide to go to Lim Chu Kang for to explore (again) yup! we have went to LCK many times and we miss LCK cos we all used to live there when we were young we wanted to go Bolly Wo od for lunch but when we reach there, start to rain heavy and we wanted a place to eat but its all fully booked haiz what a great disappointment cos we jus want a place to rest and eat well since no seat for us then we went to the nearest cafe at Nyee Phoe flower garden when we reached, i thought its another flower shop but we walked around and saw many plants and decor which is so different think they design for rich people garden with all the plants and garden furniture this is the catus which are growing in a funny way its very soft unlike usual catus there's a show room for garden decor and its very neat and nice with...