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人 怕 的 是 变 老 不 是 死

That's what I have been fearing of eversince i start to know what this world is all about
getting old without anyone beside you, without any financial help, with lots of burdens, with unresolved problems to bring to my grave

so many things to think when one is getting old
its time to plan for future and start to save up for rainy days
but talking about saving is never easy

too many obstacles and problems to solve by money and with my "generous" character, money come and go easy like water

i know i have tried to save up alot but in the end i still cant resist those temptations of FOODS!
i spend most of the money on food, entertainment, playing, outing and travelling

future with no money really makes me fear
now i have not much burden but with children in future everything has to change
every cents i spend have to think of saving up for children and for their everything

i cant have mac & kfc whenever i like
i cant have swensen & cafe cartel when i crave for them

i have to think of my family
i have to think of my dad when he is getting old
i have to save up for my family and my dad
haiz why do i have so many things on hand to worry?

why do i have to go thru this road?
why cant i have a more smoother road infront of me?
is this what i should have get for all my wrong doings?
haiz.. be it my retributions or fortune

life still have to go on till i have paid back everything

i fear of getting old alone and seeing my children all grown up
cos when they grow up, means time for me to go is nearer
its the same when i have grow up and seeing my parents and elders getting old by each year and the thought of them leaving makes me sad
but this kind of cycle is never ending
everyone has to go thru this even though its hard to handle

but what can one do?
keeping memories of them in our heart is what we can do and bring up our children in a proper way to let them have a better life
thats what every parents would like to see their children to have a better life regardless of which generations they are in

i have live 25 years and i have achieve nothing in my life
its time to plan for my future now

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