Love . Trust . Appreciate .

didnt have a nice weekend as last nite had fever and this morn runnin even higher than last nite.. so today get mc and rest at home.. feelin giddy & whole body no strenght.. omg.. last nite keep dreamin and didnt sleep well... this morn whole body feelin very hot and keep sweatin.. well after sweatin me did recover and not so pain anymore.. anyway see doc and now restin at home.. sian.. no one to company me.. but thanks bao bei for takin care of me last nite...

OMG... im damn damn sleepy today.. last nite sleep at 3am cos went to West Coast to play poker cards with bao bei & ah wei.. had a great time there and alot of laughter.. but not enough time.. cos by the time we went there is 11pm+ and stay until 1am only as they are closing at 1am.. next time will bring the poker card along to whenever i go drink tea.. hahahahah... haizz sian lei.. tonight dunno go where.. mayb stay at home download songs can liao.. hahahahaha finally my broadband can use lo... woooooohooooo... going to stuck at my Media Player more often than ever le.. woohooo bao bei is going to say me in future cos i will spend more times infront of my pc le.. hahahhahaa.. bao bei dun angry hor.. i know u will say i neglect u becos of my pc.. dun worry la.. i will try to lessen it and keep u company whenever i can hor... *muack muack*..

yipppezzz this morn being drove to work by MR BAO BEI... woohoo... thanks dear... hmm though im late but im still the 1st to reach office.. so sleepy today cos last nite keep wakin up and didnt really sleep well.. keep dreamin abt somethin which i cant rem.. seems like im eatin.. and this morn wake up feelin damn hungry.. so me & bao bei went to maxwell eat and we meet for lunch as well.. woohoo.. thanks bao bei.. for feedin me until fatty bon bon.. ur wish will come true one day... but i will still go against ur wish of makin me fat!!! i'm not going to let ur wish come true so easily... but im happy tat u have send me to work and waited outside my office to go breakfast with me.. and somemore rush down to have lunch with me where u can slowly TU at home... *muack muack*

ytd after work went to bao bei hse for dinner and its my 1st dinner at his house.. hmm well everythin went well and didnt really had any pressure at dinner cos only me & bao bei eat together.. omg tats good cos i will get nervous if eat together... after dinner then went home bath and 10+ went for supper at Hillview Alameen with bao bei only.. hmm we 2 had mushroom cheese prata... woohoo yummy yummy.. so nice sia.. next time gonna go eat mushroom cheese again.. yeah well 2 of us stay there almost for 2hrs cos keep chattin and havin discussions about everythin... i like this kind of relations where i can tell him everythin and anythin of how i feel and even though i know he will be jealous... but bao bei.. sometimes cant help but to let u feel jealous hahahaha omg... no la.. jus wanna let u know how i feel & think of some certain things.. at least u are there to advise me.. well u eat rice more than i eat salt mah hahahahhaa... but dun advise too much wor.. u know how high pride...

Sat 21 May 2005 Sat noon went to west mall to sign up for my internet broadband plan.. haizz cant get starhub so got to sign up for Singnet le.. nvm la.. as long as its faster than my current one can liao.. sat noon was rainin heavily when i reached west mall.. zhenny was late and i had to wait for her outside M1 and somemore its rainin.. inside was very cold so had to stand outside.. wasnt tat cold but rain keep slashin in.. makin my leg wet.. sian.. waited for 20 mins and she finally appeared.. so went to MosBurger for my lunch.. and meet fenny and hong liang there.. both came window shoppin and after Mos Burger went to sign my plan... woohoo.. but can only be activated on the 26.. haizz super sian cos me tot can straight away use but still got to wait till 26... $*&^%!$#% at nite me and bao bei went to Loyang to pray with shao wei and reach there quite early cos after 12am alot of ppl as its Vesak day on sun.. so after dinner at mum home hse, went down to loyang and meet ah wei....

*yawn* damn tired & sleepy now.. last nite sleep at 3am cos went for supper with zhenny & bao bei at toh tuck to eat the "Ba cuo mee"... but before going for supper... fenny & hong liang came back teck whye for dinner and celebrate hong liang bdae.. cos his bdae is TODAY... so last nite sing a bdae song for him at 12am.. hahahaha so weird to have the sara lee cake as his bdae.. cos fenny they all cant make it to buy.. so jus bought a small cake.. well me cant resist the chocolate sara lee and after singing the song for him.. me go cut a piece for myself.. yummy yummy.. so long didnt eat the cake le.. omg im drooolin now.. so hungry now.. this morn no time to eat.. hmmph.. wake up too late and miss the time to eat... haizz later then go and eat.. mayb wait till lunch time and eat with zhenny cos going to meet her at west mall later to sign the internet plan.. woohoo.. going to have a broadband for my own use le.. damn sian.. sat no plannin to go anywhere cos its al...

yesterdae office internet was down from morn till late noon... damn sian and cant do much without internet.. life without internet is such a bored.. *yawn* these 2 days my life seem so blur.. dunno wat i have been doin and as though my days are passed so meaingless.. weekend is comin.. and haven plan to go where.. sian again.. thinkin of nowhere to go makes me bored.. mayb stay at home rest and watch tv better.. or tonight go drink tea.. yeah going to subscribe the starhub Maxonline plan le.. yipppezzz... hopefully can approve.. then can download songs at home le.. woohoo.. damn borin.. i wish to go holiday again.. workin life sucks!!!

last nite had dinner at mum hse and wasnt very full.. not enough vege cos too many ppl bah.. still full and tryin to find things to eat but in the end.. had an apple.. after dinner bao bei sent me home after june... and he went for work le.. so late still got to work.. ohh my poor bao bei.. must be very tired today huh... see when u free then massage for u hor.. last nite keep dreamin and dunno wat i dreamt oso.. dreamt alot of ppl.. even mum is inside.. dream of nos. too hahahahaha ermm think is 7295.. wake up and forget wat i dreamt.. but somehow it seem very real.. seem very familiar.. seem to have done the things and been to the places b4.. anywhere this morn cant wake up.. and didnt hear the alarm ringing... da give me a morn call at 745am and lucky i not really late for work.. this morn so tired.. standin inside MRT and leanin on the glass panel is my habit... but this morn while leanin against the panel.. i wanted so much to jus doze off.. eyes cant open and very sleepy.. very v...

yippezzz... photos had been washed out le... At East Coast In the car before settin for East Coast relaxin in east coast yeah.. me & zhenny.. sunny afternoon at bedok jetty hahahhaa too bright & lazy to open my eyes Yeah pics taken at Redang... woohooo yeah.. Jus reach Redang resot.. nice nice view me & kitty.. we jus finish our lunch infront of More More Tea Inn... super hot sunny noon me & bao bei in the shade hahahaa we are the 3 musketers... bao bei, me & calvin me & kitty in her bikini.. woohoo sexy lady me alone.. wat a stoney post dun be fool by the expression... relaxing on the cliff and opps.. tian mi mi hahahhaa ever seen a dracula in the daylight?? here's one last photo on the cliff morning departure.. 2 steamin face taking pics while enjoyin the sunrise mum had a malay daughter...

Sat nite having nite fever at Double O with bao bei, kitty & kitty frd; Allan... so long didnt went down and cant get the usual place as its all crowded when we reach there cos its around 11+ and outside having long Q too.. so went to the bar counter and found a place to stand.. hmm its too crowded tat nite and no place to dance.. ppl jus stand there and talk.. cowz.. keep squeezin here and there.. haizz wanna dance but dance half way must stop cos ppl passin by and no space to dance.. but surprise to saw Anselm, Anthony, Melvin, Anuar, Faizal & GF.. anselm & anuar celebratin their bdae and me had a slice of oreo cheesecake.. hmm it was yummy but jus not in the mood to eat cake in disco.. so eat half only.. didnt drink until drunk tat day cos its not good.. dun wan to have hangover on sun.. but very very tired tat nite cos went home straight away sleep le.. think im too bz & tired lately cos i have forgotten sat was me & bao bei 1 mth.. me felt so disgrace to have f...

Damn sleepy today.. time passed so slow today.. its only 4pm now.. sian.. still got 2 hrs to off work.. *yawn* dunno after work go where.. hmm mayb go home better bah.. go home do my Media Player.. yeah last nite upload some songs from CD which was borrowed from Sheng Da.. met for tea sessions with da, fun & june at Hillview Alameen.. Long time didnt had tea sessions in our this group of 4s.. had some little chit chat and wasnt very friendly last nite due to da attitude towards me.. hmm i know sometimes things cant be prevent.. since its all predestined then wat for still hanging on to somethin which cant be urs... All this draggin had caused bao bei alot of disturbance.. i know he wasnt feelin happy abt it.. i know its my fault for being undecisive.. i thought things could change to a better situation after my Redang trip.. but it seem to get worse.. i jus hope all this draggin could end soon with hurting anyone..

Back to work.. borin life again.. but me jus change new skin today.. wowoowow yippezz.. change to somethin which is more open to everyone.. no navigation so tat u all can see it once.. hmm me haven replenish enough from the rendang trip.. still feelin tired these 2 days.. tml is fri and time seem to pass much more faster after my trip.. tats great.. tonight gonna meet june for dinner at lot 1 and these 2 days wanna jio kitty out for dinner but she sooo bz.. haizz.. bz woman sia.. anywhere sat might be going to DBL O.. wowowow yeah yeah.. so long didnt went to DBL O... miss the times there.. miss all my frds too.. used to meet them once a week and tea sessions every weekend.. sometimes someday all this will be gone.. friendship dont last forever.. mayb this is jus the time for us to cool down.. and do our own things.. still rem the times i had when i was Adrian.. those were the times when every weekend, we will meet up with our kakis for supper, majong, movies, rounding... as days went ...

Yeah im back from my Rendang trip... back from my 4 days holiday.. woowowowow.. so many things to tell u all.. hahahahah im so happy & relax and well I did realise and achieve somethin when im at Rendang.. 1st day of reachin the island OMG... wat a beautiful beach they have there.. with those fine white sand and bright green blue sea water which is so clear where u can see the fishes swimmin around ur leg.. omg i really love the feelin when those small fishes are swimmin around me.. its like swimmin with them but somehow u cant touch them cos they are always on the move.. i love the hot breeze in the sunny afternoon... watchin the wave while lyin on the beach... OMG wat a way to relax myself and how much can life be so carefree and so quiet when facin the sea and hearin the wave sing.. blue sky with white clouds.. clear white green sea with super fine white sand.. with a small island on the side for decorations.. wish tat life could jus stop there and nvr move on.. Snorkelin 1st ti...

Last nite had a damn full dinner at JB Jumbo.. uncle, mum, zhenny, bao bei & me went in after work.. me took time off and then went to Guilin with bao bei.. reach JB around 7+ le.. and eat alot of "hao liao" wor.. hahahaha we had drunken prawns, fried boar with ginger slice, steam fish, shark fins (yummy yummy), veges... tat Jumbo is uncle favourite spot which he always go.. cos his frd is there.. and last nite ate until my stomach going to burst... me still drink 2 cans of Sarsi and last nite 2 legs havin cramps.. damn it!! now my leg still pain sia.. sob sob.. last nite bao bei peel the prawn shells for me and omg its so sweet hahahahaa.. last time is i always peel for others and now got bao bei peel for me le.. wowowowowo.. thanks bao bei.. last nite last min pack my things and this is the 1st time i so last last min pack my things.. haizz cos i really dunno wat to bring.. i always go shoppin in Malaysia and now going to beach.. dunno wat to wear and wat to bring.. so ...

wowowowow here are some pics taken at Desaru... theres one cute little japanese ger whom i really love alot.. she's jus so cute and big eyes with sweet smilin face.. Cutie ger Er-jie eatin dragon fruits... a damn big fruits yeah me & fatty aunt.. hahahah group pics taken after the tour of fruits farm.. someone bdae.. shld be ermm dunno who.. cutie ger again OMG i jus love her..

Yippezzzz.. tml nite leavin for Redang lor... wowowowow gettin so excited... REDANG HIP HIP HORAY.. REDANG HIP HIP HORAY.. REDANG HIP HIP HORAY.. yeah yeah.. finally going to relax myself and throw all my burdens & troubles aside for few days.. but i dun think i have the time to sleep enough... cos every morn have to wake up at 7am to get prepare for snorkellin.. OMG... so early and tats even early for me to get up for work.. but these few days haven been gettin up at 7am cos bao bei have to reach workplace by 830am.. so got to go with him as my workplace is oso at tg pagar.. but me have to walk 10 mins haizz... nvm la.. treat it as exercise lor.. and this way i wont be late for work oso.. *yawn* Mother's day i wont be in spore and June bdae too.. sorry june.. cant celebrate for u le.. but will get u somethin if there is anythin suitable for u at redang.. no promise wor.. hope u have a wonderful bdae.. too many ppl bdae which i cant celebrate.. OMG... sorry for leavin at this r...

lately dunno wat happen to me again... damn it.. into outer space again.. eversince i heard tat he got a "gf" i dun feel good.. not really dun feel good jus dun feel comfortable.. i really hate myself for gettin into this kind of emotional situation.. makin myself wonder in space.. i hope i can recover after this Redang trip.. yippezzz.. fri nite leavin le and so excited about this.. haven pack my things yet OMG.. gonna pack tonight le.. if not no time to pack.. dunno must bring wat thing and dunno how many shorts to bring.. haizz tonight then think la.. these few days, time seems to pass very slow in office.. *yawn*.. now the time is only 332pm.. sian.. still got 2.5hrs to go thru.. arghhh.. y cant my time in office move faster.. im so so tired now.. *yawn*.. jus wanted to go home eat and rest in bao bei arms owowowoowow.. ohh so sweet hahahhaa.. *muack muack* jus now saw some stupid pics by stupid hippo.. stupid idiot!!! show me some pics taken with those sluty bitches.. st...

30 April 2005 (Sat) Sat was a damn tired day for me.. didnt get enough sleep and have to go work but though its half day and i was very tired le.. after work went to lot 1 with zhenny to buy those food which im going to cook at nite for my Bao bei, June, Kitty & Calvin... well the dishes i think still can make it but dunno whether its really so nice anot.. anywhere the curry & celery is the most popular dish.. i didnt eat much tat day cos tired from cookin le.. After dinner went to clubbin yippezz.. went to Devils Bar and had a great time dancin there.. wowowowo but was dead drunk when i reach home.. dunno y drink so much and get drunk so easily.. damn it.. was really pai seh when i fall down but didnt really all fall.. haizz dun say liao.. wat a disgrace.. 1st May 2005 (Sun) Whole day at home relax with bao bei.. me play internet and he watchin vcd.. long time didnt rest at home le.. 6+ went to meet June for dinner at Plaza and bao bei didnt went cos he had to work.. went to k...