Love . Trust . Appreciate .

I cannot keep asking why all these is happening to me. I have ask what I want to do for my future and what I can do. All these while, the song that keeps me going is "Stronger" by Kelly Clarkson. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uxQAwmjellI&feature=youtube_gdata_player

Life is never simple and it takes alot of courage and perseverance to live on. It's is also not going the way we want. When things doesn't go our way, one have to keep looking for another way to achieve what we want. So many things I want to share but then, it's not easy for me. I need time to recover and replenish alot of things that I have lost all these months. I lost alot of things but then I gain alot too. I've changed. Change to become strong and more confident.

希望这次真的是雨过天晴。

我为什要这样的给他来糟蹋我？如果是我欠他，我希望我还完了。我的心再也承受不了这些折磨。他为什么要这样来伤害我？ 现在对他再好也是多余。和必要做贱自己。一个可以无情到连老婆都不要而要别人老婆的男人，这种人还可以要吗？ 是我当初没看清楚，用了六年的青春才看清。我因该很高兴他放手能让我去找一个跟爱我的人。但是我就是踏不出地第一步。心里还是希望他会回来。 很多人都说"何必能，这种人不要也吧"。我为什么还要留着他？因为他是孩子的爸爸所以一直希望他会回头。 我知道我因该去争取自己的幸福而不是每天为他流泪。一个把我的眼泪当成是无理取闹的人，是不值得我去爱。 心还是会痛。虽然没像当初那么痛，但我还是有感情的。不是说放就放。

I have 4 greet friends whom company me to Penang and help me to relax from the complicated issue at home. Though the matter still arising at home but I need a place to hide awhile. Running doesn't helps to solve the problem but staying at home makes things worse. I dunno when I'm going crazy over the marriage crisis but hope all can end soon to end my misery.

I like my new hairstyle

Isn't February suppose to be the month of love? Why am I out of love before February has come? 2 months before Valentine days.. 这是我的报应吗？ 还是月老忘了我？ 或者是我们的红线早已断了？ 一个人决定坚决的要分，不顾一切的放弃，原因只有一个，外来的干扰。这就能破坏一切。 我也用了六年的青春来看清一个人。原来男人都一样。 虽然接受很难但还是要面对。不能让一个没用的人给打败。我相信月老还是很疼我的。一定会找一个更爱我的人给我。