Love . Trust . Appreciate .

原来，心还会有心痛的感觉。。。 我以为我的心已经麻木了，不会再有什么伤感。为何还要让我走回以前的路。这种路不好走。是否因该停止结束了能？ 人老了，心再也没向以前那么的坚强。越老越脆弱，越难补回。也许不是我一个人有着这样的感觉。世上还有比我跟不开心的人在默个角落伤心流泪。想着把生命结束，忘掉一切。 因为不想下地狱继续痛苦，只好继续在人间痛苦。不是放不下，而是没必要为了谁而死。死不是结束，而是继续痛苦。 想不开，大哭一场，走出去就有路。路是自己选的。。。

人的一生， 不应该只有爱情。 虽然说爱的力量能胜过一切但是，没有爱情的日子还是有很多事等着我们。说是容易，有几个人能做到。 有时两个人在一起，需要很多的体谅和包容。 但是也要看情况。 不是什么都是你对我错。 第一次原谅，是希望他能知道自己错在那里。 第二次原谅， 可能是自己想不开。 第三次原谅， 是已经没什么希望， 没要求， 因为自己选的路要自己承担， 负者。希望便失望不是一朝一夕的事。 这一生，总会走错路。只要自己知道错在那里， 下一步会跟小心。不是什么都有第二次机会，第二次原谅。 是时间能冲淡一切， 还是时间能让心更麻木？ 心痛了，痛久了，心就累了，做什么都是多余的。心如死木。。。

2011 year has been a long year and some of the things are not too smooth. Though not very serious but work is not too good and either at home. Conflicts and misunderstandings arose and me having PMS every month. Not feeling good about everyone and everything but then, still have to endure. Treatment for my sweaty palm isnt working very well. Been going to TMC but due to the cost, i cant go every week. Its too much. Looking back at 2011, i have achieved 2 resolutions. Finally, a year which i have achieve my realistic resolution. ( 2011 resolutions ) Now looking forward, i should have something more than this year. 1. Complete WSH diploma 2. Get a higher and better job position 3. To sponsor a child 4. Lose weight to 55kg - 15kg to go 4 resolutions for 2012 and hope i can achieve it. Wishing all a happy new year and prosper year ahead!

Starting from this week, grant is going to N2 class. Nursery 2. Changed of teacher and class but it is just next door. Familiar teacher around him. The only worry is next year when we moved, he has to change school and start all over again. He is 4 years old next year and also getting rebellious and too independent. Sometimes he is getting on my nerves too much. Making me crazy like mad woman. Im aging too fast everyday..

November is the month of my many family and friends birthday. Mum, Pinky, Xiang Ting, Sintat and many more. For Mum birthday, we went to East Coast park to have picnic but raining seasons and we have a quick picnic and left. But the most interesting part is we ate the cake with our forks. Everyone took their forks and dig the cake to eat. No plate and straight from box. It was durian ice cream cake and super nice.   Grant is growing up and the way he talks is so funny. Makes me angry and then again he knows how to make me laugh.   When I said children cannot talk back and he replied "I never talk back, I talked in front!". Children are so innocent as angels and that's why they are the motivation for us to work more harder for them. When I heard what he said, I wanted to laugh out loud but still have to be serious on this. Sometimes he makes me crazy and sometimes happy to have him around. Children makes our life unpredictable and full of surprises.   Planning for 2...