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Wishing all M E R R Y C H R I S T M A S!!!

Today is christmas eve suppose to go guilin for dinner but mum need to work early and very tired so was cancelled and was suppose to stay at home but thinking of christmas eve alone at home makes me sad went to raffles city with june last minute decision walk alot today and wanted to buy cross stitch book but the shop i went 3yrs ago was gone maybe it changed to a new store so we went to chinatown, peoples park to buy and see see walk until chinatown point, june wanted to take photos and this is Grant 1st christmas photo with me now, alone at home and wee has gone to his frd chalet after his work my friend has "delicate" this song for me http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fekUw7FPuGw thanks to my friend, Jimmy Teo

“明明” 有一個老公﹐但是老公常常在外工做。 每天見面不到五個鐘頭 說話不到二十句 常常為了點小事吵架 老婆不習慣老公那麼受歡迎 很多人認識他﹐但他不認識別人 老公喜歡帶老婆出去見朋友 可是老公沒提老婆想她有多心苦 老婆每次帶孩子出去﹐都要帶很多東西 老公應為一句 “我不知道你要帶什麼” 就坐在那等﹐讓老婆一個人做 在外﹐老公要跟朋友應湊 就由老婆抱孩子 可是帶孩子出去玩 只有老公開心﹐老婆每次要照顧孩子而不能玩得開心 很多次老婆祇想老公在家陪她 但是老公有空就出去 不是喝茶就是唱歌 不是老婆不喜歡 而是要帶小孩很麻煩 常常都是老婆帶小孩自己出去 老公有自己的娛樂 老婆想要跟朋友出去但是 沒人幫她看孩子 因為這樣﹐老婆可能有猶豫症 老婆的情緒不穩定 老公看成是無理取鬧 因為這樣﹐老公越來越不耐煩 無法忍受他所謂的 “無理取鬧” 可是因為孩子﹐他們還是再一起 這種日子還要過多久??

Today finally see the sun coming out morn hurry wash the clothes and hang out to dry if not gloomy day come and all my clothes pile up in the basket sunny day, sunny mood tonight im going to cook asam fish with lady finger, carrot, onion and fried rice with bacon bits since only me and wee are eating, so 1 dish is enough cos inside so many ingredients everyday i have to think of what to cook and since wee mum is coming back on fri or sat, these whole week i have to cook for wee so that we can save money as you know outside food are so expensive im going to look for more receipes that are simple and easy

Realised that last year didnt have any resolutions maybe too tired to think of any cos pregnant with grant and working at the same time this year, im so so free to have my resolutions something i hope to achieve 1. To have a stable job 2. To save money thats all i think right now, this 2 are the most important things for me to do

This year, we didnt celebrate wee bdae cos he is working in the afternoon and to save money, we stay at home eat i hope i can get him a present when i get a job and take him to dinner at hotel then "open" a room after dinner hahahhahaa waste money lei but eventually, i hope to go holiday alone with him but i know thats not possible cos i cant bear to leave grant alone in spore anyway, happy bdae to baby wee though its 2 weeks ago

14 December 2008 Anu wedding was held at Mount Faber Safra Club Hindu wedding in a chinese restaurant Indian buffet lunch and Hindu ceremony This little bossy grant sit until like ah peh more pics at here Door gift but its placed on the table i wanted to drink coke but they only serve lime juice the food is good and fresh but the service there is not good i reach there around 1030 staff still arranging table and glass on the table no one serve drinks until 12pm they seem to be abit rush for opening everything is not arranged when the guest reach anyway, wish this couple happiness always and they are going for honeymoon in Greece lomantic sia!

Im so bored now online surf for "bored" more boring stuff come up makes me more sleepy going to have an early rest now good night

Saturday night, alone surfing net feel the weather outside cooling and nice i like the smell of night especially mid-night reminds me the time when im out for clubbing high heels, long jeans, sexy top miss the time i had with my friends i dont miss clubbing but i miss my friends if im still single now, i would be out either drinking or "la kopi" Saturday night will never be at home for me but now...

Zambuk is specially for naughty children today, grant finally use his zambuk for his black & blue afternoon while i was out for dancing, wee take care of grant and when he is watching tv, grant has knock his face on the table i was so angry angry with wee for not taking good care of him angry with wee for not putting all the attention to me haiz man are always so irresponsible

Lately i've been lost lost of what should i do why no one wants to hire me? because im with a kid and they need to give my childcare leave? or because im not young anymore once again, im lost confidence in myself so i went to bugis and pray to guang yin and ask for a lot she ask me to 忍 bear for the time being nothing i can do much though i wanted to do something so much i hope time will pass soon i hope i can get a good job soon and earn big money so now all i can do is 忍 忍 忍

This little devil is getting more and more naughty or maybe i should say more and more active when we are all tired and he is still moving around and exploring things here and there Today, he is 9mths old another 3 more months, he is going to be 1 year old now he is starting to understand what i say he knows how to use his finger to press the toy buttons and pictures on the pillow he know when i scold him for throwing my hairband down the window and quietly look away like not his business he knows he have to finish his porridge before he can have his little snacks he knows he cannot open the drawer in the kitchen and when he saw me coming, he quickly pull the drawer out he is just doing opposite he is learning and im dying soon dying of exhaustion

Home alone again for another week today MIL & FIL has went to Hainan for treatment and massage for a week so this whole week im home alone again I love home alone

All i want for christmas is TO BE HAPPY!

Today is World AIDS day and also baby wee bird day today his bird day but he still going to work cos he wants to save his leave for next day and anyway, bird day is just another day im not working thats why no money to buy him anything maybe next year or when im working i will give him something check out more on AIDS day here

This morn went for an interview in a bank which bought over the brankrupt bank and now it is the biggest bank interview for secretary and job scopes is really busy and challenging too not those slow pace environment ok where got bank slow pace one right but i hope i dont OT too much the interviewer is "interested" in me hahaha but she is a ger if im selected, i will be assisting her as a junior secretary cos they are the senior secretary though bank might be a better place for me but i hope to get somewhere nearer here im still waiting for the reply from one of the big fire & security co near here where my travelling time is less than 20mins thats perfect near hougang and can come back on time dont need to work OT though the pay is less 200bucks but then, depends who wants me now im a nobody with no master