A person without any pay check is really miserable with no job and that means no income to live in luxury where good food are available and shopping is no big deal to have all these thing, i really want to go work and have the money to get the things i want but now i have no chance to work till 4 months later or maybe later when Grant is more stable and if possible, someone who can take care of him when i go to work life after pregancy is going to be very tiring and stress when all the time and strenght are to be given to baby and without time and strenght, how are one going to work for money worse still is that no time to go out and have all the fun and everyday got to be at home taking care of baby though freedom is going to be lost for few years, but sometimes i think that the rewards are greater and all these scarifice are worth it