Love . Trust . Appreciate .

1st time in this office doing my blog today is really a free day no manager, no MD, no one to bother me to do work i do wat i like and rest as much as i could hardly had time to rest like today everyday is a busy day when my manager is around today is Friday!!! but after work im going home to sleep cos its been raining since morn and im have been feeling sleepy from morn people said, pregnant woman must stay happy, but how am i going to stay happy with all the works and stress within me stress at work and home once again, the plague of the "not-happy-diease" is here to conquer me i felt not happy again or maybe i have never felt happy before i have long forgotten the feeling of being innocent and happy and indudge in love and freedom such feeling are gone away from me somemore crying spell is coming too and its making me crazy soon why do i have to suffer from all these mental torture

I wonder how long i can stay in the office my manager will be leaving in 2 months time and this company is not willing to confirm me to perm as they prefer to get a temp where its more cheaper now and do more things for now, take things at a step.. not many company would wants to hire a pregnant woman cos they scare to give them 3 months maternity leave stingy company makes them look bad though they can make up another reason but the main reason is still the leave which they think its not worth it when a woman becomes pregnant, no one wants to hire

This morn went for a scan and doc said my baby is growing well but the water lump still remains though it gets smaller by few mm only lately has been feeling pain in the abdominal and thats why today went for a safe check hope that water lump will goes off by itself everyday i have to drink so much water and go to the toilet so many times that makes me so tired i have to drink the rice water, bird nest, milk, water how many things i have to drink? thinking of drinking so many things, i still prefer plain water rather than bird nest im so used to drinking plain water and every now and then i have to drink different kind of drinks thinking of drinking milk makes me sick too i prefer choco milk but nurse said that will cause more constipation... haiz being pregnancy is really a tough task this cannot, that cannot, this must eat, that cannot eat i still got 8 more months to bear until i get my life back but i dun think i can get my freedom back anymore how noble a mother is? im still not s...