Love . Trust . Appreciate .

Finally a year of relationship with bao bei has ended on the 21st May 2006 This whole year many things happned and things which aint meant to be happen happened Our relations cant last cos our characters is so much different and im also being too sceptic towards him in a relationship, no one is at fault each of us doesnt owe anyone anything sometimes fate comes & goes in jus a wink jus a word of caution: don't take anyone for granted in life. be it ur parents or familes or even frds, treat everyone with the same attitude

Things are gettin more and more complicated than what i have been thinkin previously too much things to consider too many things to worry abt cant seem to have a peace of mind the tension is gettin higher when day goes by everyone seems to be on the stage and problem is dun care u like it or not u still got to carry on actin sometimes people got no choice but to do somethin which they dun like due to the situation ya i can understand but i can hardly forgive myself for doin somethin which is so ridiculous i do feel unbearable sometimes but i know its unavoidable life got to carry on no matter u like it anot

what do one see in a marriage? all i can see now is pain, hurt, unfairness, divorce, sad, betrayed and miserable while those are the negative for my positive thoughts are someone there to care, someone to be love and to love, happy times with kids, building up families ties marriage aint that bad except when kids are there of kids will be the love of ur life but time and understanding between husband and wife will greatly decrease time are spent into kids and everyday busy lookin after the kids well this is the cycle of marriage? im aint too sure of what marriage life are but my imagination took me to a bad place where i have met so many cases where marriage doesnt work out experiences of those who unhappy marriage occurs makes me sick and me havin a marriage is too much for me to take it now too much things to consider and problems will always come along cant one be single for life and jus have frds?

I AM A BAD TEMPER GER I AM A PAMPER GER I AM AN UNREASONABLE GER I AM AN IMPATIENT GER I AM A PETTY GER I AM A SELFISH GER I AM A GER WITH BAD ATTITUDE TO CUT IT SHORT I AM A BAD BAD GER!

im lost lost in a world of complicated human lives many people are lost too how many of them can really accept the fact that this is life? or they rather choose to run away from the problem? run away does help to solve it but awhile problem arise again when things are cool down and everything is back to normal thinking that its the past and once again they can create more problems for everyone those who cant accept the changes might face some difficulities but whatever the problem are pls mind ur own business why bother so much abt others affair?? does it makes u happy to know everything? or does it satisfied ur curiousity mind? if it does then jus say it out i dun think there's a need to hide anything if we are frds frds are there to support u and not to despise even if u dun like ur frds to do such things but what can u do except to give advice? there's no such needs to look at them thru colour eyes save it for urself!

a year ago, i jus returned back from Redang last year redang trip was really nice and beautiful sea was blue and clear sand was white and clean fishes are happy and swimming around me happy memories in Redang 2005 though i cant really rem much but i love the sea, the sand, the breeze, the water, the fishes, the turtles, the shark, the night, the people and most of all i love the hammock there lazing on the hammock after every snorkelling and enjoyin the caress of the breeze while listening to the whispering of the waves what a great way to relax at Redang

I love the way you tease me I love the way you make me laugh I love the way you laugh at me I love the way you look at me I love the way you talk to me I love the way you touch my face I love the way you touch my hair I love the way you touch my hand I love the way you touch my waist I love the way you touch my shoulder I love the way you care for me I love the way you protect me Most of all I LOVE THE WAY YOU KISS ME

There's nothing fun in Taipei but there's alot of night market to walk everyday we will go to different night market to walk and buy things but problem is we 3 (June, wee & me) walk for an hr and we will be super tired le we dun have those shopping legs and no stamina to walk so long everytime we walk for awhile and i wanted to sit down and rest le cos cos my back is so pain im so lazy to go out to shop and i rather stay in hotel everyday watchin tv and sleep well thats a waste of time rite ya but no choice cos sometimes the weather is so nice to sleep its cold and windy no heavy rain but drizzlin and cool cool wind to brush against ur face that was a nice feelin over there food wasnt too bad except its too salty and aint fresh enough bread wasnt nice cos put too long le and easy cold things too ex in those dept store gers aint that pretty but clothes are they dare to wear or mayb their weather let them have more choices to wear those clothes which we wont wear in spore i d...

omg can u believe that im leaving singapore in 5 hrs time leaving everything back in spore leaving my problems, my anger, my work, my room, my dog and most of all my sad bao bei sorry bao bei... muacks ok now im waiting for the time to pass and dunno what else can i pack into my small small luggage cant pack too many things to go over cos I HAVE TO BRING ALOT ALOT ALOT OF STUFF BACK well 1st time to taipei and i hope this trip is a good one hope there are many things to buy but i know there's sure alot of food to eat and im gonna be super fat when im back woohoo yummy yummy food over there now im very sleepy and tired cos last nite cant sleep and turn here and there im gonna miss my bao bei so much bao bei must miss me ok?? abit can liao dun need too much MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS i will bring many gifts for u ok... if there's anything suitable for u hor I WILL MISS U ALL BYE SPORE!!!

In 5 more days, I will be out of Singapore again yeah again last trip overseas was to Redang and it was on March now is May and Im out of here soon to go overseas is to escape reality throw everything and everyone behind these troubled world but Im throwing my bb back at home alone too cos he cant go with me as he cant get the leave so we 3 person going alone to Taipei we (june, wee & me) are going in a group of 3 and june is the 1st time to join us and im the 1st time to go without any bb beside me jia liat.. how can a pampered ger survive in Taipei when stupid is going to torture with all the walking of night market?? i need to get more salonpas for my relaxation and hope there's a bathtub for me to soak in after all the shopping but problem is WE HAVE NO HOTEL TO BOOK IN YET!!! omg I DUN WAN TO SLEEP ON THE STREET!!! I DUN WAN TO BE A WANDER GER wander around and looking for hotels sob sob sob STUPID WEE!!! HMMPH! anyway i haven pack anything yet everything seem so scattered...

Yesterday was an completely eating outing sunday for me we (wee, june & me) went to shangri la "The Line" for our lunch and there are having the "The Brunch" buffet which cost $68.00+++ they have alot of spread and nice food oso but seafood wasnt that good on sun mayb too many ppl and not enough time to cook properly bah haiz next time we go ala carte ok?? dun need to waste so much money on that stupid buffet after our brunch, we went up to the lobby lounge to have some tea and on the way to shit too stupid wee wanna shit after eating and still must choose upstair toilets cos downstair he said alot of people so all went to the lobby lounge and waiting for him to finish shitting while waiting, i wanna shit too cos too many input liao so must output oso so when i got back to the lounge, they have ordered 2 pots of japan green tea haiz........................ I DUN LIKE JAPAN GREEN TEA..... I PREFER ROSE TEA OR ENGLISH TEA next time pls dun ordered for me unless we...

I have a dirty house which is never clean I have a dirty house which is always full of shit i hate my house i hate doing all the chores everyday i hate cleaning up the place when i have done it yesterday i hate cleaning up the toilet where its smelly and dirty everyday i hate going home to clean up i hate my room when its smelly and dirty i hate being at home where i have to clean up everyone mess i hate my house i hate everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!