Love . Trust . Appreciate .

yeah she is back on sun nite and is back to celebrate Chinese New Year.. or rather take ang bao hahahahaha anyway she will be back till Aug (i hope) and thereafter we will go back to Swiss with her for holiday woohoo getting excited abt this holiday.. and omg have to save up many many many money for this trip need at least 5k for myself cos 2k for ticket and 3k for shopping.. S$3k = 1.5k Euro haiz half nia.. enough meh,, not like malaysia.. change double... can buy as much as we wan but i think most of the time is jus see scenery.. and visiting those factory or winery she will be bringing us to Italy to buy Imitation LV and lots of stuff im getting super excited about holiday now cos its been a long long time since i go overseas I NEED A BREAK

Your word is: Sad. You wanted to give yourself to someone. But they didn't accept you. Being rejected, whether it be from family, friends, love-interests or peers, is a very hurtful thing to go through. It is also likely that you have been betrayed several times before, which is why you keep away from everyone now. You learned the hard way to never trust people and your defence-mechanism is now to isolate yourself. Yet you yearn for people who will understand and like you, to have the thing you never had: love. What Dark Word Represents You? [anime pics] brought to you by Quizilla

"Happiness can subside, but frustration never lets go" You have been awfully mistreated in your life by your fellow peers and/or family, and feel a growing frustration towards your life and your inability to do anything about it. Since no one has ever really been there for you, you bottle most things inside. And that is quite a lot of pain bottled up too. Deep inside you yearn for many things; feelings for affinity, for the world to improve, for people to stop being judgemental amongst other things. Let your hope in improvement is very low, and believe you only have the power over yourself. When you are in larger crowds you tend to get irritated by the prescence of others, so you keep to yourself. Those who know you are probably aware of the hate you carry, but you rarely do anything about it. What is Your Phrase? [for darker people]

in a telephone conversation ger: helo.. how u lately? boy: yeah.. im ok.. ger: got new gf liao huh? boy: oh how u know?? who told u that? ger: hahahaha no one la... jus purely guessing boy: ohh.. ger: better treat her rite ok boy: ok dun worry i will treat her good ger: ya hope can be better than me boy: i treat u no good meh? ger: hmm not say not good but not very good boy: .... ger was jus purely guessing that he got a new gf and she had strike the bull eye.. she wish that she had miss it boy: how u and ur bf? ger: bf?? im alone now boy: wat happen?? ger: since u got gf liao then i can be alone now boy: why do u have to do this? ger: cos i dun wan our relation to repeat the process of break & patch every now and then slience... ger: anyway hope u can be happy with ur new one and treat her good ok boy: ok sure... ger: got to go now.. take care.. bye boy didnt say "Bye" and which he always dun say to ger and this always make ger very pek chek cos its so rude to jus end th...

boy: y do u keep ignoring me?? ger: *slient* after awhile... boy: what i done wrong? ger: i had enough of you! i had enough of ur attitude! slience continue boy: what i have done to make u so angry? ger: i had enough of your revengeful mind. Why must u always win in every situation? ger was thinking of so many things to say but something jus stop her from sayin it all out ger hate all the arguing.. ger hate boy for not coaxing her when he had done wrong.. ger hate boy for treating everything that happens like nothing.. ger jus hate everyone who gets in her way!

Here's the process of my BB dying hair he wanted to get rid of his SUPER BLACK HAIR after his reservist cos he cant tahah le hahhahaa so before starting his work.. he must get his hair into color alright 1st step is : BLEACH!!! . . . . . . bleach his whole hair and have to cover with aluminium foil to make sure its all bleach something funny abt bleaching hahahaa look all cover and an ANTENA right at the top of the head hahahahaha atena is to make sure the aliens know that he's bleaching hair now so that they wont disturb him after bleaching.. whole head become GOLD .. yes YELLOW GOLD .. super bright.. now Weng (the hair stylist) going to do some pattern on his head.. divide into 3 parts.. left, middle and right see the red color.. its in the middle.. from the front to behind.. see the white color divider.. its to separate the left and right side from the middle so its going to be turn out very bright red and more like chilli red.. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . opps! its blue...

its NEW YEAR lo... woohooo time to indugle myself into the eating festive where u eat everyday & gamble New year job is to eat all the food, snacks and drink all the drinks, beer and everything.. if not after the celebration alot of food will be left for the ants, housefly, crockroaches, rats and all the yucky animals & insects This new year nini might be coming back to celebrate... woohoo so miss her now.. she had missed alot of new year with us.. this time round we gonna have fun wahahahha im not really excited about CNY but i can rest so many days hahahahaha its a long weekend for me woohoo i like holiday.. holiday perks me up.. but not able to go overseas for new year.. haiz.. anyway here wishing u all a Happy Chinese New Year...

Most of the people whom i dunno see me as a "Da xiao jie" which means im pamper at home and do nothing and wait for people to serve They see me as the unreasonable ger and born with sliver spoon in my mouth where i get what i want.. but the truth is terribly opposite of what they see me as I dun really get what i wan and most important is I DUN LIVE IN BIG HOUSE WITH LOTS OF MONEY WHERE I CAN GET TO BUY WHAT I DESIRE! I dun have maid to wash my laundry, do house chores, clean my dog and even cook.. i might not have all this luxuries but im happy with my life and im happy with what i've got Though i do desire something which is highly expensive but i dun have capital to achieve it and i know i wont be happy even when its given to me.. cos i have been thru a stage where i know money cant buy happiness even though i get things which i really do desire and i know without money, happiness wont be with u for long.. isnt we human contradictin ourself?? haiz im sick of this socie...

ah ger my little cousin cum pinky small sis... look how cute she is and she is only 5 years old nowadays kids are so good at talking and clever.. they are good at talking back and imitate ppl.. alright less words and see the pics bah she looks shy at 1st but actually she likes to pose infront of the camera and giving those funny faces of hers there she is playing with the straws this is pinky and she's eating salted fish fried rice pinky trying to help me catch hold of ah ger to let me take pics of her cos ah ger keep movin here and there hahahaha lastly is my BB... woohoo

Something interesting and sad happen and i think its pretty late for me to discover this news online its a cat with only 1 eye and no nose.. looks scary at the 1st sight but somehow the longer i see.. its very cute and wonder how it looks like when the cat grows up anywhere.. heres the link http://news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&u=/060109/480/nyet27501091906

got some pics from fenny cos she said the previous one are too old hahahhaa so she send me some new ones here its is

few days ago while cleaning up my room i found these old pics taken ages ago.. ok these pics are for the 3 crappiest sisters i have and was taken 2 years ago times files and all have grown up and bz with our own things and have our own lifestyle.. i miss the times when we are all together at home playing all sort of things and making my mum angry hahahahhahaa but now no much chances to gather again and having all the laughters and jokes.. only when everyone is gather up and damn it.. heaven will turn into hell this pic is taken at Penang the highest temple there and i forget what name is it but i know its very beautiful up there and serenity was perfect i like the view up there and its so windy.. when i saw this pic i was like ermm.. why do i look so old when im only 20?? and now im 25 ppl said im actually younger hahahahhahaa.. thats a good one when ppl say u look younger.. rite gers?? this taken at West Coast Park few years ago.. sitting high up at the pyramid.. woohoo so Shiok sia i...

suddenly wanted a simple and plain blog as im getting pretty emotional unblance lately think its due to the weather bah.. making me getting mood swing uncertainly and anytime it pops up i could do nothing.. only thing i can do is to suppress it lately been feelin sick and having headaches more frequently.. weather makes me crazy.. sometimes too cold and sometimes too hot and making me unable to adjust to it so take care everyone and drink lots and lots of water and less kopi ok.. cos kopi makes one heaty and easily headaches muack muack

things start to change after i get this job.. working hrs is long and more OT which i cant claim and its not compulsory but sometimes work jus cant finish on time and to avoid a moutain to be create on my desk.. i try my very best to clear as much as possible clear until im tired and giddy.. *sob im expecting my limit too much.. i cant get it done on time which i set and keep pushing myself to the limits.. haiz.. dunno why i have to push myself so hard.. cant relax here.. anyway its good to keep myself busy too easier to sleep at nite mah hahahahhaa.. dun have to worry about insomia and weekend can sleep until noon where the sun heat up my room and therefore waking me up i love my weekend.. i love to slack on weekend.. cos weekdays i have to wake up 630am which is something that makes me crazy.. insufficient sleep and insufficient meals.. i think i will slim down sooner or later woohoo i can become thin again.. yeah yeah

To build a TRUST u might need months, years or even ur whole life To destroy a TRUST, 1 second is enough! being cheated or lied, once is enough let alone twice easily trust in someone where u place a high hope but one day u found out that everything that u place in is down in the drain when u see something which u have always hope not to see and always hope that it wont happen and always pray that this doesnt happen to u but things doesnt go ur way and thus u lose hope in this beautiful world.. u lose hope in everything and everyone.. no matter how u try to trust anyone again.. fear is always there to obstruct ur way to achieve this TRUST! how can someone ever gonna trust again when the trust is far away? is there really no way to cure SCEPTIC??

i'm super tired working here.. everyday wake up at 7am or even 630am.. i wonder how long can i take it.. my mental and physical cant really take the stress im in cos its full of shit.. today i had to wake up at 630am cos i need to take over the secretary as she is on leave.. its not something bad when i have to take over but the problem is too early for me.. i felt so tired and sleepy now.. jus wan to go home sleep but haiz.. over the weekebds i had slept too much le.. making me insomia last nite.. sleeping at 3+.. omg.. its a torture for me.. i hate to have insomia.. its jus a torture for everyone.. my life is so much upside down.. im feeling tired.. im feeling sleepy.. i think i can slim down pretty fast..

Yesterday went to Sentosa with BB at 4pm.. ok i know its pretty late to go but its raining.. and we woke up late.. but its fun in the rain and "heng" we didnt catch any cold or fever after the raining.. 1st thing we went for is the Sentosa 4D Magix show.. we took bus to the Carlsberg Sky Tower as the magix show is in that area.. so we alight there and ask for the information about the magix show.. adult is $16.00 and we think that its hmm ok for us.. but we are hungry and went to the coffee bean for lunch.. OMG.. its a great view up there where u can see the PSA and part of Sentosa.. its quiet and all the slience after the rain is so cool.. i love the moist moist type of feelings high up the top where i can view the tress and greenry.. after lunch we wanted to buy the tickets for the show but something caught our attention and it seems to be very fun.. YESH!! its super super fun and especially in raining days (ytd rains heavily) .. its super slippery.. its super wet.. its...

is stress.. stress in filing cos its all about law which involved land and properties.. im stress over filing.. i wan something more challenge than filing.. i need something which can trigger my brain to work.. this filing will take me 2 days to finish a small stack.. ya small stack.. cos sometimes i need to file in 10 different files for jus a report.. damn it! its making my hands pain.. i hate to do filing.. i rather they ask me to type whole day than filing.. sob sob.. 1st day of work and im bz filing.. messy files and incorrect naming makes things more difficult to move on.. im tired now.. haven been resting since 830.. not even breakfast.. arghhhhh im tired and sleepy cos i need to wake up at 7am everyday.. but when BB go for reservist.. i need to go out at 715.. which means i need to wake up at 635am!! though its jus 25 more mins but I NEED MY BEAUTY SLEEP!! sleep is so important to me.. i need more sleep than rice hahahahaha sian got to start my filing liao... *yawn........

woohoo 1st day of a new year 2006 and i blog my 1st post in my BB office and its 933pm now.. hey 933?? YES933 hahahhahaa... say say only la new year new day and im sleeping till 1pm.. omg i've not enough rest for the past 2 weeks.. though i have quit for 2 weeks but these 2 weeks i've been playing and almost everyday im out to hmm PLAY!! hahhahaha wat a relaxing and stree-free life i had.. but haiz.. Tue got to start work liao.. but woohoo im excited to start cos new year new work.. hope i can do well in my new job.. anyway Happy New Year everyone.. and i wish everyone can have a smooth 2006 and be happy everyday.. stay in good health and many many money roll to ur pocket... woohoo if ur pocket is too full... i wont mind to lend u mine hahahaa muack muack... Happy 2006